I'm as taunt as a fishing line and as easy to cut. At this moment.

My neck is stiff and my jaws tremble. I hold a great amount of energy within with no obvious outlet. That energy has a name; Hate.

A few moments ago, my mom returned home. I lifted my aching neck at her arrival and waited for her to come through the door. Her immediate response to the sight of me was...

"Why are you wearing that shirt?!"

A torrent of words rushed out after. I was overwhelmed in 5 sec. and different emotions tore through my body at once--confusion, anger, skepticsm. The word 'unforgiveable' echoed in my head.

The whole episode boiled down to this: I wasn't to wear the shirt. I wore the shirt because I was a slut--prostitute in Chinese. I wore the shirt on purpose, knowing that wearing it made me a slut--meaning I had worn it to show off 'my goods'.

It was a white sleeveless ribbd shirt/blouse, whatever. It was my graduation photo shoot day. My outfit was most definitely not whore-ish in any way. In fact, if you had seen me on the street, you would have thought me a young innocent rich girl. You should know the type I mean.

Thus, I am rigid to the bone right now. And holding back that special energy, 'less I do something I regret. I'm having a problem breathing...normally and my chest hurts. From the effort I suppose.

See ya'll tonight? Maybe.
theDot

I hate it when parents do that.
Negatively criticize something that is completely acceptable to anyone else's reasonable logic.

That's when I go to my room, get on my computer, and ignore the fact that they're even in the house.
Which is why I think I've become so attached to the internet. I always feel like I'm on it. But when I'm doin' anything else, I keep thinking I have to be on here to check up on things, or whatever.

eh. whatever.
Hope the rest of your week goes better.
» invisible on 2007-06-20 10:18:15

Hope you won't mind me asking.. How old is your mother? I can't help but think that she's acting like a child most of the time.. Which mother doesn't like to see their child all grown up and pretty? Jeez..
» Nuttz on 2007-06-20 11:03:37

Seriously, how have you LIVED with her for so long??
» randomjunk on 2007-06-21 12:21:47

If only I could COUNT the number of times my mother has told me I look like a slut (in the clothes her mother bought me). Take it all in stride, and good luck.
» Someones_Muse on 2007-06-21 01:13:11

my mom WANTS me to wear clothes like that... im the one who refuses to XD
» crz4manga on 2007-06-21 10:44:51

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