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Wednesday. 9.11.13 9:50 pm
For some reason, I feel like something has changed. I woke up this morning with that feeling and it only got worse throughout the day. Specifically, I'm referring to my crush. I feel like I've already been rejected, despite the fact that I haven't even talked to him about anything yet. At first, I didn't think he was there, but even when I did see him, I didn't perk up like I normally do. He was standing next to me helping out with something and it just made me sad instead of excited. I hope this is just a passing thing and I go back to the way it was before. I'd rather be distracted and excited than sad and bummed out every time I see him.

Tomorrow is finally my Friday. It couldn't have come soon enough. This week has certainly been busy and tiring and now that I'm feeling really out of it, I'm ready to be done. I have no plans for my one day off. I may drive up to Target to get some new razor cartridges and deodorant, but that depends on how much money I feel like spending. I guess we'll see what happens.

It's entirely possible that this whole working two jobs thing is finally starting to catch up and take it's toll. Or I just haven't had the time to myself that's necessary and I'm starting to feel a bought of depression kick in. Or all this shit could just be in my head and I'm concerning myself over it for nothing. I'm still planning on inviting him to the party; I just have to figure out a good time to do it and catch him when he's alone. With the way I'm feeling tonight, I'm not expecting a good outcome, but this is one of those situations where I'll never know if I don't go for it.

It got super hot today. The high was somewhere in the low 90s. It was a good 10+ degrees more than Vegas. There's something wrong with that picture, for sure. It's still 81 out so sleep might not come very well tonight. Hopefully tomorrow won't require much so that I can just kind of hang around without concerning myself with needing to be fully alert. If I'm still feeling this way, which it might be amplified by a lack of sleep, then I'll most likely hide out away from people so I just don't have to deal with putting on my mask more than necessary.

Until then. . .
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Maybe the prospect of having to reveal your feelings is just making you overly anxious and that's why you feel bummed... In any case, I hope the feeling clears up!
» randomjunk on 2013-09-12 02:51:10

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