College starts all over again a week from tomorrow and I don't know if I'm more excited to start to get it over with or to occupy all the times in between. I guess I can say that I was productive this summer. I accomplished a couple of things. Nothing in specific, but let's just say I achieved a goal or two at least.
Emotionally, physically and mentally I feel stable. It took and will continue to take a whole mess of hard work, but it does definitely pay off. This summer has been quite a 'transition' period in my perspective. A lot of people are nonexistent in my life now as it stands, and I wouldn't have it any other way honestly. I know damn well I contributed to it being this way, but it takes TWO to make things the way they are. And when neither side gives a fcuk anymore, then hey, all the better for me. I'm glad that THEY all still get 'along' with one another. No really. I mean it. Really I do. NOT.
Friends huh. Smells like bullsiht to me. It does make me look back in retrospect at the better times, then reality btich slaps me in the face and forces me to realize that SIHT TALKERS ARE NOT FRIENDS. It still amazes me how much faith I had for each and every one of those special cases. But not anymore. I guess I was never meant to be friends with such low people anyway.
Talking to one another yet not to me, taking sides even after everything doesn't help either. But I'm just venting to myself. No one will ever truly understand me when I rant like this. Everything in this entry is and any following will always be one sided because it is how I feel.
But even through the rain, I can still hold my head up high and thank God for blessing me with loving parents, and some of the best friends any person could have. Even if I can count them with both hands, I would rather have that then an unchanged THEM anyday.
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I've totally neglected my NuTang since who knows when. I said I would have a new layout by my birthday, but my birthday was in March. I'm definitely lagging. I will have a new one up indefinitely, but I just don't know how to go at it. Looks like there's still a couple of familiar faces who have been NuTang steady since I went on hiatus, which is always a good thing. I really need to keep on top of things.
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