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Tuesday. 9.9.14 9:31 pm
I'm working my way back up to being okay. Shockingly, the day wasn't half as bad as I anticipated, even with closing at Sam's with the one absolutely no one likes. We'll see how tomorrow plays out, as it'll be pretty much a repeat of today.

I am currently making plans for the weekend, though I don't actually know what they are yet. I just know that I will be busy. Here's to hoping that I'll be this motivated once the weekend actually comes. Two more days to get through.

I'm kind of hungry, but it's pretty close to bed time. I could be up for another hour and a half, which would be a decent time for the food to settle, but I'd rather not push it much past 10:30. Hmm ... yeah, I'll make up some mac'n'cheese.

Three more weeks working two jobs. Is it October yet?

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Reality check
Monday. 9.8.14 2:27 pm
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Not okay.
Sunday. 9.7.14 7:44 am
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Murphy's Law.
Saturday. 9.6.14 8:06 am
Murphy's Law is typically used when you plan for something and it goes negatively from what you've planned and prepared yourself for. From the Wikipedia page, it states "anything that can go wrong will go wrong."

I typically use this in a looser connotation, however, I've not forgotten the original meaning. For me, when I use this adage, it's in the fashion of something like, "Well fuck, I guess I got all dressed up for nothing." Or when I shave my legs because I feel like something's gonna happen that will require someone else touching them and then that backfires and I end up just staying inside without even a reason to wear shorts or capris. I'm currently testing the Murphy's Law theory and it will most likely prove to have been a waste of my time, but there's a small glimmer of hope. I have some pretty serious doubts, though. No expectations! Well, kind of ... more hope than expectation.

Jonathan and I are going out to breakfast/brunch today. We're going to the place that we were originally supposed to go to meet. He's been back there at least once, possibly twice, since the end of June so I guess this is as good a time as any for me to finally get to try out the place. His friend and his friend's wife might be joining us. I have serious doubts that they will because his friend is a spaz when it comes to meeting new people. Despite the fact he would be meeting me as Jon's friend , not girlfriend, he's still probably gonna be all weird about it and end up not going. However, there's a part of me that can't help but think that Jon really, really wants them to go so that it's not just the two of us. Not sure why I feel this way, but I wasn't wrong about the last time I felt something with him so who knows. Guess I'll find out.

Yesterday I spent watching various 2 hour-long movies on Netflix that I hadn't seen. It started with World War Z, which started out far more intense than it ended. However, I liked the way that it ended. {Spoiler alert} There was no fairy tale ending. I like when movies deviate from the norm. After that I watched Olympus Has Fallen, then The Family and finally Love Actually. The last one threw you off there, didn't it? Well, I'll be honest, I only kind of watched the last one. I was talking to Rob during more than half of it so I was paying more attention to the conversation than the movie. If I were to ever watch it again, I'm sure there will be parts that I won't recognize. Clearly, I started out strong and got less intense as the night went on. After brunch that will probably be what I end up doing. Again. Joy.

Alright, I should probably shower. On the off chance that his friends join us, I'd rather feel and smell clean than be all worried about whether they could tell that I hadn't showered since yesterday afternoon.

One more day in this mini stay-cation. Fuck.

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Ha, oops.
Friday. 9.5.14 9:01 am
Five days in to this new challenge and I already missed a day. Perhaps I should start writing earlier in the day, rather than waiting until the end on the off chance that situations like yesterday occur again. The odds of it happening are rather unlikely, as this was probably a one time thing, but I'm learning to not have expectations. At least not when it comes to hanging out with my friends.

Other than dinner and a movie at home, nothing terribly exciting happened before that. I slept in a little, hung out around the house. I, reluctantly, went grocery shopping. I'd rather have stayed in the house, but I needed to eat something more than just ice cream. I keep forgetting to buy paper towels. If I go out again today, that's definitely something that needs to be on the list.

I ended up staying at my friend's place last night, which is why I wasn't able to write anything. I sat on my ass at home for most of the day and could have written anything during those hours, but instead, I prefer waiting until the end of the day to write about how the day went. Since that doesn't seem to be working, I do think I'll begin writing at the beginning of the day, or at least earlier than normal and then just write about the day before. This way I can avoid missing any more days.

No plans for today, other than to sit on my ass, like yesterday. I think I'll take a nap here in a little bit. I have kind of tentative plans for this evening, but I'll find out later in the day whether it'll actually happen or not. I'm not expecting anything to come of it, this way I'm not disappointed if it doesn't happen.

I kinda want to go to the book store and buy a puzzle, but we'll see how I feel about leaving the house later; you know, once I've slept and eaten.

No expectations.

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Freedom!
Wednesday. 9.3.14 10:41 pm
Today was the first of 5 days that I don't have to work. It started out fairly well; I didn't have to wake up to an alarm. I dozed off and on for about 4 hours before finally deciding that I needed to be vertical. You can always tell when a visually impaired person is ready to start their day when their glasses go on.

There was a slight bit of reluctance in putting my glasses on, but I knew that I had at least one thing that needed to be done: my eye exam. It's been nearly 4 years since my last pair of glasses and I knew that it was something that was necessary. It's time for a change in frames anyway. I've had the solid black ones for a while; I'm starting to come in to my own with accepting that I look awesome in color so I added a bit of red to the black. My two favorite colors coming together, yet again, to make me look awesome. It'll be a couple weeks before I get the new glasses. The prescription had to be sent off to a lab because my insurance hates the place I went, but that's okay. I'm still pretty attached to the ones I'm using so this gives me an excuse to hold on to them a little longer.

My friend met up with me there so that I could have help picking out a pair. She actually agreed with me on one of the original pairs I had picked out while waiting to see the doc. It was a little more expensive than I wanted to spend on frames, but they should last me a while. I'm actually kind of excited to be sporting new frames. Though the red is bright, it's hidden behind the black exterior so you have to be paying attention in order to see it. I'll put up pictures on my Facebook once I'm finally sporting them.

After that we got that taken care of, we drove up to a mall that my friend had never been to and wandered around there for a good couple hours. We got some food and a snack and continued to wander. When we'd finally had our fill, we headed back to where her car was parked, where we'd originally met up, and last minute decided to get a drink at the Irish place across from the eye place. After a drink there and a couple jello shots on her part, we randomly decided to go to another bar a block down the street and got another drink and some snacks.

It was a lot of fun being out and about, enjoying my day with a friend. It felt so freeing not having to worry about work, or even think about the fact that I have to work soon. I realize that the days will go by a lot faster than I want them to, but I'm fully planning on enjoying every single day off that I have. I'm not making any definitive plans so that I can completely embrace the 'living in the moment' attitude. It's something I rarely do and now is as good a time as any to try it out. Today was kind of planned, but only the eye doc was the one set in stone. The rest of it just happened as it came and it was fantastic.

Here's to hoping the next 4 days are just as awesome.

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