Why the hell am I still up?

I'll tell you why. I just had a Facebook chat with that guy. We got to talking about serious/personal things. Leading somehow to relationships and marriage and what not...NOT about us, just in general. Strange I know.

Anyway, I relayed something technically personal about how I was more mature than others my age and yet did not have the experiences that most adults have in common (which help to define them as adults) + I think I have the olden thinking, but without the mutlitude of experience from age (which complicates things for me.)

I say technically personal because I don't really see it as that personal. This is more to me a discussion of the possible ways of being human. It's knowledge.

The stupid idiot goes and says that he has goosebumps. When I ask why, he answers that it's because I'm getting really personal. Then he says "thank you for your answers"

WTF?

So then I got my hackles up and I stopped answering as often. Like three times compared to every/every other instant message. I was...feeling a bit defensive I suppose. And also cautious. I'll be sure to rein in my tongue around this guy. I don't know when or if ever I'm going to open up and speak so freely again.

And I am completely awake. No, getting a bit sleepy now. But throughout the conversation I was awake and didn't notice the time passing. I think I'm getting too used to sleeping at 3-4am. That is so not good. Sigh. In need of rehabilitation. Again.

Feeling strange. And I don't like this feeling. I haven't been unsure of myself for a good number of days now. It's disorienting to go back.

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Oh, and I completed my presentation in an hour and a half! With 30 min left before class, I went up to the cafeteria for lunch at 4:30pm. My first meal of the day. Man, was I starving! x_x The BLT there turns out to be pretty good. Maybe I'll get another one today. It's only $2.50. Pretty sure I had the best speech out of all the people in my group and out of the two groups that went today. So I felt pretty good. Course it's also because the people here aren't exactly up to my par so... And then that guy had to shake things up for me. I'm not exactly going to be as happy as I have been for the past few days. Happy for no reason, I was. I am a bit shaken, I have to admit.

The guy isn't good looking. Oh my god, he is NOT good looking. And that totally sucks. I know I settled but oh my god, why can't I get someone who is average looking at least? Jesus fricking christ. The two times I saw him he had on a red plaid button up shirt and wire glasses. What a geek! But...but...intelligence, Silver, remember that the brain is a good thing. But why oh why couldn't he be good to look at, too?! Why do I always attract the sensitive, smart, but geeky and lame guys...

Those of you who want to know what he looks like and are friends with me on FB, let me know and I'll show you. And yes, I felt like doing some guy-bashing. You got a problem with that?

haha. i love how you tangent of into how the guy isn't even average looking.
» thaitanic on 2010-05-06 09:55:36

hey, I think this blog entry is a bit too personal, especially the bit about the price of the blt.
» dave on 2010-05-09 12:34:56

re: i just went to www.nutang.com from my awesome droid. easy.

and my cursor is awesome, thanks. though, i might get rid of it anyway.
» thaitanic on 2010-05-09 09:05:26

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