Some people really do intrigue me. I dont know why. wait yes i do. I learned something interesting. Told a certain person some interesting information and recieved even more evasive info that was never the less intrigueing. I enjoy that persons company. Few do i associate with, and those select few, i feel lucky for knowing. There are a limited amount of people in my life. Some choose to enter, some i didnt. But all i must admit, do keep me entertained.
Dont tell me that people care. Ok. I know who does, and i know who doesnt. Its not that NO ONE cares. but that no one is a subsitute for someone. I know. This is how i choose to deal. This is how i will deal. You can thikn you know, but you dont. Sounds harsh but is true. Live my life. See the cold stares, see the turned heads, see the dispointment in her eyes. Live my life. Then comment. No its not something like i got in a little bit of trouble. My life is upside down. Things have ensued and you have no idea. So be it. I understand you dont have a way to know, but dont assume. Please. This is how i deal. This is how i feel. Dont condemn. You dont fucking know.
there are people who care. yes. but they are the ones who fade. they are the ones who wont last. She will.
I know my abilities. I know. I am scared shitless i must admit. BUt fuck you for attacking my self pity. No this is how i bring my self up. My condemning my self, i rise up. you dont know that. i do. see. You dontknow.
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