I know that it's been a pretty long time since I've last done anything here... Well, every time I do blog here I always say that it's been a while. And it has, every time.

hmm...

I just finished watching this one Taiwanese film called Blue Gate Crossing. It's a coming of age movie and the main girl in the movie is questioning herself blah blah blah. but in the end it's all about friendship. lol... sorry if I ruined the movie for you. It's an alright movie to begin with. kind of cute. Then again I'm a type of person who doesn't harshly criticizes movies... I like to have an open mind and let the film take me for a ride.

anyways. watching movies like that makes me want to talk... but there's never really anyone to talk to after because I have that habit to watch movies like that late at night when there aren't that many people on to talk to.. or at least the ones I'd talk to about certain subjects that the movie makes me feel...

Like usual I feel alone. Nothing different about it.. Just the usual feelings... But I'm getting to that point where I don't care that I'm alone... and I really don't want to get to that point in my life that I don't care if I'm alone. I know that once I get used to being alone for a certain amount of time I don't sit well with myself. I'm not saying that I need to be in a relationship with someone at all times... I just mean that I should at least be interested in someone or something like that...
Well... I still do have that one girl in my head still... But at the same time I don't want to be thinking about her all the time because I know that I don't have a chance with a girl like that... I don't know... And I can hear you all saying... "You never know what will happen. Love is unpredictable." I agree with you but remember that it takes two to tango.
I think I'll always think about her... I just know that she had a lot of trust issues and what not... argh. I really want to know why she led me on like that though. I really didn't want to. but she did. oh well... and it wasn't like I was interested in her because Linh and I broke up.... I really took a liking into her. She was smart, funny and beautiful. As I've written before in my journal... "I fell for the mind before the face." and I'll always feel that way about her.
I kind of hope and not that I'll see her this upcoming semester... I'd like to see her again because I still want to be friends and everything. but at the same time I don't because I don't want to get all worked up again over nothing...

ehh... I really hope things for me work out this semester... Since school started I can't really work in the evenings anymore... because they changed my schedule again at work. Instead of my 4pm to 10pm they moved me to 6pm to 12am... and that just hurts me because it just takes forever for me to go to sleep... so now they put me on weekend mornings... I hate working weekend mornings. the people are crabby and so are the co-workers. swing shift is my type of people and crowd. and it's so laid back and relaxed. If it gets busy no worries I can handle it.


hmm...

i just hope to meet someone this school year. I feel that I really deserve it for myself.... i really do.


hmm ran ran ran rannnnnn random.

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