Thursday. 6.23.11 9:16 pm
so i found out one of my friends went pretty far with her boyfriend in the bedroom. no sex, but boundaries were crossed. I mean, yeah, sex is something everyone has or will experience one day, but that's what I am worried about for myself.
See, my friend is the purest of the pure. Sweet, loving, and always watches out for boundaries. But just one time, and it led to her doing something she partially felt was wrong. we both are for having sex after marriage, and this happened just one random day.
Well, she is very responsible, and I am not. I am reckless, live for the moment, and I never think of the consequences. If my friend, who thinks about the future can get caught up in a situation like hers, then doesn't that mean that I am more susceptible to accidentally going all the way with my future boyfriend?
I know sex is something that a lot of people have. But personally, I truly want to wait until marriage. It just worries me how easy it is to get caught up in sexual acts. When I have my next boyfriend, I hope we have boundaries, and stick by them until we are married (if I marry him).
I am not condemning anyone who is having sex before marriage, or have gotten close to it. I am just saying, that if other people who are more careful than I that have a desire to save themselves but STILL get caught up in this, then I am in some deep waters when I am in a relationship.
I guess I'll just need some mad boundaries, like we could only be in a room alone together for a limited time. Or maybe, that only one of us can be on the bed while the other is sitting in a chair. Ha, yeah, those are weird boundaries. But I guess, whatever it takes right? It's easy though, to make these boundaries when you are not in a relationship. But once you are in love and such, boundaries easily go out the window. And that is what I fear >.<
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update at 2 in the morning
Wednesday. 6.22.11 4:55 am
so i'm back at home, finally! I'm glad to be home, but I really do miss living at my brother's house. Yeah, he can say really mean things about people, but he's good company sometimes. Also, I miss my nephew A WHOLE LOT. When I was saying goodbye, he was tired and I woke him up to hug him. Then, when he realized I was leaving, he reached out to me, hugged me and starting to cry :(. He made me cry too! It was very sweet. But I know I am going to see him in a month and a half anyways, so I'm good lol.
I brought home my brother's doggy ^__^. Her name is Kiara, and she is a Shih Tzu/Pug mix. I brought her home because my brother can't have dogs at his new condo, and because my mom needs a companion. She's experiencing empty nest syndrome, so I think having Kiara is great for her!!
Anyways, I'm going to see all my church pals tomorrow! yay ^__^ it'll be a reunion man! I should get some sleep now, since I've been up since 7:30 :/. I'll be posting a lot more now, so this will indeed be updated ^__^
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