feeling: Sick
listening to: Once Again - Matt Redman

So it's been a really, really long while.

During this very long while, I have finished my second year at uni, got an average of 57.7% [2:2] and my tutor's support that I can graduate with a 2:1. I have gone back to China with my mother and sister to reunite with my father and finally, I have moved to Germany for my year abroad.

Let me tell you... living abroad alone really isn't great as it sounds. Sure, new country, new atmosphere, new sights, new culture, exciting blah blah, but it's hella lonely.

Thank God I've made a few really lovely friends here who keep me company and make me feel blessed to have them.

But as I type I am huddled up alone in my room in the dark, because I am ill and don't have the energy to move or do anything. I feel like throwing up but my body isn't quite letting me.

But today has taught me: I'm really blessed to have so many friends who really care about me over here. I swear, they're even dearer to me than most my friends back in the UK (and that would be about 1,000 odd, if we're going by Facebook).

I never thought I'd get so many get well wishes and people who really would cook for me or bring me medicine if I just said the word... I've already been given 2 invites for dinner and another friend said he'd brought me medicine, all I had to do is give him my address.

Ofc, I declined all politely, but my heart is so touched by all of this...

Thank you, God, because You know exactly how weak I am, how weak my heart is, so you have sent me all these angels to take care of me when I am in need. And I am sorry that I haven't been listening to You properly lately, but if You would please let me feel better, I promise I will go and do bible study right now...

Another thing is, I have started but not yet officially opened another blog, which has been found by another couple of friends of mine. I've never really told anyone about my blogs unless I am epically close to them. I think only Panda, Annie and maybe Shawn know about this one...

But that one, I'm thinking of telling my closer friends.

And finally, there is one thing that I'm unsure of... I hope I've matured enough, but either way, I will just let God lead me. I know He is watching over me :)

If there's one good thing that has come out of this year, it's that my relationship with God is now a lot closer. When I am alone and crying silently in my room at night, I know He is holding me close.

��Kuriח

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