Thursday. 11.20.03 3:01 pm
hmmm just got home from da doctors today..everything went wellz...but ya....i feel kinda drowsy tho.....me a lil sleepy...urge....brb..imma make a waffle...^_^..eKkKk jed just told me he been chillin at home cuz he dunt wanna do drugs no more!! YAY im soo proud!!! but ya....so ish grem....he wants to chill on all dat shit too..and of course me..i havent done it like a month...i noe it dunt sound long..but ish a good start ya noes.....i just wanna stay home now n days...and be good....ya noes?.....i feel more complete in all honesty... and im glad dat nigga grem understands...dats wt i love bout him..i dunt ever have to speak to him or nutin...not even see him..and he noes wats goin on in mah life and understands.... he makes me happy...and proud at da same time..cuz i noe hes tryin..and dats good... but ya imma finish mah waffle..den knock outs...
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Thursday. 11.20.03 1:20 am
tomorrows da big day...yupyup it ish..hehe....anywayz today was fun went to go get mah money order..thanx ryan....went to kikis pad and we ate out at donno sushi...which was really good....but dey do need more time to be great...cuz der staff kinda sucked... hehe.. but ya.... chilled at kikis til 12 i tink..den mah ex call me and said to meet him outside cuz he wanted to talk to me...and i was like bout wat?...y cant we just talk later wen u get home from where ur at..and he insisted so i was like urge...went outside he just wanted to see how i was doin...-_-..oreoz...den he kissed me sumwhere...dat i shuldnt have been kissed at...mayb he was on sumting..oreoz....he looks happy...so dats good....but ya...urge... im scared thoz...-_-"...if ur dat speshal sumone mayb u can call me and comfort me hehe..j/k....i dunt got a speshal sumone..or do i?..haha..lol...me kinda sleepy but like i dunt wanna sleep..but ya guess wat guyz!!! im gettin a new cell fone soon..ahaha.. seriously...wat number ish dish?..like 87424747...ive gone thru fones like i have guyz...=X j/k...dat was bad...but ive had like 6 new numbers since ive had a cell fone..like at d end of mah freshmen year..sheesh....like i told ryan..im da guinea pig.. mah mom makes me try out all da fone companys to see if der good or not..and if dey suck den oh wellz im stuck wid it for a year...how mean huh?!?!?...rar...ish all g...imma be a pimp wid a pimp cell...i tink imma be gettin da samsung e715...BRAND NEW just came out a week ago....or by da time mah plan ends which is december...dey come out wid a new shit....den imma get dat!! ^_^...ahhhhhhhh i love bein spoiled...n bein loved by mah mommy n daddy ^_^....rar...i loves dem sooo fucken much thoz!! ack...yupyup... wat else...hmmm nutin else new tho......
ponderin bout shit.....contemplatin on wat it is i want in life....
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Wednesday. 11.19.03 2:23 am
feelin a lil sleepy man...rar
^_^...just sittin here tho playin games...gettin kinda hungry too..rar....time to make sum food...hehe...im outs...bye
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Tuesday. 11.18.03 12:54 pm
LAST NITE BEFORE I SLEPT MAH HOMIE TXTED ME....AND YA DISH WAS OUT CONVO
JUST WONDERING IF U STILL AWAKE CUZ IVE BEEN LAYIN IN BED FOR OVER AN HOUR AND IM STILL WIDE AWAKE
HEHE YA IM LAYIN IN BED DAY DREAMING..WATCHA DOIN?
ALL IM DOIN IS THINKIN BOUT STUFF WHICH IS NOT A GOOD THING
WATCHA THINKIN ABOUT?..AND Y
I HAVE A QUESTION FOR YOU
WULD U HAVE EVER CONSIDERED GOIN OUT WID ME
I HAD THUTS ABOUT IT WEN HE HUNG OUT ALOT..BUT KEPT IT AS FRENS..Y?
YOU ASKEN ME THAT B4..WATS WRONG?
I DUNT NOE..JUST TIRED OF BEIN LONELY ALL THE TIME I GUESS
IN DUE TIME ULL FIND SUMONE DUNT JUST GO 4 ANY1..BE PATIENT AND ULL BE REWARDED NICELY
THATS WAT EVERYONE KEEPS TELLIN ME
ITS TRU THO..DATS HOW IT IS
BUT WAT BOUT DA SAYIN ASK AND U SHALL RECIEVE
THATS TOTAL BS AND WE BOTH NOE DAT,WE BOTH KNOW PATIENTS IS A VIRTUE AND THATS LIFE, ALL GREAT THINGS R WORTH WAITIN FOR
I DUNT TINK I HAVE DAT VIRTUE
WELL TRY *NAME*,IM SURE DA RITE GRL WILL COME IN DUE TIME
BEIN SICK AND GOIN TO SURGERY LATELY DOESNT HELP BEIN ALONE
YA I NOE WAT U MEAN..I MEAN IF U WANT I CAN GO WID U
IM ALWAYS HERE FOR YOU
U NOE DA FEELIN WHERE U JUST NEED SUMONE TO HUG KIND OF THING..THATS HOW I FEEL SUM TIMES
YA I NOE WAT U MEAN
JUST DOESNT SEEM FAIR
I FEEL YA ON DATS..I MEAN LIFE ISNT FAIR BUT WE GOTTA DEAL WID IT
SUMTIMES ITS HARD TO DEAL WID ALONE
YA BUT U GOT FRENS AND FAMILY
I HAVE ONE MORE QUESTION BUT A LIL MORE PERSONAL
WULD U EVER CONSIDER SLEEPIN WID ME
IN ALL HONESTLY I DUNT SEE U DAT WAY..IT JUST WULDNT BE RITE YA NOES?
WAT IF I BEGGED
NOPE DAT WULDNT WORK..WERE JUST FRENS
WAT IF I SAID I WULD
SOWIE I KNOCKED OUT..BUT DA ANSWERS STILL NO
GOD...ISH DAT WEIRD OR WAT..DAT DA SECOND OF MAH FRENS DAT HAS ASKED ME SHIT LIKE DATS....I MEAN YA WERE GOOD FRENS AND ALL....BUT WE AINT DAWSON CREEK AND SHIT YA NOES?....WE AINT DA TYPE OF HOMIES WHERE IF U DUNT GET LAYED BY DA TIME UR 18 ILL DO U...URGE..I DUNNOZ...I JUST TINK THAT STUFF LIKE DAT JUST AINT RITE...I MEAN WDF.....DO I GOT A SIGN OF MAH HEAD DAT SAYS....IF UR IN NEED OF SEX ASK ME?....ASDFGHJKL;....RAR....OREOZ...KINDA GOT ME A LIL MAD...BUT DEN AGEN IT WAS *NAME* WHO I WAS TALKIN TO...SO IT AINT SURPRISIN...BUT YA...NOT IN A BAD WAY...BUT *NAME* IS KINDA BLUNT BOUT SHIT LIKE DAT..SO HE AINT SCARRED TO ASK STUFF HEHE.....LAST NITE I WAS ALSO THINKIN BOUT HOW..ALL DA HOMIES AND SHIT NEEDS TO GET DER SHIT STRAIGHT....LIKE I HAVENT KICKED IT WID DA HOMIES FOR A MINUTE..AND I NOE I SHULD AND STUFF BUT I DUNNOZ...IM HAPPY AT HOME..JUST CHILLIN YA NOES...BUT YA.....I JUST REALLY WNT ALL DA HOMES TO MAKE SUMTING OF THEM SELVES...BUT WID DA SHIT DER DOIN..I DUNT SEE IT HAPPENING...URGE...I DUNNOZ...I GOTTA GET MAH SHIT DONE TOO....I HOPE TO GO TO VALLEY BY NEXT WEEK AND GET MAH TRANSCRIPT TO CHANGE SKOOLS....BUT YA..IM OUTS FOR NOW...BYEZ
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Monday. 11.17.03 1:58 pm
hmmm ive notice out of all of da guyz dat i have dated and wat nots....der are 4 dat stand out da most....nam...who i will always love..and who is my first true love...and dat i still adore muchoz! and is very glad that hes gettin his shit done...den ders billie who i cant say i love....but do care for alot.... and love how he is so blunt wid me...and he will have a speshal place in mah heart...i just love that hes not scared to tell me the truth...or tell me his side of wat he thinks is goin on.....sumting i need in my life ya noes?.... den ders kai who i fell in love wid so hard and so fast....but learned so much from him.. we didnt last long..i feel that da spark was just gone....but i do love him...and will always have a place in mah heart....and den theres mr.babyface aka mr.syko.....urge..dats all i can say bout him..im so speechless bout this guy..he comes in and out of my life..and sweeps me off my feet...and i love it.....i love da way he just pops bak into mah life and gives me the biggest smile ive had in the longest time....i love his self-confidence.....he noes he got me hooked...and he likes it.....urge....hes da type of guy dat can seriously crush me..dat can fuck wid mah head soo bad..and i know this all..but yet...i still have a place for him... urge...his style....da way he is..drives me bannas...i mean it seriously does....hes da guy dat ive always looked for in mah head..da viet guy...bald..baby face....wid a kyoote smile..and that thuggish mentallity that drives me insane..hes da type of nigga dat if i guy tried to hit on me or looked at me..he wuld be like wdf u lookin at homie...as much as i wuld say i hated wen guyz did dat...i dunt...cuz i noe that der just makin known wats there ya noe wat i mean...URGE i feel like bangin mah head against sumting cuz hes done it agen...and put this fucken endless smile on mah face..and it drives me crazy....AHHHHHHH imma bizounce and goo eat and ya..setup da home theater system mah dad bought...^_^... see..i told you guyz im a home maker... aka house wife..w/o da husband.. ^_^
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Monday. 11.17.03 3:38 am
nicknames: lindur...linduh...seksi ^_~ hey yew!!...gigglez...tonys lil sister.. mikes lil sister... jennys lil sister ^_^...helens bitch ^_^
age: da small number of 17 harhar
residing: da boonies!!
status: go away!..im single!
occupation: helens biath and sex slave....home maker...and professionall giggler ^_^ hehe
last time you were...
in love: ders no such thing as a last time u were in love...if u fall in love..ur in love for life... so ya im in love
kissed: ummm shit..i tink da other nite by nikki ^_^
ate: rite nowz....watta dumb question man...u guyz noe daym well i ate like every 5 mins!
pooped: hmmm i tink like last nite?
last placed you...
slept: mah cold room..hehe
had sex: dats none of ur bizness...but if u relly wanna noe..it was last nite..wid mah seksi helen haha
drove to: last nite to jack in da crack
spent money: today at food4less..which ishnt food4less no more..RAR!!
smoked: umm like 15 mins ago
last person you told...
i love you: fella- nigga grem!! ladie- nikki
i hate you: fella- nigga grem! ladie- no one
i miss you: fella- =X ladie- hmm oreoz..i forgotn m
i trust you: fella- james ladie- sarah
i am mad at you: fella- dino ladie- no one
smoke weed: use ta bee a lil pot head...who culdnt stop gigglin!!!! urge dats how i got a flat tummy!! haha...
drink: imma quitter!
smoke cigs: puffin away
roll: ish a secret...i cant say..but mah dong seng noes!
steal: uHhHh wen i was a youngin...i stole candy!! YUM
last person you had...
meaningful conversation: Mr.syko...=/
cried too: sum1 who doesnt wanna be qouted in mah journal
argued with: mommy
disappointed: i tink i am one in general..but tryin to redeem mahself rite nowz
are you still...
hung up on someone: UrGe...-_-" YESH!!
a girl: nopers!! ^_^
a boy: YUPPERZ!!
in love with someone: yesh..and always will be
sad: ehhh...not really
like someone: yup
want a relationship: naw..later
find someone attractive: yesh
want to be with someone: not yetz
smell good: no..im a smellygrl..yucky!!!
last time you bought...
clothes: ummm on friday..dat was ummm like 3 days ago
alcohol: foucken a long time ago!!
undies: i forgot...but i tink it was at victoria secrets..oreoz
food: today!! at food4less
do u ever...
regret ur past: noperz...i just live n learn
fart in public: sure y nots?
shit in a public RR: ewwwwwwww
feel sad: who doesnt
want to travel: f'shoz!
do you hate...
falling in love: no..it just makes me stronger
guys in general: naw
your car: uhhhh i noe i wont hate mah car ever....cuz im spoiled and i got it like dat
being pressured: YuPPPPPPPP
person you liked...
to make fun of: hmmm...nam
to punch: ummm i dunnoz
to hate: no one
to be with: oroez?
food: bum bo hue...and soon tofu..thanx too helen!! she found out da dishes name!!!!
person: me! ^_~
car: too mant to name..but i like da accord f'shoz...2000 too 2004..2 door only
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