Friday. 7.27.12 9:19 pm
Been sick since Sunday. Having common visus of flu, cough, fever. Still having reservice next week. Wondering how am I going to survive thru it.
Had been a very low morale state. Emo shd be the correct word. When one go thru hard times, they tend to look backward of time. It is what happening to me now...
I found that I'm had not been a very honest man. As in what I said does not matched what I feel. My brain control my word while my heart felt otherwise.
Be it my family, friend and Love
For family, after what my sister and mum did to me. Althou I still love them, I can't bring myself to put in action to express my love.
For friends. They went to bangkok. Althou I said don't mind, I'm dying to go with them. I just used words to make everyone in a comfortable zone.
For Love. I told myself that I should gave up on her. I told my friend that I'm not waiting for her.
I told my friends that now I do not have any specific type of girl. As long as a girl approached me, present-looking. I got a little feeling, She will be my type of girl.
But inside me. I know the feeling when I talk to her, when I get close to her. This special feeling is never the same with other girls. But what can I do besides giving up, for someone who don't love me. I don't think I can forget her but I need more time to get use to seeing her as a friend and not someone I love.
Everyday I keep myself busy. Laughing with friends, eat, spend and doing shopping as when I liked. Yet I'm not reallly happy. I think I'm tired. I think I need to be more relaxed. I think I need more rest.
Enough of nagging. Life still goes on...
If you are a member, try logging in again or accessing this page here.