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Insomnia strikes again
Friday. 6.20.08 2:02 am
I just discovered that The Format, one of the few bands I have ever desired to see in concert, are on hiatus indefinitely. My dreams are crushed. I even made up a piano arrangement for their damn song! What the EFF...

"Why are you so pathetic, Muffy?" Shut up. The next thing you should be wondering is "Muffy, why are you up at 2 in the morning?" Ladies and gentlemen, we've already gone over this, I'm an insomniac, plain an simple. No matter how much turkey I eat (the melatonin puts you to sleep), I cannot drift away to lalaland. It's impossible.

Apparently my parents were oblivious of my intentions to continue jump rope through college. So my dad gets on my case today, as if it were his problem anymore...remember, you're not paying for it, so shut up and get out of my business. I suppose this has been a good reminder though, to keep looking for ways of bringing in money, whether it be through work on campus or through scholarships. I'm really hoping this Resident Adviser position works out for me next year. It completely covers room and board, and gives me the Gold level food package, which is even more than I currently have ordered. Oooh snaps, that saves $10,000 a year...*drools*

I should probably get some sleep, seeing as how Nationals is in less than a week and I need to be in tip-top shape. Muffy over and out!

P.S. Is it just me or does the white text against the black background make your eyes hurt? I should think to change this in future latyouts...
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Do not try to bend the spoon. That's impossible. Instead, try to realize the truth. There is no spoon. Then you will see that it is not the spoon that bends, it is only yourself.
11 Comments.


I didn't know being an RA came with so many perks. :0

White text on a black background is better than black text on a white background. The latter is really bright... Neither make my eyes hurt, though. :P

If white hurts your eyes, what does my neon green do?
» randomjunk on 2008-06-20 06:10:47

How much sleep do you get every night, Muffy?

Resident Adviser sounds like a really nice position to have.

White against black is okay, doesn't hurt my eyes..
» Nuttz on 2008-06-20 08:19:01

Black on white is hard to read... but I guess it depends on who you are.
» jinyu on 2008-06-20 04:41:15

two AM isn't that bad. I've had to be at work at 2am before.

I actually think that my red text on the black background is more difficult on the eyes than your white on black. then again, it might just be me.
» LostSoul13 on 2008-06-20 11:21:45

lol what exactly do you do for relay for life? o_O *has no idea whatsoever*
» crz4manga on 2008-06-20 11:31:43

I bought tickets to see The Cure (aka: the band that taught me how to feel) in October, but they posponed their show to play at Sasquatch, which I couldn't go to :(. And who knows? Robert Smith could DIE soon!

I am so excited that you are almost a Kollege stoodent! Almost enough to buy you a graduation gift. Maybe I shall bequeath you my shot glasses and handcuffs.
» Someones_Muse on 2008-06-21 10:54:14

white text and black background?
Seems fine to me. Contrast is a good thing.

Sorry. I'm a busy dude.

Yeah, I know where you stand. But you seem pretty interesting in the subject, right? Surely a change in your world view wouldn't be out of the question?

Just, the way you said it makes things sound so done and finalized. Which is bad!

Yes. I am nuts.
» middaymoon on 2008-06-21 05:09:50

Fair enough, I suppose.
Just...really think about it. Our existence calls for closer examination. For example, you say that the idea is ridiculous. Lots of people have the idea that spirituality is far fetched, illogical, a figment of our imaginations. Which is weird, I think.

More ridiculous than what? Scientific theories about the fabric of existence are completely off the wall, and most people can barely even grasp the concepts. Even if it WAS a weird concept, which I don't especially think, that's no reason to dismiss its potential truth. And definitely not its importance

As for illogic, there's no reason way that the concepts go against a logical framework. Makes good sense to me. More than ignorance would. (By ignorance, I mean the ignoring-of, not stupidity)

Some people say that God is just our imagination, the "opiate of the masses". But if that was true, don't you think our God would be a more...tame? The real imagineers are the ones who say they believe in a positive "life force". People want something to back them up when they're good, but also something they can ignore when they aren't. My God isn't one that I would choose if I could make one up. But he seems very much more real to me than anything else I've heard.

I'm sorry if this is getting annoying, but some people choose their atheism or agnosticism not because they've carefully researched and made a selection that they see makes sense, but simply because they don't like it. People are happy, these days, to keep their noses stuck in the world and never look up. It feels safe. And I hate it when I talk to people and they pull the "open minded" thing. What does that mean? Seems to me some people just don't like to think about it. But if they did, they'd be amazed at what they find.

Just...give it some real, serious consideration. Whether I'm right or wrong, there IS a truth out there, (not that "what I believe must be true" junk. Talk about wishful thinking) and people need to take serious consideration of how they'll live their lives. You're going to live it one way or another, and if you don't do some soul searching, who's to say how you'll make your choices? Do you want to be a silly putty that is molded by every aspect of society it meets?
» middaymoon on 2008-06-21 06:55:02

What, just because I stayed up until 9 AM and then slept for four hours, there's something wrong with me? I feel fine!
» randomjunk on 2008-06-21 08:53:28

going in order...kind of
If we were only talking about whether you should, say, take up a career in teaching, than the "I don't care" argument would be totally valid. But we're talking about more than that; we're discussing whether you have a proverbial piano hanging over your head, whether life is a beautiful thing or just a lot of chemical reactions, etc. I mean, if there was a rumor going around that the creator of the entire universe wanted to hang out with me, I'd at least be interested to know whether it was true or not. If I wasn't interested, it would be because I already thought, for some reason, that the rumors are false. Not believing something is a silly reason to not see if it's true. (Unless you already KNOW)

Good. The silly putty analogy is a total extreme. I don't actually know of anyone like that. But, when you sat down and made your values, what did you base them on? Who or what shaped your paradigm (basic world view) up to that point? And how will you keep it the same? Whether you like it or not, you ARE influenced by society. Not a huge amount, but it wears people down. Over time, your paradigm changes based on what you accept, even if you don't mirror the actions. Like watching lots of gory movies desensitizes some people to death. It isn't about what is or isn't true to you, it's who you are that changes.

The reason I bring up paradigms is because your paradigm is how you see the world. Whether you acknowledge them or not, everyone has a basic set of beliefs that you need to function. It's your faith. The only thing you have for sure is, "I think, therefore I am." Other than that, your entire life is based on faith. There's no such thing as pure agnosticism. You DO believe something pertaining to religion (atheism counts). It's what you've based your life on. It's who you are. Otherwise you WOULD be silly putty, at best, or insane and incompetent at worst. The way I see it, there are two basic things going on. On one hand, you base your life on the fact that there is no God, (which not a lot of people do EVEN atheists, or morality would be nearly gone. Why be moral if it's all relative?) but you don't embrace the idea fully because the idea of being alone isn't very nice to face. On the other hand, you believe at some basic level that there IS a higher being, and it shows in SOME of the choices you make, but don't embrace the idea fully because you don't want the responsibility. That sounds really, really harsh, but the fact is, we're human and we can get a bit pathetic if we're honest with ourselves. Not too big a leap to make.

I didn't mean to call your ignorant, I just meant that maybe you were ignoring things. That word has such awful connotations.

Family and friends, I can understand. Spending yourself on other humans is always a good thing. Sports are good, but not really important in the grand scheme of things. And your future? What do you think constitutes a good, happy life? What happens when you die? (I know that some people don't care about that as much) I'm assuming you have answers to the first question, and that it is based on your world view and values. On your take of the Moral Law.

Don't you think the fact that all humans seem to have a collective understanding of a Moral Law kind of points to a higher standard? Or that all our talk of having a meaning in life or a longing to satiate means that we DO have purpose and that there IS something to fill the whole in our hearts? If we lived in a world with no light, the words "dark" and "light" would have no meaning. If we never experienced vision, how could we even comprehend it? Likewise, if we had no meaning, would we even understand the concept of purpose?

I can't say that I respect your belief, mostly because I don't know exactly what it is. But I DO respect you, and I'm glad you're willing to listen. Through all of this, I feel like we're becoming friends, albeit in a weird "meet on the internet and share blogs" kind of way. I can't decide if that's creepy or not.
» middaymoon on 2008-06-21 11:00:39

I agree, thank you.

PS. the white font did hurt my eyes >< lol
» Bizzle_whore on 2008-06-22 12:27:48

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