I can't sleep. ): I have school in the morning, but who knows if I'll wake up to even go. I'm seriously not feeling it. It's one of those weeks where I feel like I just have to stay in and be alone, contemplate. I need to get away.

I'm watching The Wackness right now. It's weird seeing Josh Peck playing that kind of character since I'm so used to seeing him on Nickelodeon, but it's only 18 minutes into the movie so I can't really say much.


I feel so stuck. I don't see why I invest so much time into something when I am so uncertain of the outcome. Especially when the outcome outweighs more toward the heartbreak side. Just let go, forget about it right? I wish it were just that easy. So much easier said than done. I wish I can just bust an Eternal Sunshine for a Spotless Mind. Why is it that we always want what we can't have? And once we have it, we don't want it anymore or we slowly lose interest? Everything is just so complicated. Everyone around me seems to have at least one thing in their life that they are so content with, why can't I have that? That little ounce of happiness in this mess I call my life. I miss the simplicity of life as a child. A time when we had no worries in the world, well not any life changing ones at the least.


So I happened to take a break from this blogging thing and now the movie is over. It's good. I love all the songs in it. It all just went well. I wish I could elaborate more on it, but I'm getting pretty tired. I will end it with a quotes from the movie..


Luke Shapiro - "So that was all bullshit right? All that stuff about embracing your pain, making it a part of you? You can't do this, you can't just give up. Life is hard and it's full of pain and whatnot, but we take it cause there's great stuff too. And we can do it cause we have friends... because we have each other."

Dr. Squires - "That was really fucking cheesy what you said just then."
Luke Shapiro - "There's enough assholes in the world Dr. Squires, don't be another one."
Dr. Squires - "Now you sound like me."

Luke Shapiro [to Dr. Squires] - "Baby steps, you'll be okay."

Luke Shapiro "Do me a favor, Steph?"
Stephanie - "Huh?"
Luke Shapiro - "Don't say nothin' okay? Just stand there till I leave. I wanna remember this. I've never done it before.."
Stephanie - "Never done what?"
Luke Shapiro - "..had my heart broken."