It was a wonderful 10 days away. I was living in a dream that felt very much like reality. Being with him felt more like a normal life than normal life itself. Having to leave; that was the worst feeling. I cried a few times leading up to it and made sure I kept my emotions in tact until I got home. Once that happened, however, I broke down. I just couldn't take it anymore. I want so badly to be back there with him.

Have you ever felt uncomfortable in your own home? Everything feels wrong being apart from him. No matter how many times I woke up last night, he still wasn't in bed next to me. 3 more months, I have to go through this. We have to deal with this for three more months. Then another blissful 10 or so days and another 3+ months.

Is it worth it? Absolutely. I love him with ever fiber of my being and having the time to spend with him this past 10 days just solidified my security for our future together. The fact that being together and doing regular things just felt like it was normal life, comfortable and easy, is what convinced me. There was no tension or awkwardness of any kind. It just made sense. If there had been any doubt cast, any at all, then it probably wouldn't have continued. I'm ever thankful for the fact that there was no doubt.

I'm still not in the right mind set to be writing joyous things, accurately, about my trip so I will save that for a few days from now. Once I settle back in to the monotony of the life I live here, my runamuck emotions should calm down a bit. Until then I keep fighting back the tears and reminding myself that I'm a strong woman whose man loves her very much and is so much on the same page with our futures that it's kind of ridiculous.

Awwww, well I hope the next three months go by quickly. :C It sounds like what you've got with this guy is really amazing.
» randomjunk on 2014-06-01 09:43:19

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