Well as of today its been 11 years since my father passed away. It sucked ass today at work. I'm actually glad that I was at work and not at home because I could at least try and keep my mind occupied. It didn't work too well. I was able to talk to Joey about it so after that I felt a little better, but not much. I'm not mad at Joey anymore; it was pointless to stay mad at him. Anywho, when Gary came in I found out that Erin was super pissed at me for not staying last night to help even though I was there at 9:30 that morning and I had to be there at 9:30 this morning and I was only working on like 4 hours of sleep! And she was pissed at me cuz to her I didn't do any work even though she wasn't even fucking there when I was there working. So tonight when she came in she refused to talk to me and what was really stupid and childish on her part was that whenever she wanted to know something from me she would have someone else ask me. Little kids to that. Like they'll see the person standing right behind them but they'll still say to someone else 'will you ask so-and-so this?' Its so fucking dumb. Whatever. So I went through an emotional rollar coaster today. I started out really depressed and upset. Then I became just ok. Then I felt a little better. Then I got pissed and frustrated. Then I was just okay again. After work me, Allie, Nick and Trevor went to the swap meat and wandered around for a while. I got a new belly ring! Its cool-looking. Now all I need to do is get another tongue ring. I can actually change it now. So Joey told Dana that I like him today. I don't care that he told him though. I think he already knew. I just know that he's not interested in me. And there will probably never be an interest cuz of a bunch of things. First the age difference. Second, the distance between us. Now, he lives in the same damn town (its not like Chris) but neither of us has a car. And mode of transportation is one of the key things in a relationship. There are a bunch of other things too, but I don't really know what they are. Me and David haven't really talked since that night. Not since I stopped liking him. Oh well. It would have been nice to talk to him today about the shit on my mind, but it didn't happen. I talked to Joey instead. Damn, I suddenly just got really tired. I mean I've only been up for like 19 hours and I worked most of those hours. I'm glad I have off tomorrow. I don't want to see work. I have to go to the store though. I was gonna go tonight after work and I planned on it, but then we went out and that screwed with the plans to go to the store. Alright I'm done for tonight cuz I have no clue what else to write.

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