Thursday. 12.31.09 3:55 pm
My mother bought a new house, and I've spent the last couple of weeks painting and cleaning it, and basically getting it ready for the move, which is scheduled for Saturday.
My room is cream with a red accent wall. I love it. I love all the colours, in fact. Mostly because the only white room is the laundry room. I've never had a bedroom that wasn't white, apart from the year I spent living with Abbey. I'm so tired of white.
Christmas was fantastic. I got over $300 worth of clothes from my favourite store, Old Navy (well, technically, Pyramid Collection is my favourite, but Old Navy is the best I can actually afford), a new bike, a real freshwater pearl necklace and earrings, a new clock, the three-disc edition of Twilight, a digital photo album, and many other, super cool things.
Quick poll: Everyone who reads this must comment with their favourite Christmas gift this year.
I've been kind of sad lately. I think it's because I've been unable to talk to Will for more than about five minutes over the past couple of weeks. On the other hand, I've been happy because my mother and I have gotten a lot closer. Whitney's been down from Tally for a week, and it's been tons of fun. I missed her a lot.
School starts on the seventh, which is a bit stressful, because I haven't got my finaid squared away yet, so I don't have my books or anything. Plus, I'll be taking four online classes. Online classes are easier because you can do them whenever you want, but there's a lot more homework. Again, stressful. Also, I absolutely must find a job to help Mama with her mortgage. I mean, she'd be able to do it on her own, but she'd have absolutely no spending money or money to save in case of emergency, so that's also an issue.
However, because I'll be in school, I'll be able to get on health insurance, which is great, because I need my levothyroxine, and I think I need a wisdom tooth taken out. My bottom teeth are going a bit crooked, which really sucks because I always had perfectly straight teeth. :(
I'm also considering a breast reduction. I probably won't do it, but I might. I mean... I got a new bra. Best fitting bra I've ever had. It's a DDD in US sizes, which is an F in UK sizes. I did not realise my boobs were *that* big, though it explains the back pain. Or maybe lap band surgery. I'd have to see if I qualify for it, medically. Anyone know the requirements? Like...how overweight you have to be? Meh, I'll research.
I'm done rambling.
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Tuesday. 12.1.09 1:53 pm
I won nano, doing a total of 50,019 words during the month of November, but my book isn't quite done. Still, pretty damned exciting.
Also, I'm officially a student, and my Pell Grant will cover my student expenses for the whole year. All good news.
Will's thinking of buying me a ticket to London for Easter, so I can go visit with him. That will be pretty exciting. (I'm seriously downplaying the excitement level)
That is all.
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Saturday. 11.7.09 8:38 pm
I passed the half-way point in NaNoWriMo yesterday!
For those of you who aren't in the know, as they say, that means I've written more than 25 thousand words in 6 days, which I feel is pretty awesome, super, and/or rad.
However, today, I was throwing away the pasta box from dinner, and I slammed my finger in the door. I'm pretty sure I have a hairline fracture, but I can't go to the hospital to see because I have no health insurance. It is, however, my right ring finger, which I only need for o's, l's, p's and periods (or full stops), but still... Periods! That's, like, the most commonly used punctuation!
I'm trying to write it off (pardon the pun) like one would walk off a twisted ankle, but it really friggin' hurts. When I finish NaNoWriMo with a broken finger, I will be just that much more awesomely proud of myself, and that's really the only thing that's keeping me going, cause it totally took me a half hour to write this post in avoiding using that specific finger. I'm only hoping the pain doesn't distract me enough to mess up my writing.
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Wednesday. 11.4.09 2:07 am
I'm doing nanowrimo this year, and I'm already losing steam a little. It's like showers. You don't want to do it, but once you start you can't stop, cause the water (or idea expressing) feels so good, and then you have to get out (to save the environment, or your sanity, whichever the case may be) and you can't wait until you can get back in, but then you don't want to get back in again and try to justify not doing it that day.
Or is it just me who has a love/hate relationship with showers? And writing?
Anywho, I could use some people yelling at me to motivate me sometimes. I think my story's got some potential, if I can just finish it. I have awesome ideas (though I say so myself), but sometimes some difficulty expressing them, and I end up freewriting and losing all control of what I'm saying, and it ends up being wordvomit that somehow flows together and would be golden with a little fine-tuned editing, of which I am incapable because my editing of my own work is anything but fine-tuned, and I end up changing the whole thing, and it becomes cliche and over-used and certainly uninspirational, and I scrap the whole project!
*takes a deep breath*
So... yeah... Also, I'm almost out of mint tea (for the stimulation of brain cells) and no money to buy more. I wonder if my sister will let me borrow some of her "awake" tea...
Edit: A link to my nanowrimo profile is at the bottom of this paragraph, because embedding it in the word "here" wasn't working for me, if you want to read a short synopsis and the first couple paragraphs of what I've got. Also, if anyone is very knowledgeable about dinosaurs, and which would be the most awesome for my story, I'd definitely appreciate the help. I have links of research, but an A-Z list of every dinosaur known to man is exhausting to read through, though it does power my procrastination.
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Do I ever discuss only one subject in these things?
Sunday. 10.4.09 6:24 pm
So, I spent the whole day applying for jobs yesterday, and I've still got tonnes to do, so we're going next weekend to finish it up. I was a preferred applicant at Publix, which is awesome, so I'm hoping someone quits or gets fired soon.
Mum's getting a house, and the deal's almost closed, so that's good, apart from the no-appliances-in-it thing. But we got a really awesome LG side-by-side fridge with a water/ice thing that pulls out if you want to fill a whole pitcher. It pulls out. For pitchers. Oh my gee.
Also, I really need to get rid of some clothes. That is all.
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Wednesday. 9.23.09 4:27 pm
So, I've lost 11.5 lbs so far on the diet.
But I spend most of my time like this guy:
, which is fine, because I actually love exercise (who'd've thunk?).
But Asher ran away this morning. I'm really worried. I can't go looking for him on foot because I live in a suburban maze with "the most confusing and retarded layout ever", according to a friend who was trying to find my place a few weeks ago. So I have to wait until Kelly gets home with her car, and I'm absolutely terrified that I'm going to find my dog on the side of the road. Not only is he my favourite person in the whole house, but my mother left me in charge of the dogs when she left for the week. Admittedly, I didn't stand much chance of stopping a 150 lb. great dane and an 80 lb. black lab from getting out once the door was open, if they really wanted to go, but... I still feel like it was my fault. Actually, it was. I could've told them to stay before I opened the door. I guess I figured they already knew the drill.
Also, I went for a job interview on Saturday. I'm really hoping I get it. I thought I did well. I thought I seemed confident and charming, but I haven't heard anything yet.
7 months and 2 days, and it's still surreal. I didn't expect to miss him that much. I mean, he's my dad, and I knew I would miss him, but... I thought I was tough, right? lol
My step-dad keeps sending me conservative propaganda via e-mail. I don't even know how he got my e-mail, and I wish I could tell him to stop, but I'm too much of a coward to stand up to the man even through the internet. Weird, being afraid of a man I haven't seen in 3 years, but justified, maybe.
I'm rambling on all different topics today. Truth be told, I'm more writing a blog because it'd been awhile since I posted than because I had something to say. Putting quantity over quality? Or making sure I don't give it up, as I am prone to do? That's me, I guess. The girl who puts her whole heart into things until she finds something new. Interesting quirk or devastating flaw?
Sometimes I just wanna get a hug and be told everything will be alright, and I don't care if I'm being cliche. God, I could use a boyfriend.
Speaking of boys and (hopefully) future boyfriends, Will got a job. He also passed his exams, which means he can finish his degree. I'm really happy for him.
Even if it does mean he's gon' be too busy to talk to me as often.
'Cause, hey, he feels productive, and happy, and like a real man, and that's important to him. And I can deal with only talking to him two or three days a month if that's all he can manage, cause I know he will make time for me, because he cares about me. Because I am pretty and sweet and funny and smart and excellent at overusing "and". And, surprisingly, none of what I just said was bullshit. Wow.
My confidence really HAS gotten way better. Two years ago, I was the type of insecure that needed compliments from two or three different men to feel even ok about myself. Now, I know I'm ok. Most days. But it's an improvement. Still... it'd be nice to actually meet in person this man I like so much. Stupid ephin' ocean.
So... just for the record... all the things I've improved about myself in the last few months: I quit smoking. I quit biting my nails. My confidence is way better. I clean (most of the time) when I'm supposed to. I'm losing weight and getting all in shape and muscled. *flexes* OK, so I'm not exactly Schwarzenegger, but I don't wanna look like I've OD'd on testosterone, anyway. I just wanna stop jiggling and be healthy.
I'm going to stop rambling now. I'm only doing it to distract myself, anyway. *sigh* Where IS that dumbshit dog?
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