welcome to my mind ...

That moment when you really have to sneeze, you make the face, get all prepared ...

then nothing.

Fuck. Now my eye is watering like a damn leaky faucet and my nose is even more stuffed than it was before. Next paycheck, I'm buying black pepper. Of all the spices I have in my cabinet, I never thought to buy black pepper. Go figure. Although, with as stuffed as my nose is right now, I would probably end up snorting it than simply sniffing it.

I gave in and bought Blistex today. I've always been too stubborn to give in to lip balms and creams and stuff when I'm sick. Then again, I've also never blown my nose this much when sick. It's actually helping the raw skin around my nose. I can smile without the skin pulling. I have to admit, this stuff is pretty awesome. And it was only $1.30.

Tomorrow I am scheduled for a 16 hour shift. I may or may not complete it, but I will be doing at least 12. A coworker was nice enough to offer to work the last 4 hours, if I end up feeling too shitty to finish the shift. I will probably know around hour 10 or 11 whether I'll need him to cover the last 4 hours or not. I'm hoping not; I have enough Tylenol daytime to last me through the day, but I'll have to wait and see. With all the available overtime coming up, the next day I put that I was okay to work was Saturday, but that was before I got sick. If I'm working a double shift tomorrow with the way I'm feeling, I will not be able to do Saturday as well. I'll need at least two days to recuperate, medicate and relax. The next available day I put down was Tuesday so that should be more than enough time for me to get better, even with working my normal shifts.

This morning my laryngitis kicked in to affect. I was speaking at the level of a cracked whisper. About halfway through the shift, I started to get some tone back and by the end I was able to talk on the phone without the other person struggling to hear me. I know how ridiculous I sound when I have no voice so I had no problems with people teasing me. It's better to make light of a situation that you have no control over than to take offense to it. Hopefully tomorrow I won't be as bad.

My cough has started breaking up so that's a good sign. It sounds worse, but at least the mucus isn't just sitting in my lungs. My cough is always worse when I get sick because of the post nasal drip that I've had since I was a baby. I can get this cough even when I don't have a cold, so when I do, it's multiplied. Funny enough, even with the cough and losing my voice, my throat isn't sore. I get a couple dry spots here and there {that make my eyes water like crazy and make me feel like I'm choking} but nothing more than that.

I don't know if you can tell by the length of this entry that I'm feeling slightly better. I still feel sick, but I can also feel the slight improvements that are there as well.

Anywho, I am going to watch New Girl then take my first dose of nighttime Tylenol and call it a night.

Until tomorrow. . .