this is priscilla being optimistic. the first time in a very very long time. and it is quite suprising. i'm enjoying it...

Life, Live it.

Interesting enough. I do have a crush. like that song from gavin degraw, i've got a crush. maybe it was rushed. yep. this whole crush thing, its nice. its horrid, its a number of things but oh well. i fell into liking him way too fast. maybe it was rushed.

ok. but you know what i think i'm in a good mood. i'm going to try to pull my self out of this damn depression. i will not sit and die under this supression i can do better then this. i can love, i can see the beauty in the blue silloutes, the dark skies, and loving spotlights. i can see this. sitting in my room, as a blue light over whelms me, as it baths me, as i watch it transform me. I see the silouetes of trees watching me, the cold rushing in, the night setting in, its going to be a beautiful life. i'm not always optimistic, but then again i cant always be pessimistic, i have to live this funny thing called life, i have to see what there is to be. and feel the music run through me, maybe its time for a change, maybe its time for a revalation. maybe its time.

the morning will come, the sun will rise and maybe just maybe i'll crack that rare true smile. maybe. we'll see. i can love life. no matter what comes, believe in self, believe in what is. believe in what i should become. what i will become. boys will come in due time, but i, i am only here once, make it last, make it worth it, make it mine. unique, untouched, just me mine.

So things have happened So what, things will happen. let me live now. let me see, stand up resist the bow, live. there are reasons, there are whims, there are many things but hey, its cool, but hey, live it. be it, see it Stop sitting there whining, (though i know i will) stop killing your self, cause life, life isnt like that. you'd be dead other wise. get up. plain and simple.

i'm not content but then again, i am all to full of
life to lay down and consent. i will not. i cannot. the wind rushes and blows me aways, the cold, hits and chills me inside, the weather lives, for me and all everything outside. It'll be beautiful, nothing will be as full, as radiant, as complete as it will be. as my life will be. As my life is now. i may be blind to so much, and so many but hey, i am adolecent. i will have my whims. but i cant sit anymore. i cant see the world anymore, the movies are taking over, every moment a scene in my movie, beautifuly and whimically crafted for that moment, that memory for me. clarity. there is always more. let it glow, let it pass by, let the wind blow...

live, be, exist, take it in. i order you, other wise you might as well be dead, and me, i could care, i will be here, among the living and undead.

That was deep...
Are you a poet? If not, you should seriously consider adopting the hobby.
» desertsnowstorm on 2004-04-27 10:46:48

I smile. =D That was the most beautiful thing I have ever seen you write. You should do it for Slam Poetry, man. It was absolutely awesome.
» DarknessPrevails on 2004-04-27 10:55:00

Thx, this optimism thing is going to work for me, i hope. I want to live life, live it. just lets see. and yeah, i am a poet, well i like to consider my self one, do you know anything about slam poetry? if you dont, look into it.
» Recentis on 2004-04-28 09:36:53

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