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Monday. 10.27.14 5:53 pm
When I mention to people that I have a blog, they think it's something exciting. I have to then remember to specify that it's more like an online journal than what they typically imagine as a 'blog.' I don't write about crazy adventures {okay, sometimes I do} or tell stories that would be enough to skyrocket me to the top of the world of internet fame. I just write about the daily perils of a 28 year old girl who has her ups and downs and is essentially living life, one day of bullshit at a time.

It appears that my place will not be move-ready by the end of the month, especially since I'll be out of town the last day of this month. I also already have plans tomorrow evening as well as Wednesday and Thursday. Today was the last day this week that I had any kind of down time and how did I spend it? Watching mindless YouTube videos, of course.

Something fun that I discovered today was a website that my friend referred me to called Find your Animal Spirit . It basically takes your Chinese zodiac and your astrological sign and combines them to create a profile of your spirit animal. Her's was scary accurate and, with the exception of one part, mine was pretty spot on as well. How does yours measure up? And even if you don't believe in this kind of stuff, it's still fun to look at and see what it says.

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Finally broken in
Sunday. 10.26.14 7:05 pm
I finally worked up the motivation to go for a jog. I took a nap first, of course, but afterward I got together all the necessary accessories and took off. I drove up to work, lucked in to a spot on the street and zigzagged through the streets. Hills are the worst, but it felt good. I wasn't out there for very long, maybe 20 minutes. It felt like I should have been out there a lot longer, but that'll happen in due time.

My new sports bra, that has been sitting in my gym bag for 3 weeks now, has finally been broken in. It's really comfortable, actually. I'm pleasantly surprised. I think when I can afford it, I'll purchase some Under Armour stuff to work out in; widen my selection so that I don't look like I'm working out in the same thing over and over again. Although, since I plan on changing my route regularly, I don't think it would matter much. The odds of the same person seeing me every time is quite low.

Mobile Pandora is an awesome app. I use that as the music player behind the interval app and it continues playing until I turn it off. I'll have to keep an eye on my data, but since I'm almost always connected to WiFi, I'm not terribly concerned. I have a 3 gig plan and I've not even used half a gig of data this month. If I start getting close, I'll just switch back to the internal player that comes with the app.

The plan is to do this every other day, 3 days a week. I'm not sure yet if I want to do the same days every week or switch it up, but it'll be every other day and then two days of rest. The therapist said that it takes about 13 weeks for a new habit to form {or be broken} so here's to the next 3 months of trying like hell to make this a habit.

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Saturday. 10.25.14 12:37 pm
Be it extremely emotional, controversial, messed up, or whatever, this entry has been password protected.

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Shut out
Friday. 10.24.14 5:50 pm
I read somewhere that you are more likely to have bad dreams when you're sleeping in a cold environment. Perhaps that's why the dreams I've been having these past few nights have been quite unwelcome. And I thought they were based off the fact that I was watching American Horror Story before going to sleep.

I wish there was a way to completely shut out the dreams. I don't even want the good ones right now. I just want to sleep without any interruption. There are a million different articles that tell you how to work to remember your dreams, how to become lucid, how to have more. Rarely do you see anything on how to not have any at all. Sure, there are plenty of articles to tell you how to avoid dreaming of certain topics, but I want them gone. Or, at the very least, if I can't completely avoid them, to not be able to remember anything about them.

I picked up my glasses, again, today. They seem to be okay so far. I'll give it a couple more days. I didn't really notice the dizziness until I went to work so by Sunday I should know whether these are the final ones. I'm going in for contacts the middle of next month. Even if I don't wear them all the time, it'll be nice to have them as an option.

After picking up the frames, I went for a walk. It's not the walk that I had intended on doing, but it worked just the same; provided the same kind of atmosphere with probably a much more welcome outcome than what I originally had planned. It would have been a 'too close for comfort' type of thing.

Funny, the fight or flight response that our bodies go through when faced with sudden changes is bouncing back and forth between flight and fight for me right now. There's a part of me that still wants to run and hide and pretend like that would make everything better. At the same time, however, I want to charge right in to battle and face this issue head on. Bring it all on at once, get it all out of the way and be done with it. But that's never going to happen so I just sit and wait it out. Time will eventually do its thing.

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Thursday. 10.23.14 7:34 pm
We have a code system at the hospital {I should get used to calling it a clinic; they're eliminating the departments that keep the hospital licensing upheld} that most hospitals and clinics use; some of them are much more common than others, such as a Code Blue {cardiac or respiratory arrest} or Code Red {fire.} A Code Silver is something you never want to hear because that means there's a hostage situation. All of the codes are bad, to some degree, but most of them are short lived or end up being false alarms.

We had a Code Orange today, which means there was a chemical spill. Now that sounds bad, and as I said, it can be, but it has to be the least interesting of all the codes we have to respond to. In the 4 years I've been there, no chemical was spilled on anyone and nothing more than a cup was spilled. Essentially, security has to just stand there and babysit the area until the spill can be cleaned up. It's more boring than a patient standby; at least in that instance you're watching a person.

This entire week was actually very uneventful. It was like the epitome of security defined. Now that it's over, I'm thankful it was that way. I did want dull and boring. Apparently that's seeping in to every aspect of my life ...

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Wednesday. 10.22.14 8:51 pm
I did absolutely nothing to celebrate the anniversary of my first full day in Seattle. I came home, took a nap and have been sitting in front of the computer since. It hasn't stopped raining, which is fine; I like this kind of weather. However, I have become acclimated to living here enough that I'm perfectly okay enjoying it from inside rather than doing what I can to be out in it. I was so deprived of the moisture from living in the desert that I went out every chance I got, despite the crappy weather and freezing temperatures {to me 58 was freezing, since it was still a solid 30 degrees higher in Vegas.} Now, 58 just requires a light jacket and if the conditions are right, the sleeves can be pushed up.

I have to go out after work tomorrow. It's not exactly what I wanted to do, but Mother Nature has apparently decided she wasn't going to leave me alone after last month. I haven't needed to buy those kinds of supplies in over a year; hell, I had to ask my sister how much they cost these days because I haven't even looked. It's really annoying. And I thought I had finally moved on from the stress of last month. Clearly I was mistaken.

Tomorrow is going to be interesting, to say the least. I'm going to be miserable the entire day and I'll have to deal with whatever bullshit gets thrown my way at work. That place already makes me miserable, without any added features.


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