Saturday. 9.13.03 11:26 pm
Friday. 9.12.03 4:42 pm
Gotta put mah monkey on before i start writtin ^_^..i love dat monkey! well jeepers i had an okie mornin..but a gay last nite cuz sister started actin gay agens...just cause i called mah bro and asked him if he took mah moms car to go fishin!! shes all blah blah blah" hes not like yooh..he doesnt take da car w/o askin"..and im like WDF!! ish none of ur bizness wat i just asked michael!! and shes all watevers and keep bringin it up and was like "tonys outside i tink he wuld notice da car missin"..and im like uhh no tonys not outside i was just out der..and shes all den where ish he?!?..hes outside stupid...and im like uhh no hes not...i tink i wuld have seen him out der if he was outside...and den i just walk away and shes all ur worthless and dish and dat..and so i snapp bak like WDF!! i still got time to make sumting of mahself...ur da ones dats hopeless...u fucken crackhead and shes all watever hoodrat..and im like uhhh...okies...shes just fucken mad cuz shes a fucken crack head..honestly now...i have not in mah whole life seen a tweeker make it in life...and she seems to got shit goin fer her...she went to skool fer nails and shit..but quit dat cuz of sum bs reason..den she went to college fer her bizness class...but wdf ish dat gonna do fer her wen she aint got no bizness!! i dunnoz...i lost all faith in her already...cuz she turned her life around from all da gang shit and was helpin out da family wen we needed it...den she gone n fucked up n staarted tweekin..i wish i knew who got her into it..cuz if i did.. fuck eh..i wuld blast der ass wid no hesitation.cuz dey gone and fucked up her shit dat she had goin fer her...and i noe she didnt just decide to do it one day...ish just not like my sister.... but oreoz off da subjust cuz imma just get mad
...well after all dat wid mah sister..me n mah babe talked fer a lil while den he went to sleep at like 3 and i was gonna but culdnt so decided to write kiki a letter thankin her for da letter she wrote me earlier...dish ish wat her letter said..
September 8, 2003
there are times in our lives when we just want to give up; sometimes we think that we dont care what is happening around us or what is happening to us. however, somewhere deep inside us, we know we are hurting and the fear that we hold within ourselves, we try to keep it from the world. showing fear and showing pain would show weakness and the humility of that reality haunts us. we tryand live our lives to perfest happiness, but life would not be completewithout hardships. that is where miracles happen and lessons are learned. miracles such as gaining strength,faith,or even friends. it most likely wont happn over night; but then again it might not take anywhere near a lifetime, but maybe somewhere in between. whenever it happens its a positive growth within ourselves that we thought we would never reach. attimes, we think things cant get any better or even any worse, and when it does we cant believe its happening to us. when times get rough and it seems that there is no way out,we lose hope. we lose hope for ourselves along with faith in other people. the faith we install in others builds a confidence that they willcommit to bein a reliable source of stability and help; that in return will make us better people. sometimes we try to shut these people out of our lives truly believing that dont understand, but maybe the importance is just that they are there to listen, give comfort, and try to understand.
throughout the years of our friendship i have found a dependable and very understanding person in you. you have given me strength,faith,and love that no other person can extend into my soul. it has forever changed my life and perspective on what a true friend can be. Now, in your time of need i ask you to open your heart and express every emotion and thought within your mind and soul. for i am there and will continue to be a positive companion whenever you need. i offer my ears , my heart, my soul, my tears, my love, my unending support in whatever you need. for you are my true friend and in return i am reconfirming my commitment to you. my promise to be a little bit of faith, strength, love, and most of all just completely a friend
I LOVE YOU!
GOSH HUH!!! i thanx the lord and everything great in da world that i found a friend like her in mah life....i dunt noe wat i wuld do w/o sumone like her... Rar..dish ish wat i wrote to her
2: my dearest kiki 9*12*03
Hey kiki! first i want to thank you for that letter,it meant alot to me. to know that you will always be there 4 me no matter what. second i want to thank you 4 being a great friend, 4 opening your doors and giving me a second home, a place i can go to when im down, or just plain out bored!, for being the person i can run to, to share all my tears of joy and sadness, 4 just being there 2 talk to, 2 be mah sisterthat i never had, cause we both know that mah sister is never there for me, but thats ok cause i got a sister in you. i also want to thank your parents for being so great, 4 lecturing me when i needed to be lectured. 4 acknowlodging the good things i do, something i wish my own parents can do. i just want to thank them 4 all the..."thank you Linda", "good job!", and "im proud of you". im so greatful for having you and your parents in my life. i hope you know and will always remember that i will always be here for you cause i really do love you, your dee best!
always and forever,
yupyup...as u can see nikkis da speech writter..and im not..only when i have to be..but then again i mite have lost that skill due to da fact i havent been in skool....o_O....gosh wen i wrote dat letter i started cryin cuz i was soo thankful for havin her in mah life..RAR...i love yooh kiki!! ur mah bestest buddy!! >_< HUG! keke..me outs...time to finish cleanin around and bein a bum
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Friday. 9.12.03 3:17 am
<~~ iSh BuN BuNz!!!!! LoLz..i mish bunbunz..and i mish frankie..i dunt mish dat daym cat tho...hehe...cuz im a cat hater ^_^..yum..guess wat im eatin...almond roca ^_^ ...i only eat dee outside part tho..cuz i like chocolate n almonds together...hMmMm YuMmMm...well today i didnt do much sat around..bro came home at like 5ish wid his fren andy...den i took a shower n mom called and needed help at work so i went to work..helped out a lil...saw all da new cars der...pretty nice cars der...and saw a coke machine tooh!!!!! kewl huh!!! lolz...got off work at like 9...came home chilled ate dinner dat mah bro mike cooked...it was pretty good but he kinda burnt da ribs but it was edible! ^_^...wellz..me sittin here bored..bout to go smoke....so im outs byebye!!
ish mah monkey!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Thursday. 9.11.03 7:40 pm
HaR hAr...look at dee monkey!!! okies dish ish mah first real entry due to da fact dat i just fingured out wdf nutang was....ish a fucken online journal thingy like xanga..but wayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy better!! hehe...imma have fun wid dish one.... hehe..well today was gay so far..even tho ish like5 rite now..but da day seems to be very very gay...and umm i mish mah babe oh soo berry much!! ..*i love yooh kai* ^_^ he makes me soo happy..rar...well if ya wanna cheak out mah other journal ish XANGA
but ya..imma be postin in dish one instead just cuz i can...i mite post on xanga once in a blue moon but ya..ill mostly post on here...so ill be da kool one..da only one wid nuTANG!! HARHAR..okies me go now ^_~ byebye
DaTs MaH BaYbEe...He SoO FoBuLoUz! ^_^
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