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Tuesday. 9.17.13 10:23 pm
It's obvious he's in to someone else. I had my suspicions, but it was kind of confirmed tonight. I wished him a happy birthday and he didn't even break eye contact with her when he said thanks. It sucks, but it is what it is. I asked for a sign and I sure as hell got one. Now to just back off and hope that he never works the same shift as me. Or just not interact with him the same as I had been. It'll be difficult, as I still think he's attractive and funny, but I'll need to back off if I ever want to gain some kind of sanity over this situation.

I've been there less than two months so it's not like I'm losing a whole lot. This just means that come January, I can quit without feeling so much as even a little remorse. And I'll be leaving with my dignity in tact, not having exposed the fact that I was even in to him. This also means that when I see my friend again, I'll just tell her to pick where she wants to eat lunch since she kind of wins this deal.

My hours for Thursday were cut there so I'll actually have some extra time to myself, which will probably be spent sleeping. I need some time to catch up on sleep anyway. As is, I won't be getting much sleep tonight because I got home late and had to wash my hair so I'll be up until at least midnight. Which will carry over in to me being tired tomorrow and then even more so on Thursday since I'm still working both jobs tomorrow. Ugh. I'm so ready for my weekend.

Until tomorrow. . .

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Throwing in the proverbial towel
Monday. 9.16.13 9:31 pm
I'm giving up, sort of. It's all probably just in my head; perhaps I'm spending too much time thinking about things and playing scenarios through my head that I'm actually discouraging myself, but I feel like I should just go ahead and back off for now. If it means buying lunch for my friend, then so be it. I think it would be cool to go hang out with her outside of her own coffee shop anyway. I will still talk to him if I get the chance, but I'm not going to look for it or expect it. I've decided that if this is going to happen, the opportunity will make itself known.

Today felt like the first day of fall, despite the fact that it's not for another 6 days. It barely made it in to the 70s and it was cloudy, cool and rainy throughout the day. I'm hoping this is a lasting trend; I very much enjoy this kind of weather.

This is going to be short tonight, as I don't have much to actually talk about. I think got out what I wanted to. If not, then there's always tomorrow.

Until then. . .

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Trip secured!!! =D
Sunday. 9.15.13 6:32 pm
I bought my tickets for my trip when I got home from work. Round trip flight, 14 days at the hotel and 14 days car rental for $912. I've known I was going since June, but this secures the trip. Ah! I'm so excited and relieved at the same time. Now I just have to save up all that I can.

In other news, the Seahawks vs 49's game has been delayed due to inclement weather ... in Seattle. There's quite a bit of thunder and lightning so it makes sense. However, this is Seattle so it's just as strange as it is awesome. I was going to take this time to get in a quick shower, but considering how much lightning there is right now, it's probably not the best idea. I can hop in the shower once the game comes back on. I'm only following the play-by-play on ESPN since I don't have cable to watch it live and I don't care enough to pay to watch it online.

So apparently the manager is going to be out of town the end of this week ... which is when Sept 19th is. . . He must have misunderstood, or just not heard, me when I said the 19th of next month. Which means I still may have the chance to ask him to the party. We'll see what happens. After this, I may just chicken out altogether and let it sit until December when I no longer need this job and can quit. Hell, I don't even know if he likes me. I'm so ignorant toward any signs that a guy is interested in me. I always just think he's being nice. I wish there was a definitive sign that he's either in to me or not so I know whether to pursue or back off. This is almost as much of a sure thing as asking for proof of ghosts. If you don't believe, it's easy to miss the signs.

Alright, the lightning seems to have moved off to the East a bit so I'll probably give it 15 more minutes then hop in the shower. As much as I love, love, love this weather, I'm kind of wanting to shower before it gets too late.

Until tomorrow. . .

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So much for an easy out
Saturday. 9.14.13 9:33 pm
My manager will be out of town the week of the party ... Fuck. Now I have to figure out another way to tell him that I'm interested in him. Any ideas? Remember, I can't talk to him about this if other people are around. I was about to tonight, but there was someone in the room we went in to so I had to resist. Too bad there's no way for him to 'accidentally' come across this blog and put two and two together. That would be way too simple.

Besides, I like that my blog is not easily searchable.

The rest of the day was okay. I slept off an on and got my laundry done in between naps. I ate most of a honey bun at work tonight. Big mistake. My stomach is all upset now. I'm hoping that the almond milk will help soothe it a little before I go to bed.

Tomorrow is back to my regular schedule. I'm actually really glad, for once, that I'm not able to work Sunday nights because this means that I'll be home when the Seahawks game is on and I can hear the noise from the stadium. It kind of carries up the hill a bit and with the fans attempting to break the world record for loudest crowd roar at a sporting event {record is 131.76 decibels set at a game in Istanbul} it'll be kind of cool to be able to hear it. I may actually follow the game online. We'll see if the 12th Man can actually live up to the record.

Until then. . .

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Lazy day off
Friday. 9.13.13 6:08 pm
I'm sure I've already used that title, but seeing as how I recently deleted all my saved history and cookies and stuff, I won't know unless I go back to look and as is indicated by the title, I'm feeling too lazy to look.

I stayed in pajamas the whole day and I left my house for about 10 minutes to bring Jacob to work. He worked two 16 hour shifts back to back so I thought he could use the extra sleep. I still stayed in my pajamas; I just threw on a bra for those 10 minutes.

I took a 4 hour nap that consisted of rather vivid dreams, though I can only vaguely remember them.

It's rather cool here today. I'm glad that it's back to feeling more like fall than summer. 80s and 90s is just too hot here. Hopefully this trend continues.

Until tomorrow. . .

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Feeling better
Thursday. 9.12.13 9:50 pm
It must have just been the day that caused me to be out of sorts yesterday because I felt fine today. The anxiousness was gone and the doubt was minimal. I'm not sure how I'm supposed to invite him to a party when we don't work together, but I'm sure that if it's meant to happen, the window of opportunity will make itself known. Unless, of course, us not working together is a sign that I will probably owe my friend lunch.

Still no plans for tomorrow, which I'm perfectly okay with. I will be sleeping in, staying in my pajamas and possibly napping some time during the day. It will be a good day off.

For now, however, I'm going to get my hair out of this towel, get my peanut butter bar and enjoy some YouTube videos before calling it a night.

Until tomorrow. . .

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