Home | Join! | Help | Browse | Forums | NuWorld | NWF | PoPo   
Saturday. 1.31.09 1:43 pm
Rules: Once you've been tagged, write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it's because I want to know more about you. Chain letters are for n00bs.

Here we go!

1. I am very simplistic.

2. I don't always do things the easy way, I usually do them the fun way.

3. If I make up a series of something, it has to be three items long. Otherwise I feel terrible until I fix it.

4. I know I'm a hypocrite.

5. Something said isn't as important to me as how it was said. Not just tone of voice, but diction and even facial expression. Watch what you say, but especially watch what I say.

6. Hence, the delivery is just as important as the joke.

7. If I had a mental disorder, I'd want to have mild synthaesia.

8. I love analogies. The relationships between concepts and/or ideas make my brain hum.

9. I visualize stories as I read/hear or write/tell them.

10. I'm like a less mustached version of my dad.

11. I was going to put right here that I had self-diagnosed mild OCD, but I realized that everyone probably does, or likes to think they do.

12. Once I start something, it bothers me to not finish, even if it's counter-productive or a little wrong.

13. I hate having habits, and I hate that I love them.

14. I might actually finish this stupid thing.

15. I have a tendency to mindlessly play with gadgets, even if I should be doing something else.

16. If I ever felt the urge to get high, I bet I could get in bed, wait til I'm almost asleep, and call one of my friends. I wouldn't even notice a difference, at that point.

17. I can't decide if I like or dislike prime numbers. But I DO like 17. Yup.

18. I have zero will power. (God helps me out a lot)

19. The number 19 always reminds me of the Dark Tower. Oh, Discordia!

20. I have a strange way of thinking with numbers, don't I? Hmm.

21. I like to re-read what I write because it usually makes me laugh. On the inside.

22. I love a certain shade of dark bluish purple, like the sky at night at sunset (not the sunset itself, mind you). It makes me feel like I'm floating.

23. When I swim, I pretend I can fly.

24. I feel small compared to life.

25. I don't care what as much as why. And how's pretty cool, too.

Comment! (3) | Recommend!

Saturday. 1.31.09 12:27 am
Today I was walking the dog, and I decided I knew what I would post about today.

Nope! Forgot it. Seems like it was rather a self loathing kind of thing...maybe I'm just not in the mood right now. It'll come.

But now I sleep because I value my rest more than usual.

Comment! (3) | Recommend!

Tuesday. 1.27.09 10:40 pm
good night Puerto Rican

Good night, kitchen appliance.

Yeah, we're buds.

Comment! (3) | Recommend!

So that's what it's like!
Sunday. 1.25.09 3:13 pm
Last night I learned and understood what it's like to be insane. I was talking to Katie at about 12:30, as usual, and I could not stay focused. It was terrible; every other thing we said would set off a "day dream" in my head. This is kind of the process I undergo under normal circumstances anyway, where I process what someone's saying and think of a response. But it usually doesn't get away from me, so to speak...and after I came out of it I could never remember how I'd planned on responding, or even what she'd said to begin with. It's as if laying in bed starts my brain to shutting down, even without my consent. I guess that's a good thing, since that's what I've taught it to do (I used to have real trouble settling down and going to sleep). But it was interesting to experience what it's like trying to fight it.

After I got off the phone, I was still in the mindset of trying to fight it, actually. I kept settling into scenes and ideas but shaking myself out of them because I thought I was still on the phone. It was weird. It's like part of my mind was suspicious of the other. Reality didn't mean much at that point, because I could hardly tell what was more real. Crazy stuff. I mean, I read about that kind of stuff all the time, but it's an entirely different thing to EXPERIENCE it.

I wonder why we doubt other people's experiences so much compared to our own. Say my friend tells me about his skydiving fun. He tells me how exciting it was, about the adrenaline rush, the wind in his face, the feeling of weightlessness...you hear about that kind of stuff all the time. But doing it yourself makes your understanding infinitely better. You didn't just hear about it or see it, you experienced it. And you'll know how your friend felt when you just cannot communicate the experience, how you're stuck with words or pictures, and it's simply not enough. People understand it in their head, but it isn't a part of them yet. Sometimes we don't even know we were missing out on that level of understanding until we suddenly understand with our entire being.

That's one of the things they tell us to be wary of in church. There are people who've gone to church their entire lives, and they think that makes them OK. And they don't realize that they're just window shopping, really. They never experience anything, and they never know any better. Or even worse, they experience God one time and they think that's it. They don't move anywhere with it. It's like if I got a cake, looked at it, and thought, "This cake looks pretty nice." But I never thought to eat a piece. Or, I eventually decide to eat a piece but don't think about the rest of the cake.

There's always more cake to be had; have it!

What a lovely tangent. I think I had a plan for this, but now I don't know what it was.

I should be reading my history book. Later!

Comment! (7) | Recommend!

middaymoon's Weblog Site • NuTang.com

NuTang is the first web site to implement PPGY Technology. This page was generated in 0.015seconds.

  Send to a friend on AIM | Set as Homepage | Bookmark Home | NuTang Collage | Terms of Service & Privacy Policy | Link to Us | Monthly Top 10s
All content Copyright 2003-2047 NuTang.com and respective members. Contact us at NuTang[AT]gmail.com.