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Sunday. 12.4.16 9:02 am
I think I'm getting sick. My nose has been all weird lately, and I woke up this morning with that feeling in my throat indicating that I'm most likely getting sick. Which is fucking perfect because you know, it's not like I'm flying across the country in 6 days or anything. I haven't been sick in over a year so go figure that I already have several things going against me for this quick trip, let's just add in a cold. Because why the fuck not.

It's been over a week since I last wrote; I just haven't felt like writing anything. Thanksgivings went well enough. The fudge came out really well, surprisingly. Everyone who tried it loved it. So I guess now I know an easy recipe to make in a pinch for parties that I should be bringing something for. I still have some Bailey's left over so maybe I'll try drinking away this damn cold/weird throat thing.

As I mentioned last, I've been horrible about budgeting for the trip {one of the things going against me} and this paycheck wasn't an exception. There are two baby showers for the same person; one was yesterday and the other my coworker and I are planning to surprise her with on Wednesday. However, I'm pretty sure it isn't a surprise anymore since too many people know and someone is bound to slip up. Anywho, I tend to go a little crazy buying baby things {the last DC trip was indicative enough of that} and this was pretty much the same. I have maybe $9 to my name left until next payday; if I have any of that left, I'll put it toward what little I was able to put aside to take with me. Maybe the next time I go back east, whenever the hell that may be, I'll be better prepared.

The conversation I was planning on having isn't going to happen anymore either. Like I said more than once at this point, there are several things going against me for this trip now. My expectations have gone down significantly over the last month. I guess this will be like the last time: go out there with very little planned and just wing it the rest of the time. Except I only have 3 days to 'wing it' so it'll either be a lot of stuff crammed in a short period of time, or it'll be a lot of nothing that should have been something.

At least I have one thing to look forward to when I get back: I'll be seeing Rogue One that Friday. So that's at least something. It has nothing to do with the trip, but should the entire trip just end up being a complete bust, I at least have some sort of pick me up already planned.

Yes, I'm aware of the negativity saturating this entry. No, I don't give a shit. That's the whole point in this, isn't it? To get out whatever is in my head, good or bad? If you don't like it, you can stop reading. Though, if you're already made it this far, you're pretty much almost done because I've run out of things I want to bitch about currently.

Until next time. . .

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Stuff and things
Wednesday. 11.23.16 7:13 pm
I'm really not super creative when it comes to picking titles.

Happy Thanksgiving people! At least U.S. people. And it's technically tomorrow, but whatever. I've been saying it all day, and I'm not going to be home much tomorrow to say it then. So Happy Thanksgiving.

I made fudge for the first time ever. I have a feeling it's going to be very rich due to the fact that I mixed three different types of chocolate chips: bittersweet, semisweet, and dark. There's also Bailey's in the fudge so yay for adulting. I'm interested to see how it will come out.

I leave for DC again in a little over two weeks and I'm starting to actually get excited again. I'm sure it'll wear off again in a day or so and then I'll only get excited again once I'm actually on my way there. Excitement for me comes in spurts. Also, I said again a few too many times ... my bad.

I've been horrible at budgeting for this trip. It's likely because I've bought things for it, as well as some cold weather clothing items for here {I've been here 6 years, I think it's time I started increasing my collection} and the fact that there were only like 4 paychecks between that trip and this one, two of which have to pay the rent, so it doesn't leave much room for me to save up. I could always go donate plasma next week. Maybe I'll do that. . .

I'll be getting three Thanksgivings again this year. All three are 'friendsgivings.' It's nice knowing that people want me around because they want me around, rather than feeling sorry that I'm alone out here. I've spent holidays by myself before, and I'm perfectly cool with it. But it is much nicer to be around people that you like. Especially when there's food involved. Hence why I've made fudge. I needed to do something to contribute to these dinners; it'd be rude to just show up empty handed and just consume everything they've generously provided.

Anywho, it'll likely be December before I write again; about a week apart seems to be the trend.

So... until then ...

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Tuesday. 11.15.16 6:48 pm
Be it extremely emotional, controversial, messed up, or whatever, this entry has been password protected.

If you know it, enter it; or, ask me for it.

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Sunday. 11.13.16 4:54 pm
It's the time of year where most people do countdowns. It's the holiday season. Even if you don't celebrate any of the holidays that occur between Halloween and the New Year, most people tend to at least count down until the New Year. If for no other reason than because you now have to write down, or type, a different year.

I'm looking forward to Thanksgiving simply because food. It's kind of crazy that it's in less than two weeks, but also not really too crazy. This year has flown by and ... it's been an interesting year, to say the least. So many emotions. Both good and bad.

After Thanksgiving is my own personal countdown; I'm just shy of 4 weeks from going back to DC. This trip is going to be far too short lived. Two weeks wasn't long enough; 5 days is definitely not going to be long enough. But short of just up and quitting my job and staying there, it's about all I can afford to do at this point.

Christmas is one that I'm not looking terribly forward to, but there's really no negative reason. It's just one that's not held any kind of significant meaning to me over the years. Being away from my family, any of them, and having been single over the holiday season for the past 5 years has made me rather indifferent toward it. I have no real reason to celebrate it. At this point, it just signifies a 3 day weekend, and marks a week away from the New Year.

Anywho, there's other stuff I wanted to write about, but that's it for now. If you haven't already figured it out, the DC trip countdown is the most important one to me. If anyone asks about it, I am usually able to give them an exact date countdown, and I involuntarily smile. So yeah, I think it's safe to say that's the thing I'm most excited about, of the countdowns listed.

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Monday. 11.7.16 8:56 pm
I guess the hiatus was short lived this time.

I'm thinking that the reason I was feeling off wasn't strictly due to the weird headspace, but also because my body was fighting something off. I spent the greater part of Saturday sleeping off and on. After finally not falling back to sleep sometime around 3, I felt quite a bit better. Clearly I needed the rest.

The time change didn't affect me much in the way of my internal clock. It is a little strange with it getting dark out so early, but I think the part that bothers me the most about it is that, due to my work hours, I'll be missing out on the opportunity to get amazing sunset shots.

I voted for the first time ever. Apparently that's a big deal. I've managed to go the last 12 years without ever voting. I gave absolute zero fucks about anything politically related, up until this year. Now I give one. One single fuck. And unless I move back east, I will likely end up just staying at one fuck, or will go back to absolute zero. I guess it depends on how things go in the coming months/years.

I also went to the gym yesterday for the first time in 4 months. I'm a bit sore today, but I'm going to try to push myself to go again tomorrow. I need to get back on track. I was going through some photos and came across the ones of me trying on wedding dresses, a couple years ago, and didn't like how they looked. The dresses were pretty ... I, on the other hand, not quite so much. I've not really gained anything more since I've been back, but I need to make sure that I keep it that way, or possibly knock off these last few pounds that I'd come close to being rid of.

Anywho, that's all I have for now. I'm not sure when I'll write again; I'm sure something will come up that's blog worthy. Until then. . .

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Wednesday. 11.2.16 6:28 pm
Perhaps it's a little too soon to say that I may attempt to do the every day challenge come next year. We're only two months away, and already I'm typing up a blog to say that I'm going to be taking a hiatus for a bit.

I'm in a weird headspace again. I actually had a whole blog typed up yesterday, and I was just about ready to post it, but then I read over it again and decided against it, so I just closed out of the screen.

It's not necessarily a bad headspace, but it's one that is causing me to be unsure of how to properly articulate my thoughts. They're not coming out cohesively enough for a blog. I may also end up doing the same thing several times over, where I type something up just to get it out of my head before deleting it all.

I shouldn't be gone too long. Most likely no more than a month. Hopefully I'll get this weird headspace thing sorted out soon.

Until then. . .

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