welcome to my mind ...

I haven't a clue how long or short this is going to be. I guess it depends on how much I need to get out of my system.

The last two weeks were incredibly long at work. With the one coworker already out on maternity leave, and the other one out sick for almost the entire past two weeks (she worked Monday two weeks ago, and was finally well enough to come back last Friday), I had to do most of the work on my floor. Which meant I was doing about 2.5 people's worth of work, while the random people they had covering, combined, did the other .5. And not well either because I had to keep stopping what I was doing to help them with things that I shouldn't need to constantly help them with. Like, it shouldn't take you more than a day to remember which side which department was located on.

I ended up having to take a personal day just simply due to overwhelming exhaustion. If I hadn't taken the day off to finally get some rest, I would have made myself sick again and would have likely had to take more than just one day off.

I've started actively apartment hunting. I never heard back from the one place that I applied for, which is bullshit. I even called, twice, and left a message without ever hearing back. There's one place I'm currently in contact with, but unless they can work with me and lower the price of the rent, I won't be able to afford it. There's another place that's newer that is even closer to work than I am now, with a rent that's in my range so I think if this one place falls through, I will go ahead and contact them.

If that one doesn't work either, I will look outside of the area I want to stay in because there's a place near some friends that has a few units for rent, bigger apartment, almost the same cost. It's just ideally not in the are that I wanted to remain in.

This place I'm currently residing in has long overstayed its welcome and it's time for me to move on. I've had more problems than not recently and it's starting to really piss me off. They're mild inconveniences: the washer being broken. Again. The internet consistently cutting out because they're too fucking cheap to do it correctly (they have one modem for 36 people) and because of the contract they have with the internet company, I'm not allowed to go out and pay for my own internet here.

It's tiny (under 200sqft) and I would really like to have my own kitchen again. And maybe walls that aren't the thickness of cardboard. My damn car might be more soundproof than this place. It's been over 5 years of living here, and I'm done. I don't even give a shit if it's months before I can afford to furnish a new place. I just need to get out of here.

This was exactly what I needed back in 2011 when my ex and I broke up, but it's gradually been pissing me off more and more over the years. A few years ago, when I was ready to move on the first time, my absolute shit credit prevented me from moving. Fair. I spent two years paying off my debt, and have built up my credit back to at least fair. On the lower end of fair, but still above poor. So it's time to jump back in to the hunt.

Wish me luck people. Before I snap at the wrong person and get evicted for being unruly and aggressive.