Let's live the unknown like we know it.
[the only reason I wrote this is because I was having a funny conversation with my German friend because she's taking her Abitur and well you'll understand when you read it. Also this is just meant to be funny. I am not taking a stab at teacher, for in the future I want to pursue a career in teaching.]
"Next week, we're having an Oral Exam on the material we've been learning. I hope you study hard!"
A girl says to another female classmate "Hey, do you want to get together and study for our oral? It'll be better than studying alone." The girl agreed and the two of them headed over to one of their houses.
They begin to study and one of the girls brother comes home with a few of his friends from school. He asks them "What are you guys doing?"
One of the girls says to him "We're studying for our Oral Exam next week. We really want to get high scores."
Then one of the brothers friends say "Oh, I have that class too. Is it cool if study with you?"
The two girls say "The more the merrier."
So the three of them studied hard everyday and into the early morning. They were very determined to do very well.
So now it's the day of their oral. Their hard studying paid off because the three of them got perfect scores. Their teacher was very impressed, that he rewarded them.
"These three showed that they were very determined in getting the high score and they helped each other by creating a study group..."
As the teacher droned on about how impressed he was one of the girls leans towards the other and whispers, "That fucker just copied off of me. He wasn't even studying most of the time!" And the other girls responded, "I know! The only reason why he's getting an award is because teacher loves the way he gave his oral."
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I wrote that yesterday...
For some reason I'm having trouble logging onto nutang through my dad's laptop... I don't know what's wrong but it makes me sad. I hope I can find out what is wrong with it soon... anyways hello fellow nutangers.
Recently I've been listening to Yellowcard's Ocean Avenue a lot... I guess because Gene is gone and some of the songs remind me of him. Either that or I'm just in the mood. Well, it's not going to change the fact that Gene is gone. Chicago, Boston where ever he went... He's gone and joined the navy... I wonder how and what he's doing right now... Probably being stripped of his personality.. That breaks my heart. I love him because of his personality and I know that there isn't going to be anyone that's nearly like him at all.
My heart is still the sad bastard its always have been. Making me fall and crush on girls that I know I should never. It's kind of funny though. As I meet more people in my life I start to see why my heart does this to me, because if I don't take risks then I'm not going to enjoy what I'm doing with my life. I realized that my life revolves around so many things. My crazy adventures and my bastard heart are my main components.
My mom just came into the room and she tried to guess the emotions that I'm feeling. "Are you mad? Are you sad?" When she asked me if I was mad I wanted to say "Yes, I am mad because you don't let me act my age. Sure you're telling me to be responsible but tell me something I don't know already. Why can't you see me as the adult that I am. Let me learn life the way I want to because I'm old enough to take care of myself. If I mess up let me fester in my mistakes and correct them. Don't meddle into my life and try to find ways of trying to correct my wrongs by blaming yourself. If you want to know just ask." and when she asked if I was sad i wanted to say "Yes, because I can't say the things I want to say because of all this pent up anger I have against you. I highly dislike being mad in general so why are you doing this to me. Treat me better and I'll treat you better. We'll feel better about this all and our relationship won't be so sour as it is now." The feelings I have towards my mother is mixed. I want to show her that I love her but I want her to show that she accepts me for who I am and looks what I'm doing rather than what I'm struggling on. Better yet I wish she could see how much I'm struggling with myself to do the things I need to do. Struggling with the bad vices that are out there to entice me. I am in college and all doors are open to anything and everything. She can't see the person I am and where I came from because she blocks it all out. She ignores what has happened to me and doesn't see what I do as productive. And that alone upsets me so much. I am 19 years old and yet she has never told me that she's proud of me. I don't care if this god forsaken Asian race is based on how well off you are going to be in the future, because speaking from experience kids, teens, and even young adults need to be praised for what they've done. They need to know that what they did is good. So I guess me having been editor in chief of my high school newspaper is not good enough to receive praise. That my organizing the first ever Day of Silence at my school by myself doesn't need to have a pat on the back. That my writing of poetry and performing it in front of an ignorant crowd [not everyone of course] doesn't need a smile. In fact you left early. You don't see my accomplishment of getting over the need of wanting to commit suicide. And there is so much more that you over look... Instead you focus on what I'm doing wrong, what I'm not doing, making assumptions about what I do when I go out with friends... You look at me as a shell that has nothing inside. You don't know me and don't ever say that you do because I can prove you wrong on so many levels. If you can't see me for who I am, what I stand for, and why I have kids out there who look up to me and ask me advice then why look at me. I wish you'd take a look at your daughter for who she is rather than who she isn't.
It's obvious that I can write about this for a very long time... So in short I just mean If she just took the time to get to know me the right way I wouldn't have to keep myself away from her.
what the fuck... she's trying to spy on me right now. damnit mom. that's not how you get to know your daughter.
thank you for listening to my extensive rant.
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