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"When we describe the Moon as dead, we are describing the deadness in ourselves. When we find space so hideously void, we are describing our own unbearable emptiness."
~ D.H. Lawrence

"Is the meaning of life defined by its duration? Or does life have a purpose so large that it doesn't have to be prolonged at any cost to preserve its meaning?"

"Living is not good, but living well. The wise man, therefore, lives as well as he should, not as long as he can... He will always think of life in terms of quality not quantity... Dying early or late is of no relevance, dying well or ill is... even if it is true that while there is life there is hope, life is not to be bought at any cost."
~ Seneca

"People will tell you nothing matters, the whole world's about to end soon anyway. Those people are looking at life the wrong way. I mean, things don't need to last forever to be perfect."
~ Daydream Nation

"All Bette's stories have happy endings. That's because she knows where to stop. She's realized the real problem with stories-- if you keep them going long enough, they always end in death."
~ The Sandman: Preludes & Nocturnes

"The road now stretched across open country, and it occurred to me - not by way of protest, not as a symbol, or anything like that, but merely as a novel experience - that since I had disregarded all laws of humanity, I might as well disregard the rules of traffic. So I crossed to the left side of the highway and checked the feeling, and the feeling was good. It was a pleasant diaphragmal melting, with elements of diffused tactility, all this enhanced by the thought that nothing could be nearer to the elimination of basic physical laws than deliberately driving on the wrong site of the road."
~ Vladimir Nabokov, Lolita

"It is easier to forgive an enemy than to forgive a friend."
~ William Blake
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Sunday, October 2, 2016
I've been taking vitamins and trying to drink more water, which I think is maybe helping with things. I do feel better than I did before.

On Wednesday I donated blood in the afternoon, and then went to the bookstore to pick up some books I needed for class. While I was standing in the aisle figuring out which books I was going to get, I suddenly felt very lightheaded and dizzy, and I thought I was going to faint. I dropped to the ground and sat there, kind of slumped to the side, leaning on the shelves. I was listening to my iPod, but I realized that I could barely hear the music, and that everything sounded far away and somewhat muffled. My body felt weak, and I was overcome with nausea, to the point where I really thought I was going to throw up. I wanted so badly to be able to go to the bathroom, which is right outside the bookstore on campus, so that I could throw up, but I couldn't move without making the nausea worse. I also realized that the skin of my face felt extremely cold, almost to the point of being numb, and that I had started sweating. Having never experienced a cold sweat before, it was a strange feeling.

I don't know how long I was really on the ground, unable to get up, but it felt like at least five to ten minutes. The entire time I was there, there was a guy only a few yards away from me, looking at his phone. He never once looked at me or asked if I was okay. I ended up just looking at his shoes for a good portion of the time and wondering why he wasn't doing anything. Did he not see me fall? Was he that unaware of his surroundings? Did he just not think it mattered? It was somewhat disturbing to me. I don't think he could have thought my behavior was normal, because I had my head resting on one of the lower shelves and was breathing heavily, and at one point I attempted to move away from the shelf so I could try to crawl towards the bathroom. As far as I know, these are not things people typically do in bookstores.

Interestingly enough, after I finally felt well enough to get up and buy my books, that guy just walked behind me and out of the store, without having bought anything. So he literally just stood in the same aisle as me that whole time and didn't buy anything. The whole thing is just dumbfounding to me, honestly.

I have an appointment at the campus health center for Monday to get checked out, and hopefully there's nothing seriously wrong with me. Most of my friends think it was probably the blood donation that caused the whole incident, but I just want to make sure.

Gonna try to hang out with a couple people from my new cohort today, so I hope that goes well.

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Saturday, September 24, 2016
11:39 PM.

I've been feeling listless and tired, so I'm looking at the Volunteer section of Craigslist, as I sometimes do when I'm having trouble being interested in life. It seems easier to just sign up for volunteer things than to find something that I want to do for myself.

I submitted some information to a study, so I might end up participating in that. It's been awhile since I was in one, so maybe it would be fun.

Also looking at volunteering for a charity sale, but I'm less sure about that one. Need to look for a job, too... My life feels kind of empty right now and I feel like I should be occupying myself with more, but it's hard to motivate myself when I'm tired all the time. I sleep and only feel awake for an hour or two before I want to sleep again... Bought some multivitamins today in case that has anything to do with it, though.

Have been listening to a few Eerie Summer songs tonight, and they're nice.

"It's Okay" by Eerie Summer.

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Well, I'm at the quarter century mark now
Tuesday, September 20, 2016
I guess I don't really feel any different now, being 25. My birthday pretty much just felt like another day, it didn't stand out too much. Fro wished me a happy birthday on Facebook I guess, and my mom called me to say it too, but I didn't really celebrate. I miss my friends and wish I could have done something with them.

On the bright side, last night I think I made a friend from my new cohort? We talked a bit after our orientation, and she invited my boyfriend and I to go to a cupcake place with her and hang out a little. She's rather loquacious, but she's very nice, and I like her. When she asked how old I was, I said "Twenty... five... tomorrow," and she said it was a bit of a short notice to bake a cake (she likes to cook), but maybe she'd make something another time. I thought it was really sweet of her. She also said she'd like to throw some dinner parties at her apartment, which sounds like fun, and I'm looking forward to that.

For my birthday... well, we didn't do too much. Checked out a pizza place nearby (and got a slice of peach habanero pizza, which was actually pretty good) with my boyfriend, but mostly stayed in otherwise. We talked about some serious things in the morning, and I was... a bit agitated by some of them, but I felt better later on. I think I was dehydrated today though, because we went to the bookstore so I could get some stuff I need for class, and I felt really off-balance and kind of like I was going to faint while we were there. :S Also checked out the fitness center at school and got a salad to take back to my place...

I felt like it was important to get out of the apartment and walk around, but I wasn't really in much of a mood to do anything outside, so we ended up watching Tetsuo: The Iron Man inside. Probably should have shown him Tetsuo: The Bullet Man instead, as I feel it's a little more accessible, but oh well. We also tried watching Sausage Party briefly, but it was so awful that we stopped it maybe... twenty minutes in? We talked about more Serious Things after that, but somehow transitioned to joking around and laughing about stuff, which lightened the mood a lot. We were kind of mocking New Age pseudoscience-y stuff, and it was a pretty silly conversation. Boyfriend laughed really hard at "free range broccoli" and when I said something about "chlorophyll is just something scientists made up to make us feel separate from plants, but really, the same blood runs through all our veins." It was nice to laugh like that, especially after how I felt earlier in the day.

Oh, and I got a message from a former friend... so we'll see how that goes.

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Getting the hang of things here
Monday, September 19, 2016
My achievement for the day thus far has been setting up my laptop as a virtual router so that I can have wifi in my place. It wasn't a difficult process, but it just wasn't working before, and now it is, for reasons I do not know. I was able to get online with my tablet, and my boyfriend connected his phone too. ^_^

I'm still settling in here, but I think I'm getting the hang of things more. I had my first on-campus meal yesterday, and it was pretty good. Just enjoying spending lots of time with my boyfriend right now before he starts work and I start school in a couple days.

We have been finding a lot of interesting little parks around here.

My food yesterday! It was super satisfying. o.o

We walked around campus at night yesterday, looking at the gardens, and found this.

And I took a picture of a pretty flower using flash, but partially covered the flash with my hand, and it came out looking like this.

My birthday is tomorrow... I'm gonna be 25. I'm a little bit sad that I won't get to celebrate it with my friends, but I guess I can at least Skype with Becka and Fro (and maybe Vicky) on Friday. And my boyfriend will be here with me, that's not insignificant. He said he already knew what he wanted to get me as a present, but he has to wait for his first paycheck to come in before he can get it. :0

Yesterday he said he hopes we're still together forty years from now... I feel the same way. I know we've been together a relatively short time, but I really feel like we could spend our lives together. It almost seems like it would be unnatural not to.

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Moved in [2P]
Friday, September 16, 2016
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Close to departing
Sunday, September 11, 2016
Well, it's my last night here for awhile. I kind of just shoved a bunch of stuff into my luggage haphazardly, so hopefully I didn't forget anything important. Packing made me much more aware of just how many clothes I have. >.>

I hung out with Fro, Becka, and Vicky today for a couple hours. We're planning to try doing a group Skype call once a week to stay in touch. I really hope it works out. I don't want to lose my friendship with any of them. Even though I'm sure I'll make new friends in my new cohort in grad school, they aren't going to replace my existing friends. Plus, I told Fro she could be one of my bridesmaids if/when I got married, so I need to stay in contact for that reason. :P

It's strange to be moving and to feel so little about it, even though it seems like such a big change in many ways. I feel like I'd normally be much more worried about it. Fro said that my recent lack of strong emotions could be related to anxiety/stress, and that she sometimes gets that kind of emotional cutoff when faced with a big change. Maybe she's right, I dunno. This time is different than when I moved to New York to go to St. John's in 2009. I was a lot more alone then. Now I have my boyfriend, and things seem a lot less scary with him around.

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B Dubs Twenty
Thursday, September 8, 2016
I'm listening to a lullaby version of "The Real Slim Shady" by Eminem right now. It's uh... interesting? There are apparently tons of albums worth of these lullaby renditions of popular songs, so I'm exploring some of those at the moment.

My boyfriend was lying on my bed, playing Twenty. He just managed to get to 20, but he's not very good at multitasking, so it required extensive pause usage to get there. It was fun to see him play it, though. :P It's been awhile since I introduced someone to the game.

I had kind of a casual going away party last night, which was nice, although I felt super exhausted afterwards. I've been feeling pretty tired lately and I don't really know why. I guess I feel somewhat more awake right now, but it took pretty much the whole day to feel that way. We're going to watch a movie now, so hopefully I'll be able to stay awake for that.

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Recap of the past few days [2P]
Tuesday, August 30, 2016
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