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Sunday. 9.7.14 7:44 am
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Murphy's Law.
Saturday. 9.6.14 8:06 am
Murphy's Law is typically used when you plan for something and it goes negatively from what you've planned and prepared yourself for. From the Wikipedia page, it states "anything that can go wrong will go wrong."

I typically use this in a looser connotation, however, I've not forgotten the original meaning. For me, when I use this adage, it's in the fashion of something like, "Well fuck, I guess I got all dressed up for nothing." Or when I shave my legs because I feel like something's gonna happen that will require someone else touching them and then that backfires and I end up just staying inside without even a reason to wear shorts or capris. I'm currently testing the Murphy's Law theory and it will most likely prove to have been a waste of my time, but there's a small glimmer of hope. I have some pretty serious doubts, though. No expectations! Well, kind of ... more hope than expectation.

Jonathan and I are going out to breakfast/brunch today. We're going to the place that we were originally supposed to go to meet. He's been back there at least once, possibly twice, since the end of June so I guess this is as good a time as any for me to finally get to try out the place. His friend and his friend's wife might be joining us. I have serious doubts that they will because his friend is a spaz when it comes to meeting new people. Despite the fact he would be meeting me as Jon's friend , not girlfriend, he's still probably gonna be all weird about it and end up not going. However, there's a part of me that can't help but think that Jon really, really wants them to go so that it's not just the two of us. Not sure why I feel this way, but I wasn't wrong about the last time I felt something with him so who knows. Guess I'll find out.

Yesterday I spent watching various 2 hour-long movies on Netflix that I hadn't seen. It started with World War Z, which started out far more intense than it ended. However, I liked the way that it ended. {Spoiler alert} There was no fairy tale ending. I like when movies deviate from the norm. After that I watched Olympus Has Fallen, then The Family and finally Love Actually. The last one threw you off there, didn't it? Well, I'll be honest, I only kind of watched the last one. I was talking to Rob during more than half of it so I was paying more attention to the conversation than the movie. If I were to ever watch it again, I'm sure there will be parts that I won't recognize. Clearly, I started out strong and got less intense as the night went on. After brunch that will probably be what I end up doing. Again. Joy.

Alright, I should probably shower. On the off chance that his friends join us, I'd rather feel and smell clean than be all worried about whether they could tell that I hadn't showered since yesterday afternoon.

One more day in this mini stay-cation. Fuck.

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Ha, oops.
Friday. 9.5.14 9:01 am
Five days in to this new challenge and I already missed a day. Perhaps I should start writing earlier in the day, rather than waiting until the end on the off chance that situations like yesterday occur again. The odds of it happening are rather unlikely, as this was probably a one time thing, but I'm learning to not have expectations. At least not when it comes to hanging out with my friends.

Other than dinner and a movie at home, nothing terribly exciting happened before that. I slept in a little, hung out around the house. I, reluctantly, went grocery shopping. I'd rather have stayed in the house, but I needed to eat something more than just ice cream. I keep forgetting to buy paper towels. If I go out again today, that's definitely something that needs to be on the list.

I ended up staying at my friend's place last night, which is why I wasn't able to write anything. I sat on my ass at home for most of the day and could have written anything during those hours, but instead, I prefer waiting until the end of the day to write about how the day went. Since that doesn't seem to be working, I do think I'll begin writing at the beginning of the day, or at least earlier than normal and then just write about the day before. This way I can avoid missing any more days.

No plans for today, other than to sit on my ass, like yesterday. I think I'll take a nap here in a little bit. I have kind of tentative plans for this evening, but I'll find out later in the day whether it'll actually happen or not. I'm not expecting anything to come of it, this way I'm not disappointed if it doesn't happen.

I kinda want to go to the book store and buy a puzzle, but we'll see how I feel about leaving the house later; you know, once I've slept and eaten.

No expectations.

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Freedom!
Wednesday. 9.3.14 10:41 pm
Today was the first of 5 days that I don't have to work. It started out fairly well; I didn't have to wake up to an alarm. I dozed off and on for about 4 hours before finally deciding that I needed to be vertical. You can always tell when a visually impaired person is ready to start their day when their glasses go on.

There was a slight bit of reluctance in putting my glasses on, but I knew that I had at least one thing that needed to be done: my eye exam. It's been nearly 4 years since my last pair of glasses and I knew that it was something that was necessary. It's time for a change in frames anyway. I've had the solid black ones for a while; I'm starting to come in to my own with accepting that I look awesome in color so I added a bit of red to the black. My two favorite colors coming together, yet again, to make me look awesome. It'll be a couple weeks before I get the new glasses. The prescription had to be sent off to a lab because my insurance hates the place I went, but that's okay. I'm still pretty attached to the ones I'm using so this gives me an excuse to hold on to them a little longer.

My friend met up with me there so that I could have help picking out a pair. She actually agreed with me on one of the original pairs I had picked out while waiting to see the doc. It was a little more expensive than I wanted to spend on frames, but they should last me a while. I'm actually kind of excited to be sporting new frames. Though the red is bright, it's hidden behind the black exterior so you have to be paying attention in order to see it. I'll put up pictures on my Facebook once I'm finally sporting them.

After that we got that taken care of, we drove up to a mall that my friend had never been to and wandered around there for a good couple hours. We got some food and a snack and continued to wander. When we'd finally had our fill, we headed back to where her car was parked, where we'd originally met up, and last minute decided to get a drink at the Irish place across from the eye place. After a drink there and a couple jello shots on her part, we randomly decided to go to another bar a block down the street and got another drink and some snacks.

It was a lot of fun being out and about, enjoying my day with a friend. It felt so freeing not having to worry about work, or even think about the fact that I have to work soon. I realize that the days will go by a lot faster than I want them to, but I'm fully planning on enjoying every single day off that I have. I'm not making any definitive plans so that I can completely embrace the 'living in the moment' attitude. It's something I rarely do and now is as good a time as any to try it out. Today was kind of planned, but only the eye doc was the one set in stone. The rest of it just happened as it came and it was fantastic.

Here's to hoping the next 4 days are just as awesome.

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Quick reminder
Tuesday. 9.2.14 9:27 pm
The PNW gave us a good, but brief, reminder of what we're most known for: rain. A lot of it. It wasn't really raining much throughout most of the morning and early afternoon, but it was certainly cloudy and windy; a sure sign of things to come.

Unfortunately I was at work when the storm hit, but I could definitely hear the amount of rain falling. It's times like those where I want to curl up in a comfy chair in front of clear bay windows, wearing comfy pajamas or a turtleneck shirt and sweats, holding a big mug of hot cocoa. It's something that I could watch for hours.

It's far too short lived, however. It'll be back in the mid 80s by Saturday. Which is stupid, but I guess summer technically isn't over yet. Boo.

Anywho, I'm free for the next 5 days. Since all of my prior plans had fallen through, I am now just taking it one day at a time. I have only one definitive plan: an eye appointment tomorrow afternoon. It's been 4 years so I need to get them checked. I'm about 3 years overdue. Since I've waited so long, I'll be going from high definition to ultra high definition. Should be a fun few days adjusting to new glasses.

Alright, I'm gonna chill out for a bit before I knock out. I know that I don't have to wake up to a work alarm in the morning, but I still have to get up at a reasonable hour so that I can be awake for my appointment. I really wish this rain wouldn't go away, but it's that time of year where it'll be a lot sooner before it returns rather than later. I'm excited for the change of season.

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New {old} challenge; day one.
Monday. 9.1.14 5:23 pm
I'm testing myself again. I want to see if I can actually write every single day, this time. I did pretty damn good last year, having only missed about a week the entire year. I'm not going to challenge myself to a full year, though. Only until the end of this year. This is brought on by the recent activity on my page, after a serious break in regular entries. I wanted to actually write about something positive each day, or at least, less negative, and this is a good way for me to have to think about it.

I've also just added a new module over there to the left. I'll be adding more as them come along; these are just the first two that came to mind. September is Childhood Cancer Awareness month and it's that time of year again to help further spread awareness to people who might not have otherwise realized it was a thing. Most people don't think about children being affected by it, but cancer has no bias.

The other part is for brain cancer research, something that I was directly affected by. My father died from it nearly 2 decades ago, as most of you regulars are probably aware. June is always a hard month for me. This is the first year that I'm participating in a walk for it, though, and I'm pretty excited to be helping support the cause. I wanted to do it last year, but didn't find out about it until after the fact.

I will also be participating in the AIDS Walk this year, but that section has yet to be added because I haven't registered yet. I want a link to the direct page, rather than the generic one that most people go to when they want to donate.

I have one more day to get through this week. It's my least favorite day of the week and I'm definitely not looking forward to this one any more than I would every other week, despite the fact that once the day is done, I'm on reprieve for 5 days. My supervisor at the regular job will be all pissy and in full bitch mode because of all the catching up to do from his 3 day weekend. And the mega bitch supervisor that no one likes at Sam's will be the one who closes and that's certainly not how I want to end my day, but I'll have to deal. I only have a little bit longer there. Only 9 more shifts left to go.

So tomorrow's entry will most likely be rather negative ... you've all been warned.

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