Gym time today: 3.5 hours.
Total this week: 6 hours.

Today was long. I went to visit a hospice patient, and ended up just chatting with her while she sat on a commode... She wanted me to stand there to make sure nobody would come and make her sit outside her room... And then she spent the better part of an hour putting lotion on while she sat there... I was glad to be able to provide her with some company (She said several times that she was very grateful that I was there and she wished I could visit every day), but I felt a little awkward about it. I felt like I was invading her privacy, but I guess she didn't care...

Didn't have much time between that and my babysitting gig today, so I quickly got a few snacky things from an Indian grocery store (paneer pakora and aloo tikki, yum yum) and ate those around 11:30ish.

Babysat for three hours. This was the third time I've sorta babysat this particular kid, and it went better this time, I guess. It pays much better than my other babysitting gig, but I'm much more fond of the other kid. The mother of the kid I babysat today has a very... permissive parenting style, so the kid doesn't clean up after herself and doesn't really take "no" for an answer...

Went home... found out my mom bought raspberries... ate a bunch of raspberries and drank some water. I was super tired and I thought it might be because I was dehydrated (I hadn't had anything to drink until then, so, like, within the 6+ hours I'd been awake).

Waited around, answered a message or two on OKC.

Hit the gym! (Of course)

Pilates, CSI, and Total Dance today. I also ran two miles (8 minute mile pace) and walked half a mile between Pilates and CSI because there was a half hour break. I guess I probably could have run longer, but it was not very appealing to do so. I contemplated going on the Stairmaster for half an hour after Total Dance, because I felt kind of bad about eating a whole pizza and chocolate cake and stuff yesterday, but I didn't end up doing it... Thought it would be better to take it easy since Bootcamp is tomorrow.

It's strange that I sort of look forward to Bootcamp because it's one of the only classes that feels like real exercise. Even though I don't have real fitness goals or anything, I like doing hard classes because it makes me feel like I'm being productive. Sometimes in like, Pilates and dance classes, I'm like "What are we even doing? This is just like, waving our arms around, and it's not even hard" and then I feel like I should run and/or do the Stairmaster to make up for it.

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Lately this guy I've been online friends with for a few years has been casually inviting me to different activities, and I'd like to take him up on one of those offers, I think. He is a very interesting dude! We don't talk super often, but I can't think of a boring conversation I've had with him. More surprising to me is that he thinks I contribute more to our friendship than he does. I feel like when we talk he always has some cool new thing to tell me about, and all I do is talk about the dumb guys I interact with. I guess he thinks that's an interesting thing, though. :S Unfortunately he lives in San Francisco, so it's sort of troublesome for me to visit (he's not near the train station from what I can recall), which is why we haven't met up in the several years we've been talking. Maybe soon, though?

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Gym time today: 2.5 hours.
Total this week: 2.5 hours.

Starting over for the week. Did spin class, ran a mile (8:06 minute mile pace), walked a mile, did Bosu Blast.

I might stop working with my client soon. I'm getting really tired of him and it doesn't pay enough to make me feel like it's worth it anymore. He tried to offer me more money, but I don't know. I just really don't like him.

Right now I'm at the crisis line, and I'm getting dinner with a friend after my shift is over. That should be nice...

Oh, and I bought a portable air conditioner from IndieGogo. >_>

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I meant to mention this before... I really liked the most recent Monsterkind comic.

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It has a good message about support... Being there consistently for someone makes a big difference. It's not about always having some insightful thing to say, or fixing anything. It's just about being there, and letting the person know they don't have to face things alone. Being there whether or not they want to talk about it. That consistency means so much.

Also, this Louis CK quote:

New friend mentioned this to me, and I thought it was absolutely perfect.

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Gym time today: 3 hours.
Total this week: 14 hours.

Yay! I made it to 14 hours! I did spin class and Body Blast in the morning with my friend, then we stared at parakeets, got bagels, and chatted. Went home, ate a banana, took a nap, went back to the gym, ran a mile (7:30 minute mile pace; I didn't feel like I was dying afterward!), walked two miles, went on the Stairmaster. I think that last hour at the gym probably burned off most (all?) of the breakfast bagel sandwich I had in the morning.

When I got home, I took a shower, and right as I finished, this fly flew into the shower. I smashed it with a bodywash bottle when it got close to me. Then I looked at it and had this thought, like "what if this was a person I knew, and they got turned into a fly, and they were trying to tell me, but I just killed them?"

But well, they really shouldn't have been peeping on me in the shower in that scenario, so I don't feel much regret.

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Gym time today: 3.5 hours.
Total this week: 11 hours.

Three classes (Bosu Blast, Pilates, Turbo Kick) today, ran a mile (8:13 minute mile pace again), walked two (one at 4.5mph with a level 4 incline, one at 4.3mph). Body still a bit sore from the past couple days. Gonna take it easy tomorrow, maybe only go for an hour and only run or do Stairmaster? Need to let my legs recover.

I feel like I have made a new friend from OKC, but we'll see how things go. He is also very nice, like that other guy was, but in a way I feel more comfortable with. It's not that the other guy seemed inauthentic, but it felt more... shallowly positive? Like, not the kind of nice you want to pour your heart out to, I guess. I told this new friend a lot of stuff when I was feeling down the other night and it was nice to feel like someone was listening. A few emoticons and words of sympathy can make such a difference.

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Gym time today: 1.5 hours.
Total this week: 7.5 hours.

So I originally planned to do two classes, CSI and Body Blast, this morning, but when I woke up I was fairly sore from yesterday (Bootcamp is srs bsns!), so I figured I'd just do Pilates this morning instead. Welp, I went into the gym and Pilates was full, so I ran a mile and a half (8:20 minute mile pace again) and walked half a mile, then did Body Blast. The instructor who teaches the intense Body Blast class was there this morning, so... that was... tiring. I'm not sure it was a good idea to do an intense class last night and an intense one this morning.

Regardless, I get a long break between this morning's class and tomorrow evening's classes, so hopefully that's enough time for my body to recover.

Other than that, I babysat again today. No therapy, because my therapist had to cancel for emergency reasons. We rescheduled for Friday. Also have my call with my client coming up tonight...

I just feel kind of off today. Don't remember my dreams last night, but I woke up feeling sad, and the feeling hasn't really passed.

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Gym time today: 1.5 hours.
Total this week: 6 hours.

I had a very long day! I was supposed to babysit this morning at 9, and my alarm didn't go off, so I woke up at 8:54..............

Got dressed as fast as I could and drove over to the house where I was babysitting, apologized profusely, spent the next six hours entertaining a baby.

Also ate a granola bar and a banana as my makeshift breakfast there. And bought a couple salmon musubis from a grocery store when I took the baby out for a walk. Oh, and also a mini melon pan. But that was about it.

Finished at 3:30 pm, then quickly drove over to visit a hospice patient. Patient was sleeping. Phew. Stayed around, called the patient's name, patient didn't wake up.

Went home. Ate some sort of trail mix bar. Drove to the gym.

BOOTCAMP. I guess I didn't eat enough again, because I just didn't have the energy to do a lot of the exercises consistently for the whole time. :\ I felt really tired, and I felt bad that I didn't do more during the class, so I stayed an extra half hour and went on the Stairmaster for awhile, then ran a mile and walked one. Only an 8:20 minute mile pace today because of low energy.

Got home. Dad got dinner for me from Whole Foods. Yayyy, not having to make anything for myself. Ate dinner, went to Sean's house. Sat and talked with him while he browsed Tumblr and showed me stuff. He also played Diablo III briefly, and man, he is ridiculously overpowered in that game. He wiped out a boss in one hit. It was RIDICULOUS. So yeah, hanging out with him was cool. He's going back to school soon, so I probably won't be seeing him for quite awhile, but hopefully he keeps in touch.

It's 11:26 pm now. Just barely got my daily entry in.

Tomorrow's going to be another longish day... Gym in the morning (hopefully), then babysitting, therapy, then my call with my client. Not as long as today, at least. I really hope I have more energy for the gym tomorrow...

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