On The Subject of Funerals
Well, went to my first funeral today. As most of you know, it was for my great aunt Eileen...she was old, 82, and her husband had died in February. It was all a matter of time I guess. Originally, me and my sister weren't supposed to be going. The night before my mom got an e-mail from Amy (Hotdog coach) saying that there was a party at her house for kids 10th grade and up. They were having pizza, watching ESPN tapes from Nationals, and discussing goals for this year. Me and Elaine were both really looking forward to going, and I was looking forward to spending some time with her and the rest of my new team. But my parents made a last-minute decision to bring me and Marissa (my sister) along, apparently because they heard most of the other cousins were forced passengers as well. Heh, irony works in the cruelest ways. It turns out that all the other cousins bailed out, and so me and Marissa were stuck being the only kids there .
I had issues with part of the funeral though. This was a catholic thing, so there was a mass held. I've never been to church...I don't believe in God, and hence when two men in white robes began preaching to us I was a little bemused. Wasn't this supposed to be about Eileen? Instead I keep hearing stuff about God and the lord Jesus and Christ and blah blah blah...at one point they even started talking about Eileen and said: "but this song isn't about her, it's about God," and prompted another speech about some other religious blah blah that I didn't really care to listen to. This may seem a little critical, but I really wasn't expecting something like that. My parents explained that the whole family was religious and it seemed fitting in that respect, but personally I definitly would never like a mass to occur on my funeral
I was surprised by the degree of caring that my family expressed. Not just my immediate family, but even people whom I had never met before in my life. I had gotten sick of hearing all this terrible stuff on the news, and reading the recent shocking headliners on the newspapers...strange how it took a funeral to remind me that people still care in the world. The whole ordeal was pretty emotional. It was hard to see all my relatives in tears, or struggling to hold them back...I shed a few of my own...although I'm a little emberassed to admit it. It's just so hard for me to see all of these people around me who have been so deeply effected by the removal of one woman from their lives...the gravesite burial was especially hard, on all of us I think. I kept imagining it from a movie scene...where the people are gathered around...the sun is up, the wind is blowing, and everyone's head is bowed. The image will probably stick with me for a while. First funerals aren't exactly easy to forget.
Well, haha sorry to horde you all with another boring, depressing entry, but I needed to get that off my chest. Sorry if it's all jumbled, I just sort of wrote it as I typed. I don't feel in the mood for editing and all that wholesome goodness...just relief. Once Hotdogs and more gymnastics/school start up, I'll hopefully have some more exciting news for you . Until then, you stay classy NUtang!
Do not try to bend the spoon. That's impossible. Instead, try to realize the truth. There is no spoon. Then you will see that it is not the spoon that bends, it is only yourself.
True, I guess we are. We're only human after all. :D
Your entry wasn't boring. Or jumbled.
P.S. Jump rope seems really cool!! I would like to see a tournament or similar when I go to the US next year.
» okidpokie on 2006-09-01 02:49:11
i enjoy getting the true emotions out of people. i'd much rather read entries about how you're really feeling than entries that are fake or vague.
i'm fairly new to this site, and i don't know you very well, and thus, this question came to mind:
what is this "Hotdogs" besides a frankfurter serves in an ellongated piece of bread? i've never heard of it.
» thaitanic on 2006-09-01 06:34:52
i agree with the mass thing... i'm not a catholic, and to be honest, i'm not fond of masses at all.. (i go to a catholic school, so we have random masses)... and it's true, they shouldnt be preaching about christ when the whole thing is supposed to be about your aunt, but if they're saying she's gone to a better place to be with him, that i will agree on =]
i've never been to a funeral, but your description about a scene from a movie is rather touching... in fact, most of your entry was rather touching (apart from the 'we were stuck being the only kids there' part XD that i can relate to, although not for a funeral) so dont call it boring and depressing, 'kay? ^_^
» Kuri on 2006-09-01 07:06:04
It sucks that you were the only kids there. I was, too, but I didn't have to listen to any boring religious lectures. XP
And if your whole family is catholic, did they have to preach like they were trying to make you convert? o.0
Yup, first funerals are a real experience. Even worse, it was on of your family members. Me, too.
It was NOT all jumbled or boring. I'm glad you turn to us for your personal feelings. ^-^ Now I have to figure out if I should do that...are you worthy? * lifts eyebrows twice*
Of course, we're classy! You're in the company of a princess! *flips hair and bats eyelashes* XD
» Silver-dot- on 2006-09-01 10:20:06
Japanese culture lesson!... (sort of)
Manga - Japanese comic
Anime - Japanese cartoon
Glad to see the funeral went well [though the mass sounded kinda weird... but then again I'm not familiar with Catholic stuff, er w/e]
It sucks to be the only kid[s] at something, especially something like a funeral...
Glad to hear you pulled through such an emotion ordeal as that. Funerals are always trying your emotional stability, and sometimes you just can't help but cry. Even if you didn't want to.
Have a good weekkend!
» invisible on 2006-09-01 10:44:06
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