Here's my conclusion about my life.

I'm tall, but I act like a little kid. I'm studying informatics, but I know nothing about computers. I love music, but you couldn't categorize my musical taste if you tried. I jump rope, but how many people know what that means? People jump rope all over the world, but nobody has a style quite like mine. I've decided my college major, but I only picked it because nothing else feels quite right. I'm in college to get success and money, but I don't care about either. I'm supposed to live at school, but I'm always gone. I love being social, but I also love being alone. I'm a guy, but I'm not "one of the guys." I'm accepting of everyone, but apparently that's weird to some people. I'm a spiritual person, but I don't believe in God. I don't believe in God, but that doesn't mean it/he/she/whatever doesn't exist. I love cantaloupe, but it makes me poop a lot.

I can talk and laugh and love, but I don't really belong anywhere.

And I'm not happy about it, but I'm not willing to compromise my uniqueness to fit in either. Yup, one-of-a-kind. Shaun Hamilton once told me:

"And you...you're just an anomaly."

It's stuck with me ever since. And also reminds me of Neo, the sixth anomaly in The Matrix So I think I'll stay that way, and when I find that community or that person with whom I feel I belong, it'll be that much more special. I just have to keep going and keep looking for it. And I'm tired...but if I give up I'm just going to slip back into the same rut I was in before. All of that sad music and day dreaming can feel good...but at the same time it's crippling. No good.

I'm sorry about these entries. They've been so back and forth and always so serious. But I'm at a strange point in my life and so I blog what feels right. Bear with me :)

Muffy over and out

Hah... I understood u the first time. :)

» merrick on 2010-02-26 07:46:20

do what you gotta do brother.

you belong here, on nutang.
» thaitanic on 2010-02-26 09:52:02

Everyone's and anomaly and I can see that you are emo-ing, as I am right now. I know how it is like being an anomaly cause I am one for almost all my life. I only feel at ease when I'm with my best friend. Thank goodness she is there most of the time or I would've killed myself or something. Sometimes, what sets us out of a group is what we are pround of and yet brings sadness to us.
» Nuttz on 2010-02-26 10:35:45

well, if you take your current pps and subtract it from what your total is after twsnbm, you will get a number between 10 and 30 (iirc), that you can keep and sum up.

Once I figure out what the event is, I will probably lobby for it to be advertised on the "weekly" NuBlog.
» ikimashokie on 2010-02-26 04:10:54

Re:
By that I meant it's time to pay my fees again. I go into the routine of being emo, depressed, being angry at my parents which leads to an arguement about their way of life and then I just shut a lot of people out.
» Nuttz on 2010-02-26 10:19:24

Back and forth? What now?
» randomjunk on 2010-02-26 11:31:04

R:C
Has been/promises to be even more epic. Just waiting for my head to clear in order to fully articulate what's been going down.
» ranor on 2010-02-27 03:23:12

Yeah, I guess it isn't obvious to me if you change moods in your posts. You always seem kinda upbeat to me... It could be just relative. :P

Talking to Mister Boyfriend is nice, but we don't really talk that much, and usually when he calls me he talks about his day and then I comment on it. Plus he's been sick and it worries me. I figure that if it's a choice between talking to me and getting some rest, he should do what's best for his health...
» randomjunk on 2010-02-28 02:51:37

This anomaly business could become a successful book in the future ^_^.

» Mockiller on 2010-02-28 06:38:48

re:
I live just 30 minutes away from Long Beach!

Oh yeah, and the replacement mirror is around $200.
» Mockiller on 2010-02-28 07:05:59

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