The happiness that everyone seems to have noticed as of late seems to be getting to my nervous system finally and is breaking it down.

I'm definitely feeling, as randomjunk said in her blog, "irritable." Everything is pissing me off. I'm feeling a lot more depressed lately. Stressed over money issues, relationship issues, friendship issues, work ... the list can keep going.

I almost feel sick of being happy all the time. I mean, I'm not happy all the time; I'm well aware of that, but considering I've been in a much more obvious good mood compared to before? I almost feel like the depression is fighting back. The chemical imbalance in my brain is saying, "whoa, hold on here. I am top dog in this brain and this 'happiness' is becoming a little too overwhelming for my liking."

I need a vacation. A break from everything. I need a place where I don't have to worry about how much money I have or don't have, where I don't have to worry about work or obligations.

School starts Jan. 3.

So much for getting that break any time soon... At least the residency has finally been adjusted so I only own $1300 instead of $3000. It's actually more like $800-something since I did receive a little bit of financial aid. Still. It's adding to the stress on my already-low funds.

I just want a break ...

I know things that we are going through are not even close to being similar... But lately I've been feeling the same way. I've been in such a good mood recently. However in just these few days my depression has popped up out of no were and started pulling me down. The more I fight to keep my head up the harder it pulls Me down. Ugh...
» Midnight on 2011-12-18 04:04:01

Slipping back into the familiar arms of depression... weird how that works...
» randomjunk on 2011-12-19 01:42:11

i know how that feels. my depression kicked in during my trip to japan. it's scary...
» renaye on 2011-12-19 08:56:26

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