I'm so anxious. The only time I calm down is when I force myself to read Watchmen (it's actually a really well down graphic novel), and doing that too long gives me a headache.

The worst part is that my nuTang isn't really private anymore. Sure, I can PWP some entries, but that seems kind of obvious. "Here's an entry I don't want you to read, Haha!" A while ago, I didn't care what I wrote here. On some level, it's because you guys aren't total strangers, anymore. But really it's because I've invited friends. People who know me, people who judge me.

People who don't need to know me that well.

I still have my little red notebook in my backpack, though that isn't as fun or accessible. It's mostly for school-related rants, too. It's a back-up, I suppose.

Incidentally, recently I was writing angrily in it and this girl who sits next to me was, I think, reading over my shoulder. That was a bad morning, and I was short on patience. I don't even think I finished what I was writing, I just closed it, put it back in my pack, and stared until she looked away.

The day later improved, but that's beside the point.

Actually, it's ALL beside the point, because now that I'm sitting here, I'm not sure what I would say, anyway. I guess my little red book is the best, after all.

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You can talk to me more when you feel like it. I'll wait.

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Rules: Once you've been tagged, write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it's because I want to know more about you. Chain letters are for n00bs.

Here we go!

1. I am very simplistic.

2. I don't always do things the easy way, I usually do them the fun way.

3. If I make up a series of something, it has to be three items long. Otherwise I feel terrible until I fix it.

4. I know I'm a hypocrite.

5. Something said isn't as important to me as how it was said. Not just tone of voice, but diction and even facial expression. Watch what you say, but especially watch what I say.

6. Hence, the delivery is just as important as the joke.

7. If I had a mental disorder, I'd want to have mild synthaesia.

8. I love analogies. The relationships between concepts and/or ideas make my brain hum.

9. I visualize stories as I read/hear or write/tell them.

10. I'm like a less mustached version of my dad.

11. I was going to put right here that I had self-diagnosed mild OCD, but I realized that everyone probably does, or likes to think they do.

12. Once I start something, it bothers me to not finish, even if it's counter-productive or a little wrong.

13. I hate having habits, and I hate that I love them.

14. I might actually finish this stupid thing.

15. I have a tendency to mindlessly play with gadgets, even if I should be doing something else.

16. If I ever felt the urge to get high, I bet I could get in bed, wait til I'm almost asleep, and call one of my friends. I wouldn't even notice a difference, at that point.

17. I can't decide if I like or dislike prime numbers. But I DO like 17. Yup.

18. I have zero will power. (God helps me out a lot)

19. The number 19 always reminds me of the Dark Tower. Oh, Discordia!

20. I have a strange way of thinking with numbers, don't I? Hmm.

21. I like to re-read what I write because it usually makes me laugh. On the inside.

22. I love a certain shade of dark bluish purple, like the sky at night at sunset (not the sunset itself, mind you). It makes me feel like I'm floating.

23. When I swim, I pretend I can fly.

24. I feel small compared to life.

25. I don't care what as much as why. And how's pretty cool, too.

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Today I was walking the dog, and I decided I knew what I would post about today.

Nope! Forgot it. Seems like it was rather a self loathing kind of thing...maybe I'm just not in the mood right now. It'll come.

But now I sleep because I value my rest more than usual.

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