My spring break was last week. It was... bittersweet.
Sunday through Wednesday Edward and I stayed in Orange Beach. Gulf view and all, very nice. And fun. And relaxing. And itchy after day 2 because I got a sunburn. On the backs of my knees, the very worst. We found shells and ate seafood (he ate raw oysters, ugh). No arguments, lots of sleeping and lots and lots of beer. Almost too much beer, which up until then I thought wasn't possible. We left and Edward accidentally left all of my shells but that's okay. I wanted to kill everyone who fed the seagulls. They're fucking seagulls. There's no need to screech, "Oh my God, it caught it in the air!" It's what seagulls do. Eat everything and make lots of noise and shit all over the place.
On Wednesday I returned home thinking I'd be sleeping in and hanging out with friends. Edward went to his parents house to finish up the break. About 20 minutes after I settled in and comforted my angry abandoned kitty, I learned that a good friend of mine from high school had committed suicide.
FUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK.
So the rest of my evening was spent crying, making phone calls and trying to figure out what the hell was going on in the world.
I went to Decatur Friday. The funeral was Saturday. Friday night I went to a friends house and, no joke, it was like a 5 year high school reunion. EVERYONE I graduated with was there. Well, not everyone, but the ones that are important to me. My friends. They weren't okay. I wasn't okay. I have a story about a person I encountered after I first got there, but it's not for this entry.
The funeral was... the hardest funeral I've ever been to. In 22 years, I've been to six. I thought I was prepared and knew it was coming, but I was so fucking wrong. Grief, ugh. I'm gonna miss my friend. He was a good guy. I'm pretty fucking pissed at him but what can you do, right? I'll get there.
And now I'm back here. In Auburn. Like nothing ever happened. Spring break was like some confusing dream.
It was a pretty day today so I took some pictures. I'd put them in my gallery, but it doesn't work because some cockface asshole keeps fucking up NuTang. I'll upload them to Flickr and post them later.
Sorry to hear about your friend.
Spring break has been over for a while for me, I went to exciting New Jersey.
» ikimashokie on 2007-04-02 08:55:38
I like it a whole lot better than Virginia... Sure, it's cramped-ish, but there's something everywhere, as opposed to something in the middle of nowhere... :/
» ikimashokie on 2007-04-02 10:15:21
it's a shame about your friend. makes me think of how lucky i am just to be alive.
summer break is just around the corner; hang in there!
cheers,
sssssank.
» thaitanic on 2007-04-03 09:50:43
Sorry about your friend. I've had one person close to me pass away and I didn't go to her funeral.
» Dilated on 2007-04-03 02:13:27
Is there a difference between closure and acceptance?
» Dilated on 2007-04-03 02:32:29
I've got these dichotomous feelings on the notion of 'moving forward.' On one hand, I can see why it is necessary and how beneficial it is to someone's psyche... but on the other hand, I don't want to move on to the point where I forget.. I dunno'. I'm not saying that I'd want to wake up every morning and bawl my eyes out if my wife died, but I wouldn't want a morning to come where I don't think of her and how important she was to me.
» Dilated on 2007-04-03 03:08:51
And I'm getting into hypotheticals. Yo no se, Chloe, yo no se.
» Dilated on 2007-04-03 03:09:10
It seemed to affect Charlie Brown positively. (GET IT? GET IT? 'Cause.. 'ya know.. his catch phrase was-- .. nevermind. )
» Dilated on 2007-04-03 03:14:47
Yeah... completely immature. He can't delete my post, though, and it says the same thing, more or less.
I'm usually super-nice, but sheesh, what a pain.
» ikimashokie on 2007-04-04 11:42:27
Haha, it seems any comment I make, he deletes. How cute.
» ikimashokie on 2007-04-04 01:53:03
sorry about your friend.
i know it must be hard.
but you will get better.
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