I havn't had one of these in a while... Update!!

My family life.. has been oddly good. Mommy dearest has calmed down. My father and I are closer again. My sister and I however arn't close at all. She has become caught up in her friends that are leading her in the wrong path.. it's a shame really. My other sister and I are starting to keep contact with eachother. We miss eachother greatly.. and I miss my nieces and nephew just as much. My grandmother is walking again.. slowly but surely. We were begining to think she wouldn't make it through the surgeries and pain... but shes getting well again. That's about it for the family

School has been... annoying. I want to leave. Yes, hooray education and going to college, getting a good job, blah blah... But the people... these kids... there driving me up the wall. Too much drama and stress.. Dear Jesus [is my lord and savior and I love him with all my heart] these kids are crazy.. Which leads me too..

My friends are... not the people I thought they were. I've grown almost completely detatched from the ones I see at school. We use to hang out almost everyday.. now it's a passing joke here and there.. a hug, a glance... but at school now I am truely alone. They've changed for the worst... I can't be apart of that. It kills me but I need to keep my walk straight [literally]. But, I have grown strong to people in the church.. and Adam, God I love that kid!

My love life... wait, what love life? Obviously Janette and I broke up a long time ago. I perminately ended it back in September. For the first time in years I didn't jump into another relationship within a week. It's a crazy way to live really.. I haven't been single this long in 4 years.. and this will be the first Valentines day I'll be alone in that long. I've spoiled myself with so many random relationships.. but it's not love, it's acceptance. I would do anything to fill the void I don't recieve from my parents.. and a relationship won't give me that. I will admit this feeling kills me... to be alone.. However I'm just barely 18 now. I'm young. There Is a man [yes man] on my mind. He's a sweetheart, smart, hilarious, and just down to earth. It's iffy on going anywhere at all.. but I do like him. I'm learning to take things as they come. I've given it to God, I know he has a plan and I'll meet that one guy eventually. :)

In my life... I have grown so strong too my faith. Sometimes I feel like it's all I have.. and I love it. I'm being attacked with so much negativity right now and sometimes it damages my relationship with God.. and I hate it. But I'm learning new things every day and growing strong. Nothing can tear me down. I love feeling his presence in worship. :) It's one of the greatest feelings in the world. This friday the youth is holding a banquet for Valentines day. I gathered the courage to ask that one guy to be my date [Random right? I've never asked anything before =/]. He accepted, but didn't seem enthused at all.. we'll just see how it goes.

In the future I'm going to NY for a chorus trip. We'll be singing in Carnegie Hall. I recently got the music we will be performing and some of it's crazy, but awsome! School will be a little sketchy as well. A lot of FACT stuff and a lot of free days. in a way maybe it'll be pretty kool :)


I don't thing theres anything else.... Untill next time!

-Brii

Well, hopefully things are still going pretty good currently as well, and not much else has changed....

And yea, Don't let anyone damage your faith and attack you, that type of mess is just uncalled for. I mean I love having some nice discussions about different people's faith, and having intelligent convo about why people worship this God or that one, but people have no reason to Bash what you believe in now, and try to make you feel like crap for it.

In any case, hope all is still well, and if ur up in NY on March 29th, there's a chance I may just run into ya :-p
» CPKviperpheonix on 2008-02-25 10:18:40

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