September 14th, 2004-- While mulling around in my head.. i have discovered something... call it a personal epiphany if you will... My passions... things that I deeply care about and also that i choose to involve myself in... define who I am.... my spirituality defines who and what I am... every little thing is another facet of me... the REAL me... I've been struggling with a lot of thoughts and ideas lately... some of them downright crazy.... and the main conclusion IS that while i know a little bit... I have no idea who I really am... I know what i choose to show to other people.... and i know what i choose to hide from them... I seem to have hit a major stalling point in my life..and i can choose to either pick up and go on with it... and continue to grow... or i can stagnate and become the nothing I have always considered myself to be.... Does this mean i have to conform to what society thinks i should be? I seriously hope not.... because I am a unique individual and i prefer to remain as such. I'm not going to give up the uniqueness that is me.... that's another aspect of me and i REFUSE to give it up just to be like everyone else... I'm not entirely sure this makes any sense.... to anyone other than me.... and i'm not even entirely sure it makes sense to ME.... but either way... I'll be reading this again after I've gotten a decent nights sleep... which won't be till wednesday.... unless i sleep all day tomorrow... and that is highly unlikely....