My achievement for the day thus far has been setting up my laptop as a virtual router so that I can have wifi in my place. It wasn't a difficult process, but it just wasn't working before, and now it is, for reasons I do not know. I was able to get online with my tablet, and my boyfriend connected his phone too. ^_^

I'm still settling in here, but I think I'm getting the hang of things more. I had my first on-campus meal yesterday, and it was pretty good. Just enjoying spending lots of time with my boyfriend right now before he starts work and I start school in a couple days.

We have been finding a lot of interesting little parks around here.


My food yesterday! It was super satisfying. o.o


We walked around campus at night yesterday, looking at the gardens, and found this.


And I took a picture of a pretty flower using flash, but partially covered the flash with my hand, and it came out looking like this.


My birthday is tomorrow... I'm gonna be 25. I'm a little bit sad that I won't get to celebrate it with my friends, but I guess I can at least Skype with Becka and Fro (and maybe Vicky) on Friday. And my boyfriend will be here with me, that's not insignificant. He said he already knew what he wanted to get me as a present, but he has to wait for his first paycheck to come in before he can get it. :0

Yesterday he said he hopes we're still together forty years from now... I feel the same way. I know we've been together a relatively short time, but I really feel like we could spend our lives together. It almost seems like it would be unnatural not to.

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Well, it's my last night here for awhile. I kind of just shoved a bunch of stuff into my luggage haphazardly, so hopefully I didn't forget anything important. Packing made me much more aware of just how many clothes I have. >.>

I hung out with Fro, Becka, and Vicky today for a couple hours. We're planning to try doing a group Skype call once a week to stay in touch. I really hope it works out. I don't want to lose my friendship with any of them. Even though I'm sure I'll make new friends in my new cohort in grad school, they aren't going to replace my existing friends. Plus, I told Fro she could be one of my bridesmaids if/when I got married, so I need to stay in contact for that reason. :P

It's strange to be moving and to feel so little about it, even though it seems like such a big change in many ways. I feel like I'd normally be much more worried about it. Fro said that my recent lack of strong emotions could be related to anxiety/stress, and that she sometimes gets that kind of emotional cutoff when faced with a big change. Maybe she's right, I dunno. This time is different than when I moved to New York to go to St. John's in 2009. I was a lot more alone then. Now I have my boyfriend, and things seem a lot less scary with him around.

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I'm listening to a lullaby version of "The Real Slim Shady" by Eminem right now. It's uh... interesting? There are apparently tons of albums worth of these lullaby renditions of popular songs, so I'm exploring some of those at the moment.

My boyfriend was lying on my bed, playing Twenty. He just managed to get to 20, but he's not very good at multitasking, so it required extensive pause usage to get there. It was fun to see him play it, though. :P It's been awhile since I introduced someone to the game.

I had kind of a casual going away party last night, which was nice, although I felt super exhausted afterwards. I've been feeling pretty tired lately and I don't really know why. I guess I feel somewhat more awake right now, but it took pretty much the whole day to feel that way. We're going to watch a movie now, so hopefully I'll be able to stay awake for that.

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It seems like so much has changed in the past year.

I was hitting the gym like crazy for awhile, but that's slowed down now. A lot of the classes I was taking regularly got removed from the schedule, and a number of the gym instructors left, so that kinda messed up my routine. :T

Got into a car accident that gave me severe anxiety over being in cars for awhile. Even though I'm pretty much past the anxiety now, I do still get tiny fears that I'll lose control of the vehicle when I'm driving. That really spices up your commute, lemme tell ya. My perspective on the stability of my security and safety has been affected by that, but overall I think things are okay.

I feel... pretty much over my breakup from a year ago (it's been a year ago today, actually). It took a long time (felt like forever, honestly) to move past all the resentment and bitterness, and I think there's still some hurt left over, but things feel better. The car accident helped shock it out of my system, I'm pretty sure.

Lost (maybe that's not the right word, though) a friendship back in... October, back when I was still dealing with a lot of negative feelings and stress about the breakup. I didn't really write about it here, but it was an... ordeal... that lasted for a few months even after I stopped responding to the other person. I just didn't feel like I was in a place to handle it well at the time, because I didn't have the emotional resources to talk to that person the way they wanted. It was super draining and too much for me at the time. I wish things had worked out better than they did, because I don't hate that person, but I think it wasn't healthy for either of us at the time to keep going with it. I'm not sure if we'll ever be friends again in the future. I wouldn't be opposed to it at all, but from the little I know, it seems like the person might be moving on with their life, and I don't want to interfere with that or their potential growth.

Annnnnd of course, I made a new friend. I may have mentioned him a few times here. :P I think he is, without a doubt, the best thing to happen to me this year. He's coming to see me tomorrow, and then we're going to spend a few days hanging out with my friends and going to Burning Man.

In a few weeks, we're driving up to move me into my new apartment, and the next two years of my life are gonna start. I have no way of knowing how things will go, but I feel pretty optimistic, and I have some wonderful, loving people in my life who make me feel hopeful about the future. :)

The lyrics of this song have no relevance to anything in my life currently, but her voice is so beautiful and it gives me chills.

"Concrete Wall" by Zee Avi.

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"So Sad, So Sad" by Varsity.

Trying to be a perfect circle
Neat, just like I take my drinks
A crumb upon my plate leads to a week of crying streaks

Have been listening to this song a lot tonight.

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In super super super insanely awesome news, my coolest-of-the-cool friend Henry contacted me tonight to thank me for being the only one to like his Facebook post, and then asked if I would like to buy his Burning Man Tickets. I told J, and J was very down for it if I was, and, well, I'm a bit apprehensive about it, but it also sounds like it's an amazing experience, so I said yes, and J bought the tickets for us.

So... I'M GOING TO BURNING MAN!! But more than that, I'M GOING TO BURNING MAN WITH J!! I think about 30% of my excitement over this is the event itself, at 70% is over going with him. @[email protected]

These past few months have just been full of incredible surprises. I feel like my life is so different now than it was before, but in really nice ways.

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