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It seems like so much has changed in the past year.

I was hitting the gym like crazy for awhile, but that's slowed down now. A lot of the classes I was taking regularly got removed from the schedule, and a number of the gym instructors left, so that kinda messed up my routine. :T

Got into a car accident that gave me severe anxiety over being in cars for awhile. Even though I'm pretty much past the anxiety now, I do still get tiny fears that I'll lose control of the vehicle when I'm driving. That really spices up your commute, lemme tell ya. My perspective on the stability of my security and safety has been affected by that, but overall I think things are okay.

I feel... pretty much over my breakup from a year ago (it's been a year ago today, actually). It took a long time (felt like forever, honestly) to move past all the resentment and bitterness, and I think there's still some hurt left over, but things feel better. The car accident helped shock it out of my system, I'm pretty sure.

Lost (maybe that's not the right word, though) a friendship back in... October, back when I was still dealing with a lot of negative feelings and stress about the breakup. I didn't really write about it here, but it was an... ordeal... that lasted for a few months even after I stopped responding to the other person. I just didn't feel like I was in a place to handle it well at the time, because I didn't have the emotional resources to talk to that person the way they wanted. It was super draining and too much for me at the time. I wish things had worked out better than they did, because I don't hate that person, but I think it wasn't healthy for either of us at the time to keep going with it. I'm not sure if we'll ever be friends again in the future. I wouldn't be opposed to it at all, but from the little I know, it seems like the person might be moving on with their life, and I don't want to interfere with that or their potential growth.

Annnnnd of course, I made a new friend. I may have mentioned him a few times here. :P I think he is, without a doubt, the best thing to happen to me this year. He's coming to see me tomorrow, and then we're going to spend a few days hanging out with my friends and going to Burning Man.

In a few weeks, we're driving up to move me into my new apartment, and the next two years of my life are gonna start. I have no way of knowing how things will go, but I feel pretty optimistic, and I have some wonderful, loving people in my life who make me feel hopeful about the future. :)

The lyrics of this song have no relevance to anything in my life currently, but her voice is so beautiful and it gives me chills.

"Concrete Wall" by Zee Avi.

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"So Sad, So Sad" by Varsity.

Trying to be a perfect circle
Neat, just like I take my drinks
A crumb upon my plate leads to a week of crying streaks

Have been listening to this song a lot tonight.

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In super super super insanely awesome news, my coolest-of-the-cool friend Henry contacted me tonight to thank me for being the only one to like his Facebook post, and then asked if I would like to buy his Burning Man Tickets. I told J, and J was very down for it if I was, and, well, I'm a bit apprehensive about it, but it also sounds like it's an amazing experience, so I said yes, and J bought the tickets for us.

So... I'M GOING TO BURNING MAN!! But more than that, I'M GOING TO BURNING MAN WITH J!! I think about 30% of my excitement over this is the event itself, at 70% is over going with him. @[email protected]

These past few months have just been full of incredible surprises. I feel like my life is so different now than it was before, but in really nice ways.

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Gym time today: 3 hours and change

Same ol' Monday schedule. Mat Pilates, Cycle Fusion, and CSI. I also ran 3/4 of a mile after CSI, at a 7:41 minute mile pace. Maybe I could have done the whole mile, but I was pretty tired from my three classes, and I wanted to go home and eat dinner. I didn't get a sneeze attack this time, so that was pretty good. Makes me feel significantly less hesitant to start running again. My gym membership expires at the end of this month though, so... if I run, I guess it'll have to be outside. :S

I started writing my piece for writing group today. The meeting is on Saturday morning, so hopefully I'll have it done by then. I have a feeling this is going to take me awhile. Our prompt is to write a romance, which is basically the opposite of everything I ever write. I think that if I had to, I could write about people who already love each other, but I don't know how to write about people falling in love. It's not a subject I have that much experience with, and the experience I do have probably isn't... super typical. I'm not sure I'd want to write a romance based on my experiences, anyway.

I've never had too much of an idea of what goes into a romance, but I guess I tend to imagine it as being a situation where two people feel some kind of very strong connection to each other. An irresistible, fate-like attraction. Probably dominated by passions and emotions. Dumb things I don't want to write about! But I'm trying. The romance novels I've flipped through in bookstores (to laugh at >.>) have always seemed kind of trashy and ridiculous, and... full of sex scenes. I guess that's maybe the point, though. Fantasy material for middle aged housewives and that kind of thing. I'm not particularly enamored with the idea of some Fabio-esque muscular dude on a horse whisking me away to who-knows-where to engage in SORDID ACTIVITIES with reckless abandon, so I don't think I'm in the target audience for these books.

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[08/14/2016 2:16 AM] J: what did i do to deserve you liking me T-T
[08/14/2016 2:16 AM] Me: I feel like I should just copypaste that, because I wonder it constantly XD

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