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Location: Mansfield, PA
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1927 Max Erhmann
Go placidly amid the noise and haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible without surrender
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others,
even the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.
Avoid loud and aggressive persons,
they are vexations to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain and bitter;
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.
Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs;
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals;
and everywhere life is full of heroism.
Especially, do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love;
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment
it is as perennial as the grass.
Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.
You are a child of the universe,
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.
Therefore be at peace with God,
whatever you conceive Him to be,
and whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul.
With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Strive to be happy.
I'm in love
Monday. 6.20.05 6:18 pm
I am so full of love for everyone I care about right now. I don't know what has gotten into me but I am indescribably happy about everything right now.
Wednesday. 6.15.05 10:36 pm
Having accomplished every last one of my New Year's resolutions, I felt that it was necessary to regroup and come up with a new list of simple aphorisms to better myself by.
1. Be nicer to my mom
2. Call my dad more often
3. Borrow less money
4. Be more patient
5. Pay off my car
6. Start writing thank-you cards
7. Be nicer to people who don't deserve it
That's all. Simple enough.
here is a large list
Tuesday. 6.14.05 7:00 am
Things I'm Impatient About Lately And Have Subsequently Been Acting Like A Bastard Because Of:
By David Shaffer
- I miss my girlfriend
- My car's stereo is broken
- My car's electric is somewhat frizzling
- It also makes this annoying rattle when the roads are hot
- Both of my guitars are out of commission
- One of them is getting fixed in a few days
- The other, I don't even know about
- So I have all this music in my head
- And nowhere for it to go
- I got a haircut and the girl cut it too short even though I reminded her not to
- I want to finish The Razor's Edge
- I got a $105 ticket for "(dis)obedience to a traffic control device" (I rolling-stopped a stop sign a block away from my house at 1:45 am and the cop had to fill his quota), and the cop told me that if I plead not guilty to it, he had the option of withdrawing that offense and writing me up for running a stop sign instead, giving me points on my license. So you know what? Because that fucker threatened me and was a total dick, I'm gonna plead not guilty. My ass if I'm going to let a cop strong-arm me into paying a ridiculous fine for a ridiculously mild offense.
- I don't feel like I've been doing a whole lot at work lately
- Seriously, I spend more time going and coming back from work than I do actually doing anything during any given day
- Thus, I don't feel like I have enough free time to get anything accomplished while I'm at home
- And I feel like I have so much I want to get done that relaxing or meditating or something seems almost like a waste of perfectly good time
- Time that I would probably otherwise spend fretting about what I want to do
- It's a vicious circle
- I suppose I will find the Zen of it soon
- I put on a lot of weight at school this year and I don't like how it makes me look. I have always been tall, but I liked being tall and thin
- Every one of my weekends until school starts is filled, pretty much, and I have band camp I have to do which I'm not looking forward to
- Also, since all my weekends are filled, that means I might not get up to see Dave Fisher, or down to see Chicken, or up to see my dad and Heidi. Though that may have a fix in the works
- I keep falling asleep in my contacts and I'm sure it's scratched my eyes and I really want to fix it but I don't have any glasses that I can wear for a few days to do that
- Sarah keeps bringing movies over and I keep meaning to watch them
I guess that's all for now.
sometimes wanton purchasing of goods is fun
Wednesday. 6.8.05 9:28 am
Last weekend was a pretty good time. Friday night, Mike Dickerson and Jay Crain came over and hung out at my house for a while, which was good. I haven't seen either of them in a while, so it was a bunch of fun. Then Saturday I went down to Thrad's house again and we did what we always end up doing: playing guitar and video games. I stayed there overnight, and then Sunday we had a church picnic to play. Thrad on guitar, yours truly on vocals. We did that, with classic tunes as "Blood From The Grave," "I Am Satan," "Seething Killfest," "Icy Black Sacrifice of the 15,000 Virgin Japanese Schoolgirls Death Rape Burn," and "Jesus Loves The Little Children." I think we're doomed.
Actually we really did play a song called "I Am Satan," but we changed the words so that it was actually about happy stuff.
I went home Sunday and just chilled. I love our new apartment. I actually did a workout of sorts that I think is just painful enough to work but not painful enough to make me want to quit: 10 minutes of jumping rope and 30 super-slow situps. Thoughts?
Since we had that majorly ass-rocking storm in the area on Monday, I had a day off Tuesday. Tom called me and told me that he wasn't going into work so I didn't have to either. So I didn't.
After fixing Chicken's mom's computer and delivering it back up to them, Mom and I went to Radio Shack and bought an S-Video cable for the DVD player, a detailing vacuum cleaner, and (frickin finally) some new studio headphones for yours truly. That means recording is back with a vengeance. Motherfuckers. Mom actually got the same kind too, so she'll be able to hear what I've been hearing the whole time.
We had lunch at Vinnie's for the first time this summer and that fricking RULED. I love Vinnie's food so much.
Upon returning, I called Joel and we made a venture up to Sayre for a number of things, point #1 being getting my car's stereo fixed/working. I think it's an internal fuse problem, but I don't feel like fixing it and there are other problems that they may be able to get while they're at it. Now, I love traveling places with Joel because we are always thinking the exact same things, always always always. We are so unapologetically male always. And there is always a lot of joy to be had in admiring eye candy. Dayum. Okay, anyway, after we hit up the Nissan dealer (unsuccessfully, I might add, but I'm scheduling a day for next week), we enjoyed ourselves some ice cream and a Yale's visit, where I bought some new tuning pegs for my guitar, but....
The fuckers didn't fit. The posts are too big for the holes in my guitar, and I'm not thinking that boring larger holes in my axe would be a smart plan.
Hit up Walmart after that, and then went home.
Mom and I then headed up to Troy and watched Kathryn's Stained Glass performance at THS, and it was adorable and cute. For a Jesusy show anyway, and there were some things that I take ire to about those things. Like, I wonder if it would be possible to do a Buddhist musical show. No, I guess not. Who cares. She did a great job as a "horny old lady" along with her two compatriots, and it was a fun show.
After that, Joel and I got back together and took a walk down to the playground and I found out it's really fucking hard to get on top of monkey bars. But it was done. It's also really hard to balance a see-saw.
Work today is uneventful like always, however tonight there will be excitement at the apartment, for we are getting our washer and dryer installed finally. I do believe this will be the first time this phenomenon has been in a domicile of ours since 1997. So I'm going to ceremoniously dirty a whole bunch of clothes and wash and dry them myself JUST BECAUSE I FUCKING CAN.
However, what I am really looking forward to this week is the weekend. Friday I get paid, finally, and it's looking to be about $550-$600 as a first paycheck, which is just fine with me. And at long last, Sarah will be out visiting me again!!!! :) She will finally meet my dad and Heidi, and my uncle I think, and of course my sister Greta. We're all going out to dinner and I'm excited to have her meet my dad's side of the family because they will love her like my mom's side did. I do miss that girl too. :-*
Oh yeah and Kat graduates on Friday. Damn, do I feel old.
well that was a fricking blast
Tuesday. 5.31.05 10:32 am
Holy shit. I had a 4-day weekend and it was nothing but 15,000 tons of total rock you like a hurricane.
So we'll start on Thursday. Sarah came over!! We were actually planning on hanging out Friday and Saturday, but due to her work schedule, we won't get to hang as much this summer. So a day more, we got. We met up in Mansfield shortly after work and she was looking oh so beautiful and smelling oh so good and just damn. My girlfriend makes being shallow really, really easy. It doesn't matter if she hasn't showered in a day and wakes up and her hair's a mess and there's not a trace of makeup to be found anywhere... she doesn't need it. This girl has perfect skin and the most beautiful eyes ever and she's slim and holy crap. I could go on for days about how awesome this girl looks and she impresses me every time she looks at me. Even if it's with that fake-pissed look. haha
See? I'm so shallow and I don't even give a crap at all.
Anyway. Sarah showed up and she met my mom, which we were all excited about. They totally hit it off, and I knew Sarah was in when Mom bought her stuff at Walmart 10 minutes after meeting her. After the Walmart venture, we trekked back to the apartment, which, to the uninitiated, I live in one now. We moved from the piece of crap farm house to a nice little place on Main in town. It's a couple doors down from the Acorn, and y'all should come by and see what we've done with it. Anyway, I gave Sarah the official tour and we retired to my bedroom for none other than an awesome round of....... a nap. We're such lazy people, it's crazy, but we took a nap and pretty much woke up when my mom got back.
Afterwards, Sarah met Kat and presented her with her birthday gift, a candle. This cemented Kat's love for my girlfriend in place and with that she was officially in.
I found out that it is easy to impress my mom and sister. All you have to do is be a nice person and smile like you've got nothing to prove because you know that there's always someone cooler than you (yeah Ben Folds). And Sarah totally won because she is so level-headed and calm and totally at peace with herself. It's inspiring because watching how easily she operates makes me reflect on where I've been with that whole quest and where I am now and it's a good thing.
The three days themselves were awesome. Thursday we had Taco Bell and then just lounged around. Friday, my future wife (read on before you get freaked out) KICKED ME OUT OF BED (understand now?) so I went to work for half a day, did jack shit, and came home, and we partied like yeah. I think Friday evening we drank. Maybe we just lounged around. Who knows? I think I'm gonna buy another set of pajamas so I can just wear them when I hang around with Sarah because we always end up taking ginormous naps and not really doing anything.
Saturday, we did lunch at Milky Way and then Mom cooked her famous tequila lime chicken & shrimp, with rice and asparagus, to rave reviews from the eaters of said food, for dinner. And then Sarah had to leave. :( She kicked out around 6:30 and all was at peace betwixt us and the world. Very very amicable and I like that she's not a huge fan of the long emotional goodbyes because I am not either anymore. I used to be all about it but God, honestly, what good does it do to get all weepy and cry-y about leaving? It's part of life. We say hello, we say goodbye, and then we say hello again. There's always another hello, so we don't worry about the goodbyes getting in the way of our hellos. Make sense? It does to me.
However, my night was not over at that point. An hour or two after Sarah left, I went down to South Williamsport to visit that guy. That's right, the one, and the only Thrad. Also thrown in the deal were the perennial Johnny Clabaugh and at long last, Brooke, the subject of oh so many conversations between Thrad and me this last year; it's like she's a mythical icon! I was under the impression that Thrad wanted me to ride her ass a bit because he's mentioned that she's a smart ass, so how's this for an opener? As I was walking up the stairs into Thrad's room, I loudly interrupted their conversation: OKAY YOU CAN START NOW I'M HERE.
Brooke was just like "Jesus..." and I knew it'd be a good time.
That night we ended up making a Sheetz run and then drinking like fools. The real men in the house made Brooke, the huge wuss, drink Jagermeister and she whined about how it "tasted bad" and "made her sick." What a wimp! She got hers back at me by whipping my ass in Katamari Damacy like 14 times, and Thrad and J-funk and I all got turns jamming on guitar, which was cool as crap.
Thrad and I actually have a little acoustic show this Sunday that I'm totally unprepared for; fortunately we're going to Williamsport and I'm hanging with him tonight, and then Saturday I'm doing an overnight. So we'll be well-rehearsed in time.
The next morning we all kinda fell out of bed, though I heard through the grapevine and by grapevine I mean the ceiling that Thrad and Brooke banged. THAT'S RIGHT, I HEARD YOU FUCKERS. Anyway, we hung out downstairs for a while and just shot the shit. So much of my summer is being measured in the conversations that I have with people. What we talk about is just as much doing something as going to a movie or a place we go to me. Ow that sentence's grammar hurt. Lunchtime came and we did a Sheetz run again since neither Brooke nor I like vegetable death pizza. Ate lunch, hung out a bit, and then Thrad and Brooke wanted to "hang out" by themselves. If by "hang" you mean "use the method of pulling," then sure. haha guys
Actually the reason I left is because my mom called me and told me that Chicken was on his way up and would be at the house shortly. So I said goodbye and headed out, hurrying back to my place to find... no Chicken. He hadn't been there yet and he called about 2 minutes after I got in the door to say he'd be around later, which was fine.
When he came over, we played Zelda 64 and recorded some music, like we always do. Chicken's a good time and we decided we were actually going to seriously make an album. Posted on that I will keep you.
Work this week has been utterly boring. We were a week ahead of schedule when we concluded on Friday, and when I came in Tuesday, that somehow jumped to almost two weeks ahead. So I've come into work late every day and Tom doesn't care. It's not like it matters anyway; the state is paying me and the university is not. Speaking of getting paid, next Friday, June 10, is gonna be a great day. Kathryn graduates and I get paid!! It will be huge.
I hung out with Joel a couple days this week too, and we had some similarly interesting revelations to share with each other. Pretty much that we're going to record music that we like even if it sounds just like everything else we like. BECAUSE WE DON'T CARE. We also drank. Daaamn did we drink.
I love alcohol.
sarah's here this weekend
Friday. 5.27.05 7:03 am
In fact, she's sleeping in my bed right now. The nerd! I have to go to work!
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