I know that it's not what I'm thinking it is, but I still can't help but feel the way that I do.

I haven't seen Jacob in over 24 hours {our work schedules have overlapped} and I've barely talked to him in that time frame. Maybe 5 minutes on the phone and no more than 10 texts exchanged. Even then, I haven't heard from him since early this morning. And I've still got 4 1/2 hours left before my shift is over. 5 until I get home and can maybe actually see him.

It makes me feel like he's not thinking about me to even just send a text asking how work is going or even to just say hi. I just want to hear from him. I'm determined to have him text me first ... but I probably shouldn't hold my breath. Earlier I was avoiding texting him because I figured he'd be sleeping. I know for a fact that he's not still sleeping. It's been nearly 12 hours. And with his mom visiting, I know he's not going to sleep the afternoon away like he might should the house be empty.

I just feel like I've been forgotten about. I don't like feeling this way.

{EDIT} I'm tired, sore and now I'm pissed off. Apparently the phone call I received wasn't supposed to be to find out how I was doing. Especially when my response was just kind of shoved aside by an "ah" and then asking me the question that required the phone call.

Like I said, I'm just pissed off right now so this is basically a rant, but still. I'm going to end it here so I don't end up saying something that I will later regret.

wow, if I exchanged 10 texts and a phone call with someone in 24 hours, I would feel very well paid attention to! But I guess since nobody ever pays attention to me that much, I have a different standard of comparison. :P

Maybe he just can't text you because his mom is constantly around and he doesn't want to seem rude by texting all the time when she's just standing there.

I hope you get to reconnect with him soon and hopefully he'll make you feel not rejected again! Go Team Jacob! ;)
» Zanzibar on 2011-03-28 08:11:13

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