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Monday. 11.15.04 9:31 am
yeah, fuck. fuck it all. so many words that i need to pass and so little time in which to pass it. oh well. i can't say why i dont really. nm


Jess, you know what? Fuck feeling, fuck emoting, fuck it man.


yeah welll. there are words i need to tell you but i can't after school and not before. i can't right now b/c i'm in school. why the fuck is this happening? i'm not even writing well.
wtf


Lets put it this way, i've been shaded. i've been jipped, i also allowed hope to penetrate. Man, theres no real respect there when there should be.

"i'm blue as a girl can be..."

Ok the run down. First of all theres no respect there, none, no real care. which of course can not be good to begin with. they dont. well. nm but yeah then i was told interestign things. things that began to set hope upon me. then i allowed it to crush me. Fucking a.

Yeah, well thats my own stupidity.

"she's too greedy"

well, i should have heeded the dream. it told me and i didn't listen, captivated by the ideologies, the insanities, the impossibilities. what a world i live in. i allowed it to affect me when i know i shouldn't have but i let it anyways. what am i going to do...

man, fuck this whole feeling thing. it's way over rated. its way too much.

he was walking in the rain, letting it soak him up, it was interesting. he loved the wind, the damp, and the cold. he was walking to cities never seen before, to treasures that were immense in all their spectacular existance. then lies were told. words were passed, and this dreams were crushed. he fell into the pit, swallowing him whole in its sand of greed and inconsistiencies. why did he not see the pitfalls before him before it took his feelings to the blender of pain. what ever happened he grew from it. he knew that to feel was wrong and what to do was well, never really the right thing.

:i had good intentions but fucked my self in the process:

what should be never really is now is it? what is perfect never really works. now does it?

"they like them like that, dumb and easy, stressless"

yeah, fucken a. the mum tis always right. shes always right. well, yes always. I can't be dumb. that never really worked for me. i can't be pretty, not who i am. I can't be stressless i like the struggle too much. the fight's too fun. well i can wait to get out of here. out of existance in a city dead and lonely. its raining now, and what a perfect companion to a mood no other clarity could meet. I need out of the cows and country, i need out of the pitiful existance of boredom and brainless cruising. i need excitement of energy and buisness. i need a new life laced with old familiarities. i need to get lost in the crowd and i need to not stand out. i need to find a niche, where i am a "true friend" though they are "hard to find". i need to drink the liquior of rejuivantion, and forget this small trivilialities. i need to feel the city breath, as the cars pass by, the hobos beg, and the college kids run about. i need to go. go now. but then again theres still time that needs passing and theres still people i need to see. i cant let the past creep up again but i can't let these people penetrate me. they've seen too much already. theres one and only one. so "bear in mind it's hard to find, a true friend, a good friend" well, i've got my one should should i go and run? i believe i shall. enough of these people. enough of this stupidity, i need to leave. in search of true intelligence, in search of true individuality. what cookie cutters.

I'm done with it.

Time to leave.
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