welcome to my mind ...

I have no idea how long this entry is going to be so be prepared for a rather long one.

Today started out alright. I was a little surprised when I got to work to see Theresa there. She normally doesn't work Friday, but she had to this time. No biggie, though, cuz stuff got done and she's {almost} always fun to be around. {No one is always fun to be around} So about two and a half, three hours into the shift, the first shitty thing happened.

I went in to use the bathroom, and as I was leaving, I picked up my cell phone and it slipped out of my hand and fell right into the toilet. FUCK! Obviously, due to all the water, its not working right now. And its, of course, going to take a while to completely dry. Even after it dries, a lot of water got into the screen and I have no idea if it'll still work. I can only hope so. Luckily, I had another phone from the same company that I got over a year ago and kept. All I had to do was switch out the SIM card from the wet phone into the older phone. Unfortunately I didn't save my phone numbers to the SIM card, so I had to try and remember them all by heart. Not an easy task, considering I get the number and put it right into my phone. Normally I don't have an issue memorizing numbers, but I've had no reason to.

As the day went on, it kept busy, and I was trying not to focus too hard on the fact that I had no phone. {at the time I hadn't thought about the fact that I had another phone and all I had to do was switch out SIM cards} The evening rush came and Tiff was going to be late. But that was all settled anyway cuz Theresa was staying to cover her till she got there. I wasn't needed. Until 6:10pm, when Stuart didn't show up and he hadn't called. I was told to call him and find out where he was and why he wasn't there yet.

This is where the BS comes in. Now I knew that Stuart was on probation for street racing and something else {not drugs; he is one of the few who doesn't do them out here}, but I can't remember what. Supposedly the issue was that he had violated his probation for getting caught underage drinking. There was a much longer and more detailed explaination that he gave me, but I don't know a whole lot about the legal stuff, so I'm not going to try and elaborate. So basically, he wasn't going to be able to make it in to work.

This pissed off Gary and Tori and pretty much every other person who was involved, including me. I wasn't as pissed off as they were {cuz a small part of me still likes him}, but I ended up staying for an extra hour and a half helping with the dishes and answering phones. I did't mind so much cuz it meant some extra money for me. And doing dishes really aren't that bad. You can keep to youself and not have to deal with really anyone {except annoying ass customers when the phone rings}

Now, due to this incident, its basically been confirmed that if there even was a small chance that Stuart and I could be a couple, its 99.9% gone now. Like I said, a small part of me still likes him, but I'm pretty much done. Maybe if something happens or he does something incredible, I might change my mind, but otherwise I'm over it. He's done working up at the restaurant so the only way I'll be seeing him is if he calls and asks if I want to go out, or if he just randomly shows up. And even then, I might be hesitant. Oh well. I asked for a sign as to whether this was going to go anywhere and I'm pretty sure this a big sign pointing to no.

I have to work all weekend. I don't normally work Saturday, but tomorrow is Prom for the high school, so all the high school kids that work there are going to be at Prom. I guess I don't mind; its more money, cuz I'll be working 6 days this week instead of 5.

Okay, this is definately long enough, but I did warn you. Kudos again to whoever reads through the whole thing and comments. Tis much appreciated.