When you meet someone new, you find out things about this person. Over time you either get to know them really well or they just become a stray memory that passes through every once in a while, when one of those things you've found out makes itself known and the memory is triggered.

I know that when you're younger and you meet someone, you find out that they have the same favorite {whatever} as you or their birthday is close to yours or they know someone that you know and suddenly you feel like it was meant to be. You start way over thinking how things are supposed to go from then on and you see a future that definitely has this person in it.

As an adult, I'd like to think that this process is different. You meet someone and find out that they have similar interests which means that you have something to actually talk about, and then that's it; no other thoughts involved. Instead, you find out something about them and you feel that same giddiness as you did when you were younger, except now you know that it really is purely coincidental, because it's not like they're the only other person on the planet who happens to have an October birthday or likes sushi as much as you. Or when you learn about someone's past and then suddenly a German flag appears in your daily life that wasn't there before. All of these things are pure coincidence and mean absolutely nothing, but your mind isn't wired to think that way.

I'm trying to train my brain not to over think coincidences and it's working to a very small extent. I've tried to ask the question "why" less and just go with the flow of things. It's clearly supposed to be happening this way, in this moment, or it would be going differently. And whatever is happening now is happening so that something else can happen in the future.

It's my current personal challenge. I really hope I can stick with it for a good while.

Yeah, that is a funny thing. Back when you're younger, you're like, "Oh, THIS MUST BE THE ONLY PERSON IN THE WORLD WHO IS SO MUCH LIKE ME" and then you realize that there are actually a bunch, and you have to base your crush on something a little deeper. It does help keep the rollercoaster of emotion a little flatter.
» Zanzibar on 2015-03-28 01:13:08

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