I had to work today. Didn't get paid overtime because we have tomorrow off. I'd rather have gotten paid overtime, but at least this way I'm not losing any regular hours. It was boring and annoying.

Annoying because something felt off the whole day. And it continued to stay that way even once I was home. It still feels a little off, but some of it was resolved/figured out earlier.

I really need to learn how to control my emotions. Something very small got me very pissed off just now. And now I feel bad because I reacted before thinking. Now I just have to learn that once something is in the past, that's it. It's in the past. There is absolutely nothing I can do to go back and change it so all I can do is move on. I can apologize, but not too often because then it'll just be annoying.

So here I sit, biting my tongue, just waiting. Well, moving forward, but in very small steps.

Fuckin' A. It's all bullshit. It's all just whatever. I need a drink. Luckily, that's what I'm about to do.

Hope you feel better, and learn to control your emotions. :/
» randomjunk on 2009-05-25 01:38:12

Sometimes emotions can't be contained.. maybe your anger is just PMS or maybe it is the anger towards something or someone whom you can't direct to so you are indirectly annoyed at things to let go of the anger. Maybe the next time you feel angry, go do some exercise of do some tasks which are usually challenging for you. It'd help redirect the excess energy.
» Nuttz on 2009-05-25 04:33:56

UGHHH I know the feeling! I was high tension all of yesterday for no apparent reason...and I just wanted to punch something in hopes that the feeling would go away. Of course that doens't work...nothing works! It's frustrating :(

Anger is probably the stupidest emotion in the world. I mean it can be useful in confrontations where you need to get mad to get things done, but otherwise I think it's just a waste. Are you still angry about many of the things that have happened in the past? Maybe some of them. The ones that have really mattered. Which is why you have to gauge the smaller matters and wonder if they're really worth getting worked up about if, in the end, the anger dissipates anyway. Which is pretty much exactly what you said in your entry but I just wanted to put in my two cents! Hehe :)
» The-Muffin-Man on 2009-05-26 03:11:09

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