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"When we describe the Moon as dead, we are describing the deadness in ourselves. When we find space so hideously void, we are describing our own unbearable emptiness."
~ D.H. Lawrence

"Is the meaning of life defined by its duration? Or does life have a purpose so large that it doesn't have to be prolonged at any cost to preserve its meaning?"

"Living is not good, but living well. The wise man, therefore, lives as well as he should, not as long as he can... He will always think of life in terms of quality not quantity... Dying early or late is of no relevance, dying well or ill is... even if it is true that while there is life there is hope, life is not to be bought at any cost."
~ Seneca

"People will tell you nothing matters, the whole world's about to end soon anyway. Those people are looking at life the wrong way. I mean, things don't need to last forever to be perfect."
~ Daydream Nation

"All Bette's stories have happy endings. That's because she knows where to stop. She's realized the real problem with stories-- if you keep them going long enough, they always end in death."
~ The Sandman: Preludes & Nocturnes

"The road now stretched across open country, and it occurred to me - not by way of protest, not as a symbol, or anything like that, but merely as a novel experience - that since I had disregarded all laws of humanity, I might as well disregard the rules of traffic. So I crossed to the left side of the highway and checked the feeling, and the feeling was good. It was a pleasant diaphragmal melting, with elements of diffused tactility, all this enhanced by the thought that nothing could be nearer to the elimination of basic physical laws than deliberately driving on the wrong site of the road."
~ Vladimir Nabokov, Lolita

"It is easier to forgive an enemy than to forgive a friend."
~ William Blake
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Skipped one
Sunday, February 21, 2016
Gym time today: 2 hours.
Total this week: 2 hours.

I was really tired when my alarm went off this morning, so I decided to skip spin class and only went to Bosu Blast... but I stayed for about an hour after just doing stuff on the treadmill. I ran 1.5 miles (8 min mile pace, level 1 incline) and walked a little more than 1.5 (3 mph, level 8/9 incline). We did some planks today using the Bosu ball, and it was incredibly difficult... I don't have too much trouble with normal planks, but with the Bosu, they were like twenty times harder.

Recently I've been thinking that I should start work hardcore on self-improvement tasks again. I feel like I've settled into only doing things at a moderate level, and I could be doing more. My friend Alex said he thought I could be more outgoing, and I'm trying to talk to people more right now. Have been striking up conversation with people at the gym, and there's still a little tension leading up to it, but mostly it's okay. I've also been thinking about just going places by myself, or maybe doing something like a 100 day rejection challenge. The 100 day rejection challenge is pretty specific, though. I've already spent the last few years of my life building up the courage to strike up conversation with strangers, but I guess it kind of stopped there. Lately I have been sending first messages on OKC though... I guess it's not much, but it's something.

Last night I had a pretty lengthy discussion with a guy from OKC about politics, philosophy, and life in general... it was nice. We added each other on Skype awhile ago, but keep missing each other, so this was our first real conversation. Hopefully things sync up again sometime.

As far as I'm concerned, things are over.

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Saturday, February 20, 2016
Gym time today: 2 hours.
Total this week: 16 hours.

Had the normal classes (Cycle and Body Blast) today. Not much to report there. I hit sixteen hours this week, though! A new record!

After the gym, I had lunch with Sean. He got his hair cut into a mohawk recently, and was wearing a black tank top, black jeans, and had his wallet chain hanging from his pocket, so he looked fairly tough, haha. The fact that he's kind of big and muscly did not decrease that impression.

We talked about the new friend he made. They had lunch together yesterday, and he likes her, but she's not interested that way, which he's fine with because they live kind of far apart, and he doesn't want to have to deal with that kind of distance (again). I can really relate, there. Long distance is just... terrible. There's a delicate balance you have to strike between having your own life and keeping up with your significant other, and my experience has been that there's always one person who kind of neglects the other. Sometimes you want to feel like the other person values you and misses you, and when they seem like they're happy to just live their life without you in it, it hurts. Maybe that's how you know you shouldn't be with them, though. Is it really worth hanging around people who don't care or notice whether or not you're in their life?

Anyway... my parents came back today. They were gone all week on a trip, so I had the house to myself. It was kind of nice in some ways, I guess, but I think that ultimately, I prefer to have people around. Not having anybody to come home to made me want to go somewhere just to be around people.

I got some flowers, macarons, and a little tiramisu cup for my mom as a belated birthday gift. Did not feel up to making a card, though. I haven't really been feeling inspired to draw for awhile. Maybe that's just not part of my life anymore.

Umm... good things today... Seeing Sean was nice. And I wore my new rainbow socks out, so that was fun too.

My socks!

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Gonna go over this week
Friday, February 19, 2016
Gym time today: 1.5 hours.
Total this week: 14 hours.

So I actually was at the gym for closer to two hours today, but I'm rounding down. I did Bootcamp, then ran a mile (level 1 incline, 7:30 minute mile pace) and walked two miles (incline between 8-10, 3mph). I feel like... maybe I could have run for longer, but I didn't really want to.

Last night I had a dream that I went for an interview at SU and they had me sit around a table with other applicants, and told us to imagine we were little kids. There was all this stuff on the table, toys and papers and random knick knacks, and they were judging us on how we acted... I wasn't really sure what to do. After a few minutes, they announced that only one person had won, because they convincingly acted like they believed they were a small child. It wasn't me, and I was shocked that I hadn't been accepted. I was reeling in disbelief and trying to figure out how to fix the situation when I woke up.

Good things that happened today: I finally got a message from someone who plays the accordion on OKC! Things are just starting out, so not sure if he's cool yet. Also got a message from SL!

Noah showed me this and I've been watching other Vitas videos, transfixed, for awhile now.

I'm worried about him. He's kind of mentioned a couple times now that things aren't going that well for him. And... he just said it's been like this for a year or two... I really wish I could help him, but I'm not sure what would help, exactly.

Sometimes I have this fantasy in which I go and live close to someone for awhile and comfort and support them and help them get their lives back together, and everything is better because deep down, what they really needed was to not be lonely anymore.

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A less productive day
Thursday, February 18, 2016
Gym time today: 1 hour.
Total this week: 12.5 hours.

I just went one hour tonight (for Turbo Kick) because I had a headache and decided to take a nap instead of going to Pilates Fit tonight. It felt weird only being there for an hour.

It was a long day... I babysat for six hours, and the baby wouldn't nap at all. I was super tired and had a headache, so I wasn't pleased with that. She was also kind of whiny and kept saying my name and crying if I wasn't within three feet of her and paying attention to her. -Sigh-

The hospice patient I visited seemed to be in a good mood, at least, so that wasn't too bad.

After I got home from the gym, I showered and went over to my friend Alex's place. We watched another episode of The Magicians, which was enjoyable of course, and also watched a couple episodes of Lucifer, which was... less enjoyable. Lucifer uses some tropes that I've seen many times before, but it doesn't really use them in any sort of original or interesting way, so it was pretty meh. Hanging out was still nice, though. We might start getting together regularly to watch shows!

This music video is neat. "1998" by Chet Faker.

We used to be friends
We used to be inner circle
I don't understand
What have I become to you?
Take my good word
Turn it backwards
Turn your back on me
Is it absurd
For me to hurt
When everything else is fading?

Good things that happened today: SL responded to me again! And I got an email asking me to schedule an interview for grad school. So yay.

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Have had these pictures lying around [Ask]
Wednesday, February 17, 2016
Be it extremely emotional, controversial, messed up, or whatever, this entry has been password protected.

If you know it, enter it; or, ask me for it.

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Dark cycle
Tuesday, February 16, 2016
Gym time today: 2.5 hours.
Total this week: 8.5 hours.

Bootcamp was tough today. I think maybe I didn't eat enough before going, because I was pretty exhausted. Walked a mile after that, and then had spin class. There was a sub today, and she turned off the lights and had disco balls and flashing lights and stuff going. I think it was the most fun spin class I've ever taken! I wish they were like that more often. The instructor and another lady in the class were talking about how there are classes like that at some other place, but it's $35 a class, and the instructor was like "It's worth it" and I don't see how that could possibly be worth it unless you've just got money to burn.

Another beautiful day. I babysat today and all the windows in the house were open because it was warm. Not really appropriate weather for February, but I enjoyed it anyway.

It feels kind of like one of those summers that seems effortless and endless, when things feel alright for the first time in awhile. In my experience those summers are always followed up by something bad, though. I've been trying for years now to move away from the mindset that bad things are the default in my life, and good things are just glitches in the universe, but sometimes when I'm in the middle of a bad streak it feels like thinking bad things weren't the default was just me deluding myself.

That's not the point, though. Today was nice and it was a good day overall. I'm not feeling particularly sad. I am just in the habit of affecting sad mannerisms.

SL just responded to me. :D Yay! All these nice things today.

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Going better
Monday, February 15, 2016
Gym time today: 3.5 hours.
Total this week: 6 hours.

Mat Pilates, ran a mile (level 1 incline, 7:30 minute mile pace), walked almost another mile, CSI, then Total Dance. Running was easier today, probably because I didn't do any cardio right before it.

I felt pretty good today. Maybe even happy. Spending yesterday with my friend had a really big impact on me, I guess.

It was a beautiful day today. Warm, sunny. The sky was blue, but not overwhelmingly so. The world was colorful and real and I felt alive. Everything was okay, and things were going to be okay. Overall I just felt really at ease.

Maybe this is the point from which things will finally start to really get better. I hope so.


I made this screenshot my desktop background a few days ago because it was something I needed to remember.

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(Late entry, but titling it as the right day)
Sunday, February 14, 2016
Gym time today: 2.5 hours.
Total this week: 2.5 hours.

Cycle and Bosu Blast in the morning, then stayed extra time after Bosu Blast because the Bosu Blast instructor is also a Zumba instructor and she asked if anybody wanted to stay to practice a new routine. There were only four people who stayed, so I was able to actually see what was going on. It was a lot less stressful than going to a normal Zumba class, so I was somewhat able to follow along, even if I had trouble with the hip movements. Actually spent longer than 2.5 hours at the gym because of that Zumba thing, but I'm only counting the scheduled time. (Oh also, I ran a mile at a level 1 incline and a 7:30 mile speed and it was not super easy, but I made it; probably would have been easier if I didn't do it right after the spin class)

I spent almost all day with my friend Alex, so I didn't get around to writing this entry yesterday (it's actually Monday right now). It was really nice! I texted him after I got back from the gym and asked if he'd like to hang out, because I didn't have any plans for the rest of the day, and he said he was free, so we hung out from like... I dunno... 4 AM to like past 1 AM, haha. I had a good time! We watched the first few episodes of this silly series called The Magicians, which is kind of like someone's terrible Harry Potter/Chronicles of Narnia/other things fanfiction that somehow made it to TV. It was bad, but in an enjoyable way. I guess that's about par for the course for something that came from SyFy, though.

Going to hit the gym again tonight, so I'll probably try to type up an entry about that.

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