Saturday. 4.17.04 10:25 pm
I'm so torn up now
Can't believe I lost you
Lost my best friend, my soul mate..
Can't believe it's true.
At times, I honestly don't want to love Caitlin the way I do. Theres no point to it, especially if I'm only gonna' see the girl once every four years. I--..
I'm not writing about her right now. Not yet, atleast. Today..
Today I woke up at 8 sumtin 'cause m y mom wanted me to drive early since I don't have my permit anymore. Driving.. it's really not any fun to me, especially if I'm not going anywhere for anything. Just driving to drive = boring.
Went to Freddy's house. HIs mom is friends with my mom so mi madre y yo just went there and stayed for about an hour. Freddy ( who goes to bowie ) left for the step team show since I guess he's on it, and his brother ( lamar ) went with me and my mom back to our place. He's upstairs now, banished to my room playing NFL street.
As of right now, I'm talking to Michelle.
I love you.
She asked me to take her to her drama banquet a few weeks ago. I really do want to go, but I've got this ominous feeling that something'll happen. She'll cancel at the last second because someone better came along and wants to take her, which would suck, but make alot more sense. I'd love to take her, and I really want to, but how often does Jon get what he want?
Alot, right? My life's been pretty good, and I'm definatly thank ful. Everytime I go visit a friends house, like Charles or Ivan who live in Grand Prarie, I feel a little bad. They live in the same Ghettos that I used to live in a few years ago when my dad was getting over his drug days. He lost out on so many oppurtunities because of drugs, so my tolerance for drug abusers isn't really that high..
The only druggy I can stand to be around isn't around, so .. atleast I don't have to worry about second hand smoke.
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