I have been almost constantly busy {or at least it feels that way} for the last few weeks. I need a day where I do absolutely nothing at all. A day where I don't leave my apartment for any reason {except an emergency} and where I don't actually do more work than fixing myself some food.

I need a day where I don't send out text messages or make phone calls. A day where my blinds and door stay shut. Franki is the only one who doesn't count towards the text message thing because she's in on the alone day. I can text her and it won't count against me. Anyone else though? It counts against me. She doesn't think I can go the whole day. I've done it before; it just doesn't happen often.

I'm finally coming to the realization that, at least for now, our relationship really is done. Who knows what the future will bring. But if it brings us back together, well, then that's for the future to tell. Right now, though, it's not happening. And I need to move on.

I'm not going to cut myself off completely from Jacob. He still means quite a bit to me and I care about him. But I need to finally focus my mind on me. I need to stop thinking about whether my actions will affect him or not. I doubt he's thinking that way. It's probably going to still take some time for the transition to fully take place and who knows, maybe it won't take long at all. Or it could just not fully happen. Either way, it's time for me.

Today is a part of that. I don't really feel like talking to anyone or going anywhere today, hence the shutting myself in for the day. I'm doing it for me and only me.

Tomorrow I'm going to make some plans. I don't want to work in retail again, but Big Lots is hiring for part time and that's what I need. I've already worked there, I know what to do and I'm pretty sure I'm rehireable. So I'm considering stopping by there after work to talk to the manager.

I also need to go into the storage unit to get my floor lamp and my hangers. I'm going to go through some of my other stuff, too just to see if there's anything I want to bring back to my apartment. That will either take place tomorrow or Wednesday depending on how I feel after work tomorrow.

Alright, that's it.

Ah, so you need a day to just take it easy... that doesn't sound hard, if you've got a free weekend or something...
» randomjunk on 2009-05-18 05:39:58

I can go a day without sending a text message because no one really sends a text to me anyway so I'm often at home by myself doing a lot of things.

I'm sorry to hear about your eviction, I just got around to catch up on things on the 'Tang.
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