Friday. 12.12.03 2:30 am
look wat my kitty got me!!! keke...im cute but psycho! so watcha outs!!....i love those bunnys...der so awsomely funny..keke...yupyup...kitty came over today and we just chatted a bit...he wanted to noe if i wanna roll wid him to an after party and to a club...but i culdnt cuz i was babysittin..=/...rar....but ish okayz...lol...den wen he was leavin hes car wuldnt start for sum dumb reason...but i got it to work tho...cuz im skilled ^_^...hehe... anywayz tho...imma go now...dunt feel like writtin in this rah now...hehe....byebye
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Thursday. 12.11.03 12:47 pm
*currently listing to....gigalo...nick cannon...*
urge....i had another horrbile nite..mutha fucker....i kept tossin and turnin all nite long.... culdnt sleep for shit.....i have no idea y....mayb kais rite...mayb i am bein haunted...cuz da other nite i was okies....den last nite i culdnt sleep agens...woke up all sore and shit...head hurted....so i went to my moms room agen and slept on the chinese bed....woke up at like 1030ish took my medicine....it sorta helped....the doctor gave me advil for the pain and shit....and the box says take 1...and if one doesnt work take 2.....now i wonder wat wuld happen if i did take 2....cuz 1 did the job...but 2 mite make me feel really good...haha.. j/k i aint no pill popper..lol dats dumb....anywayz...yupyup...anyways....just started gettin sum of the decorating done....still gotta put up the lights outside.....urge..i think ill do that tomorrow.....i think the reason i toss and turn at nite is cuz i dont sleep wen i shuld have...cuz i was gonna go sleep at 12 last nite...but my dumb ass got up out of bed and went online agen...just to talk to that syko boi...dumb huh?....i mean y shuld i try to stay up n talk to him for?...and y shuld i even stay online to talk to him..lol...i hate online now n days...so no more!! i go sleep wen i get dorwsy..no more stayin up for this grl..ish bad for ya!....hmmmm....listening to linkin park rah now...and i keep forgettin to get there cd.. hehe but yupyup.....i always have stuff i wanna write in this...but i always forget wat it is that i wanted to write...lol....im ghey....urge...oh wellz...imma bounce now...byebye!
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Wednesday. 12.10.03 7:56 pm
mutha fuckers....went to da doctors in pomona to get medicin fro me n my sis....cuz she got me sick agen!! RAR...urge..and i had to get a shoot rite!!....did u noe where he gave it to me at...my ass!!!!in my whole fucken life that ive gotten shots...i always got it on mah arm!! but nOoOoOo...he said ur butt!! i was like urge...felt kinda funny undoin my pants like dat... =/... lol...den ya...he gave us a prescription..den we got da medicin...after dats...went to mix bowl and got everyone food for dinner!! yumyum...but i didnt have much of an appatite tho...urge....but ya..i posted on friendster..on da bulletin board.... " why do all the bad guyz get the girls and all the good guyz get left behind?...."
this is wat billie wrote me
"cuz all the good guys seem like DORKS and NERDS
to the bigheaded, arrogant, thinks-shes-all-that
kinda personality kinda girls. When they should
stop and try to get to know those DORKS, NERDS,
DWEEBS, and whatsoever you think of them. Gotta
quit goin for the THUGS, GANGSTERS, PIMP,
PLAYERS, and whatnot cuz you get HURT so many
times. You say you dont want that in a GUY but
look whatyou end up with???? Try a little CHANGE
in your relationship. like they say, a lil change
WONT HURT. ya heard? This is BLUNT as I can be.
You know you can relate to that. You left nam cuz
you thought he was gonna go GANGSTER on you. Yet
you go for these other FOOS who be gangster too!
Hello??? I see a HYPOCRIT! a contradiction to
yourself. You tryin to be a good girl right? then
get a GOOD guy. Maybe you havent found yourself,
havent found what you're tryin to really look
for. Yea you're young and your decisions are ODD
but when you get older and mature, and i mean
REAL mature, you'll start makin somethin of
yourself FOR yourself. Im sure there are things
holdin you back and all, but you just cant give
up. like how your sister dont want you to go to
whateverschool cuz its too pricey. but you're
still fightin to go right? just dont give up,
NEVER give up actually. you give up and give in,
you got yourself a weakness and some people will
tear you apart by pickin at your weakness.
-iono dude, maybe im just sayin too much, hahaha,
its 930 in the mornin! im not thinkin right! but
anyways, have fun readin and laughin at what i
said, sorry if anythin got to you, lateZ"
jeppers...billie is right...and i knew this already...but here i am!! LOL.... aint that sum funny shit..hehe...hes rite tho.....i mean i do ned to find my self...i am slowly findin my self..this pass year ive learned alot..and im tryin to change alot...i just gotta get my shit done.. like my bother says..."dont say ur gonna do..just do it" no need to tell anyone...just let them see for themselves...^_^....i still take my bros advice...even tho i hate him at times..4 bein so mean...and boi....wen he drinks..he gets ANGRY!!!!!! like this one time my bother got drunk and shit..and like i guess he grabbed the photo printer off the desk and threw it!! ...i wasnt here..my sister was..and she told me bout it wen i asked her wat happend to da printer..LOL......hes crazy man...he even asked me to fade his hair one time while i was on the fone wid kai...MEMBER KAI!!!...b4 he asked me..he was all bitchin at me bout my room..and to clean it and shit....even tho it was clean..i just made the mess cuz i was painting my nails!!and after he bitched at me..he was all cut my hair..and i told him i dunt noe how to fade..and hes all...well ill teach ya....i was like okays....watta dummby huh!! i was soo fucken mad that he bitched at me...and im sure he knew this...but he fucked up by askin me to fade his hair!!..lol..of course i fucked up his hair...^_^..den his lady was gonna fix it..but it was to fucked up..hehe...so he just wore a hat!! ^_^ kekeke....dats funny.. den i tried to cut kais hair..and he didnt like it...so he asked his grand ma to fade it for him...=/....gosh pplz!! it takes practice to make perfect!! gimme a chance!!!!!!!! DAYM U GUYZ!! LOL.....ohh and now imma start advertising all the cars we got for sale at my shop...ill put it on my webby...and ill link it here when im done wid da site k!! hehe... anywhoz...i gotta start puttin up xmas lights outside...ill try to do it tomorrow..if it dunt rain..ACK!!...but ya..imma bounce so i can start puttin up the cars on my site!! byebye!!
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Wednesday. 12.10.03 9:16 am
blah......i swear i tried to sleep last nite....and i couldnt sleep...i kept moving and gettin da chillz....urge....i dunnoz wat time i ended up fallin asleep..but i woke up at 6...den at 7...and den agen at i dunno wat time..but i member hearin my bro n sis yellin bout sumting...i have no idea tho...den wen i got up at like 11ish my body felt so fucken weak!!! rar....so i went to my moms room and layed on her chinese bed...a chinese bed is the bed that heats up...ish hard to explain but ya.....it helps u sweat all that bad stuff out and helps u wid all ur sores n shit...i dunnoz...but ya...got up at like 12 cuz my sis started bitchin at me...=/...but my body felt a lil better...den cleaned a lil.....and went to work...after work went to my skool and got my transcript..after dat me n my sis got a x~mas tree...went home..ate...and now im here....mayb tomorrow ill put up da lights..and shit....not on the x~mas tree tho..were gonna wait for my nephew to come n help us wid dat ^_^ ahh tho....i gotta start gettin my shoppin done....or shuld i say...started!! FUCK...im laggin it bad..and makin da n'z ish fucken hard now n days..mom hasnt been payin me jack shit eh...fuck....i dunnoz....imma bounce now.....byebye
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Tuesday. 12.9.03 12:28 am
i took a lil nap earlier....felt pretty good.den bro woke me up to tell me that they ordered pizza!...lol..but ya anyways...dats y im here now...hehe...oreoz...didnt do much today.....was gonna get mah trascript...but dey were to bz agens...and now my sis trippin on me bout enrollin to da skool i wanted to go to..fucken asshole man...just cuz u gotta pay..and im like wdf man....mom said its okay..ur not da ones payin for jack shit ya noes? shes always bitching bout the bills...and im like -_-" uHhhHh you dont pay shit..u dumb twaked out grl...RAR.....oreoz now....now my education is on hold agens...so im gettin all fucken mad...i just wanna get that done....ahhhhhhhhh.....Deniece Williams "silly"... silly of me to think that you...would ever really love me too....ill get da rest of the lyrics later.....but ya....the songs good...ish an oldie but a goodie!!!!!!!!!!imma bounce agens.....gettin tired of stayin online for nutin...just to try to k.i.t wid dat syko boi..heh...if he really wants to k.i.t he has my number...peayce out negroz
Silly of me to think that I
Could ever have you for my guy
How I love you
How I want you
Silly of me to think that you
Could ever really want me too
How I love you
You’re just a lover out to score
I know that I should be looking for more
What could it be in you I see
What could it be
Oh...oh...oh...love, oh, love
Stop making a fool of me
Oh...oh...oh...love, oh, love
Stop making a fool of me
Silly of me to think that you
Could ever know the things I do
Are all done for you
Only for you
Silly of me to take the time
To comb my hair and pour the wine
And know you’re not there
You’re just a lover out to score
And I know that I should be looking for more
What could it be in you I see
What could it be
Oh...oh...oh...love, oh, love
Stop making a fool of me
Oh...oh...oh...love, oh, love
Stop making a fool of me
Ooh...hoo...hoo...hoo...
Silly of me to go around
And brag about the love I’ve found
I say you’re the best
Well, I can’t tell the rest
And foolish of me to tell them all
That every night and day you call
When you could care less
You’re just a lover out to score
And I know that I should be looking for more
What could it be in you I see
What could it be
Oh...oh...oh...love, oh, love
Stop making a fool of me
Oh...oh...oh...love, oh, love
Stop making a fool of me, uh-huh
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
Ooh...ooh...ooh...silly
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
Ooh...ooh...ooh...silly
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
Silly
Ooh, ooh, la-la-la-la-la-la-la-la-la-la-la-la-la
Silly
La-la-la-la-la-la
La-la-la-la-la-la-la-la-la-la-la-la-la-la-la
Silly
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Monday. 12.8.03 11:59 pm
i gotta stop smokin!!!! im seriously dyin every 10 mins for a smoke...FUCK...ive gone thru at least 5 packs this week....chain smokin a shit loud...and now am at dat point im coughin up a fucken lung!!! p.o.s....RAR.....fuckkkkkkk hehe...and last nite i still had ciggerates..but all i kept thinkin about was fuck....i need a new pack..now..so i go out n grab a new pack n jack in da crack...LOL...this was at like 4am too!! imma fucken crack head man...and i needa get to skool today!!!! and get my fucken transcript...p.o.s skool...ben fer 5 times now tryin to get dat shit...how fucken hard is it to get a fucken piece of paper signed!!! stupisd shit...hehe...god i had an intrstin nite tho....all my dreams were about me gettin shoot..me shootin sumone..and den my bro gettin into a fight...haha...oh..and me dyin... crazy huh?....i think its all that nicotin and shit..makin me crazy or sumthigs...lol...i goes now.. byebye!!
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