It is officially 2009.

What havok was wrought through 2008! Such monstrosities and disasters that I STILL devise plans daily of my escape from this Alcatraz of madness!

My mom's body is beginning to fail her.
I have spent more time in the hospital than in any other place these past two weeks.
And...
I don't know how to feel about that.
I don't want to know.


What I DO know, is how empty I've began to feel my life is.
Despite ALL I do, ALL I've done, and all I WILL do, I feel as though, in the end, I trully will be... alone.

And I have regrets. New ones. For things I have not done. For fear. Fear of love. What a coward I am, but what a fool I would be to entertain such follies. Though, for once in my life, I REFUSE to play the Hamlet! I will NOT die! I WILL FIGHT! I know what's right and wrong more oft than not, right?! Then why priddle praddle with the questions! Let's get to it!

...yet... UGH! WHY CAN'T I MAKE UP MY MIND!?!?!

WHY MUST I BE HAMLET!?!? Will I plague my own life with nothing but indecision until I die!?

CURSES!

For never was a story of more woe...

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