Wednesday. 7.14.04 11:38 pm
tired tired tired..
have not been bloggin these daes partly bcos i'm tired..and also bcos, there's not much to sae. my eyes r reali closing soon so i beta make this a fast one.. monday n tuesday were alrite..had my driving as usual..had arranged to mit dearie on monday but things gt screwed up n so well forget it. i'll nv wanna mit him again. at least for now. he has been doin this to me, dua-ing me for so many times. i wun make myself look like a fool anymore.
finally learn parking..new instructor was kinda nice. at first i tout its those old old one, but haha, its not! he's 29 but he looks like 25 lor. very corny also. i love such instructors. at least u wun feel bored for tt 100 mins. hav been slping late de past 2 daes..due to my hectic schedule! monday slept from 3am- 7am! tues slept from 2am - 7am!
tts y i'm very very tired today! lucky i brought my tutorial to sch today to finish it, so at least tonite can rest after typin this. hehe.
managed to go to de gym today too. i tink there's sth wrong wif my left leg. i haven run much den it hurts liao. n its only de left leg. hav been like this for a few daes le. n shit, de rashes on my neck haven recovered too. zzz.
due to my tiredness, my driving was kinda bad today. n i meant reali bad. if nt for my instructor helpin me to brake, i wld hav crashed into 3 cars. now ya noe how dangerous it was? guess i wasnt concentrating well. today was learning lane changing during heavy traffic. intially stil not too bad, but after awhile de traffic was reali heavy. i seem to estimate de speed of de car wrongly. sigh. guess sometimes we jus make wrong judgements in life..its been so long tt i felt so scared. so hard to lane change esp u noe ah, Singaporeans all so kiasu one.
de instructor kept teasing me..sae i blur, stupid, slow..everythg also same me. until i pek chek. haha. but he kinda cute too. hehe. *bleah*
friday will b my next lesson..hai, gonna finish all soon. but very scared..cos i'm reali not confident. sometimes can sometimes cannot one. sigh. tink i not gonna pass for de first rd de. *prays*
will be meeting my sec sch frenz tml..nid a break man..sch's schedule damn tired..plus my driving..its driving me nuts! anyone can gimme a massage? *lol* Comment! (0) | Recommend! Sunday. 7.11.04 5:37 pm tired me..jus gt bk from my frenz place after havin some discussion for proj. was raining so heavily earli tis afternoon. my fren drove to fetch another fren, had lunch at BK den after tt wen his hse. hmm..wasnt tt productive..most of de time was doin unrelated stuff to proj..sigh..
my fren played one of de song tt reminded me of dearie..dunno de title but its like.. "I'm not gonna let u down", "Dun giv up on me".....(some lyrics forgotten).... "Darling, wait and see"..tis song had a strong significance to me. dearie n i heard it 3 times on one dae at Bugis Junction..he sang it to me..and he told me not to giv up on him cos he wun let me down..i dunno how to describe de sadness i felt jus now..tears rolled down..but i pretended to b yawning.. not so nice ar, at fren's place ma..so must act-act..
dear..i did not giv up on u at all..i knew u wun let me down..and i'm stil waiting.. pls dun prove me wrong!
now showing on Channel U de "Zhen Qing" show..dearie noes i like tt show .. and he always tease me..sae i'm so blur like de ah chiong like dat..so he call me tt.. heh heh i noe he dun like de show..so i always purposely watch de show! haha.. den i'll hum de song to him..sounds stupid rite? hai..well, there's no more chance to do tt. :(
i miss cycling wif him at Pasir Ris Park too..our daes having our dinner at Fisherman Village.. definitely a memorable one.. it was his first time there wen i brought him, n he commented bout how nice n romantic de place was! i wish we can go there togeda again..
de fun at New Asia Bar wif dearie..where we'll play de "5, 10" game togeda.. sabo-ing each other to drink..i can stil visualise de happening moments we had.. *sobz* my dar dar..
*i miss you* Comment! (0) | Recommend! Saturday. 7.10.04 9:42 pm grandma came to my hse to stay! i miss her! hee..its been quite long since she came over. de last time she came over, i tink she was tokin to dearie..tellin him dunno wad " if relationship got prob, dun resort to break up, must settle properly". heh heh..i heard tt only..zzz..well, i mean, its pointless anyway.
my throat is tired..zzz, after stayin in de ktv room singing non-stop..haha.. was wif my darling Vivian at Cha Xuan ktv..de ktv dearie n i used to go..knew tis place from him de. sang many many songs..liang jing ru.. sun yanzi.. cai yilin..wang xinling.. SHE..su yong kang..alex to..many many more..
dearie has a gd vocal..got join competition n won prizes b4 wor. sigh..i miss de time he sang to me. esp wen we duet "xuan zhe" by sally yeh, on our last anniversary.. i love tt song so much tt i kept repeating..hee n he said i was siao. *nice mah* de lyrics simply expressed how we felt towards each other "wo xuan zhe le ni, ni xuan zhe le wo".. <3
spent most of my time at de ktv..din go else where except for de fact tt i had my driving lesson b4 tt. din do tt badly today.. :)
not reali lookin forward to tml..haha cos i gotta go my frenz hse to discuss project.. de tout of it makes me "sianzz". seriously. cant spend my time doing personal stuffs. argh.
my life has not gotten any beta..miss miss him badly..
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Comment! (2) | Recommend! Friday. 7.9.04 9:13 pm i jus changed my blogskins! nice ma? kinda cramp togeda hor? hmm..i dunno how to separate it wor..
my mummy is sick..hope she gets well soon. she look so tired n weak. :(
i kinda overslept today. zzz, woke up at 9+..did some housekeeping, den wen bk to my bed ard 11am. my class was at 3pm so i slept..heh heh. mum woke me up at 12 + but stil earli ma, so wen bk to slp. gosh, by de time my mum called me again, it was already 2pm! my usual routine was to leave hse 1 hr b4 lesson starts so it means tt i've to leave liao! but i haven even prepare myself man..it was so rushing n i tout i was gonna b late. left home bout 2.20pm. heng heng..reach class on de dot..even got ppl later than me. *relief*
was supposed to tink of a biz idea for our project..sigh, but we din reali had gd ones. din thought of much. sad.
last min my frenz cancelled de outing..hai..so i headed home. i'm seriously gettin weaker. was at de gym..run awhile den my muscle hurt. like so strained lidat. reali very pain. forced myself to complete de whole run. zz. so i'm kinda shag now. :p used to hav dearie at de gym too..we'll motivate each other..he will do de weights stuff while i do de rest..*sigh*
gonna hav my driving lesson tml..after such a long break. hope i've no prob ah.. hai, jus realise tt dearie cancelled one of his lesson next wk. so it means tt next monday will be like de "last" dae i can c him (if there's fate)..cos i also hav driving on tt dae..hai~ even if i get de licence le, so wad? also got no car to drive.. last time dearie told me we can rent de car for one dae go tou feng n hav fun..but now.. haiya, useless le. wish to see him..
today's our monthly anniversary.. :o
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Comment! (3) | Recommend! Thursday. 7.8.04 10:43 pm
i'm so full..zz..so sad tt tml i stil gotta go for some shit lesson. only one! had intended to mit my fren de..but aiyah, now can only mit after my lesson. today's lesson very slack..had 3 hr + break..so bored. wen to de other Foodcourt to makan.. couldnt go out cos raining..hai. its jus so hard to pass time. i kena tis xxx tt no one likes in my group proj again..dunno do how many proj wif xxx already. tis yr 3 very xiong. de schedule so damn tight. esp de Biz Development project is scaring me. all de plans r like so tight. zzz. i cant breathe! its been a long time since i last rested my mind n body physically n mentallly!
hmm but kinda happy today tho. cos managed to tok to dearie's sis on msn.. hope she's resting well at home. :) tk gd care wor. was tellin her bout sch n project stuff. hee, so glad tt she's willing to help me in any wae tt she can wif my proj! thanx in advance! i dunno, but i jus felt reali happy tokin to her. she gave me some ideas too. after all, she's a Mktg student too! :) n she's professional in websites! anyone wanna do website or flash, jus tel me! :p sigh.. din reali communicate much wif her wen i was wif dearie. how cum we only communicated wen dearie n i seperated? zzz.
was consoling 2 of my frens on msn bout some love problems..hai. y i can console pple..but not myself..? *frustrated* life..life..life..
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Comment! (2) | Recommend! Wednesday. 7.7.04 7:10 pm
wen to sch feelin so sleppy today..had a 9am lesson..plus i din reali like de lecturer..lagi more sianz. he taught us last yr and i din reali like his teaching. oh well, jus gotta go thru this again. his notes shown on transparency r like in one whole chunk of words..and he expect us to copy..wifout feelin tired? i tink i'll be a fast writer by de time exams come.. :(
last nite..de radio was tokin bout "divorce" wen i happen to switch it on. it jus made me pondered again. i was surprised by de fact tt this guy hu was wif his gf for 6 yrs..they broke up..and after 6 yrs..he's stil waiting for her. is it considered a gd thg? or a bad thg? is it gd to kp in contact wif ur previous bfs / gfs? or is it not recommended?
hai..it jus made me tink of dearie. he haven contacted me since.. de last time i saw him, he seem to hav lost a bit of weight. porbably due to de stress of work? sigh..no idea..jus hope he's doin well. guess he's having driving lesson tonite if i'm nt wrong (cos i booked lessons for him previously)..unless he cancelled it..
been missing him..wonder wad he's doin..where he is..who he's wif..argh.. jus put it simply, i miss him.
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