Pointless, really. What am I talking about? Funny you should ask. I'm talking about how effort and frustrations and sweat and pushing oneself aside for others (at least on my part) including a certain 6am wake-up for an incredibly early rehearsal was all for naught. Yes, you got it.

We didn't perform after all. It was supposed to be last night. Didn't happen.

---The entry I meant to put up before babboons interrupted me---

As I sat in my seat on the subway with my bags someow balanced upon my lap, I pondered about how lucky I was to have a place to go and rant and tear up in perfect company. NuTang. *grin* Yes, you! Thank you for being alive and being the only reason I am as well.

Anyway, it was a bust and it doesn't really matter anyway. Saturday morning, afternoon as well, we hadn't even finished the dance. I had gotten us multiple rehearsals and they were absolutely stubbornly lazy. I repeated myself over and over again the gravity of the situation and yet they couldn't find it in themselves to do it. I would've have pushed, gotten aggressive at it if I hadnt know for a fact that it would only make them stubborn-er, if that was possible, and absolutely refuse to do the dance at all.

Oh, that stupid wench...S, I mean. Oh, I didn't mean all the girls, only two others besides myself anyway, but mostly S. C only followed her example, because she is only a pre-teen after all. ASNd when one is faced with two people one closere in age to you and the other farther in age, it is only natural one would edge away from the latte towards the other. *sigh* Oh, well. No matter.

I would have written this earlier, but I got caught up in West Side Story, the one starring Natalie Wood. AndI am writing this way, because I am partially, well, more diverted by The Lost Prince on Masterpiece Theater at the moment. So you really must forgive my strange language for now. ^-^ Good night.

So very truely yours, everlasting,
theDot

p.s. Oh, my. For the first time in my life, I almost--almost--signed my true name at the bottom of this, or letter or whatever it is I had written. Hmm. Shows how much trust I put in you. How much you all--and this place, mean to me. Hmm. You must be very surprised and happpy, eh? Ah, well. I've got to get on. Ta-ta!

Plugs: catatonicloki, LostSoul13, invisible, Southern, Nuttz

Precisely why I hate working with anybody on anything. I hate having to depend on others, and I hate having to make the decision to push others to do what they're supposed to do.
» ranor on 2007-05-06 10:17:48

It's okay.. maybe you're not fated to do the preformance but don't be afraid if you're offered the same thing again in the future. Hopefully, you won't be having the same problem again in the future.
» Nuttz on 2007-05-07 12:47:50

Exactly what ranor said, these days you can't really depend on others and I know I don't, because when I do I always end up disappointed, wells sorry about all your hard work for nothing at least you learned something, not to depend on others and probably something else to that only you know.
» catatonicloki on 2007-05-07 06:16:49

Wow Silver! Cool layout! Thanks for the good luck wish. I will find out next week if I get a second interview or not! I will keep my fingers crossed! Thanks again!
» kkama67 on 2007-05-09 12:12:31

Awww silver i'm sorry abt ur performance =/ That's ok though. There will be other performances to come. =P~
Yawww howdeedooo??? Been a long-ish time since i've been here to Nutang =) See ur still madly in love with it! =P~
» frostbitten on 2007-05-09 05:58:43

hahaha, I wonder what you would look like with your "everything crossed" for kkama. like a CRAzzzY PreTZEL!
» Zanzibar on 2007-05-09 10:15:07

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