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So when I start to see some face in neon dreams
engulfed in fantasies, the world seems more inviting
A few words
"When we describe the Moon as dead, we are describing the deadness in ourselves. When we find space so hideously void, we are describing our own unbearable emptiness."
~ D.H. Lawrence

"Is the meaning of life defined by its duration? Or does life have a purpose so large that it doesn't have to be prolonged at any cost to preserve its meaning?"

"Living is not good, but living well. The wise man, therefore, lives as well as he should, not as long as he can... He will always think of life in terms of quality not quantity... Dying early or late is of no relevance, dying well or ill is... even if it is true that while there is life there is hope, life is not to be bought at any cost."
~ Seneca

"People will tell you nothing matters, the whole world's about to end soon anyway. Those people are looking at life the wrong way. I mean, things don't need to last forever to be perfect."
~ Daydream Nation

"All Bette's stories have happy endings. That's because she knows where to stop. She's realized the real problem with stories-- if you keep them going long enough, they always end in death."
~ The Sandman: Preludes & Nocturnes

"The road now stretched across open country, and it occurred to me - not by way of protest, not as a symbol, or anything like that, but merely as a novel experience - that since I had disregarded all laws of humanity, I might as well disregard the rules of traffic. So I crossed to the left side of the highway and checked the feeling, and the feeling was good. It was a pleasant diaphragmal melting, with elements of diffused tactility, all this enhanced by the thought that nothing could be nearer to the elimination of basic physical laws than deliberately driving on the wrong site of the road."
~ Vladimir Nabokov, Lolita

"It is easier to forgive an enemy than to forgive a friend."
~ William Blake
TICoSME
Musicalities!
Online Radio
Soma.fm

More Fun Shtuff
Newgrounds Audio Portal
Pandora
SoundClick
Kill that boredom!
Binder Paper Comics

Web Comics and Such
A Distant Soil (Some nudity)
The Adventures of Gyno-Star (Some explicit stuff)
Aquapunk
Axe Cop
Basic Instructions
Bear Nuts
Beeserker

Blue Milk Special
Bug
Buttersafe
ChannelATE
Cigarro & Cerveja
Crunchy Bunches

Curia Regis
Cyanide and Happiness
dead winter (has some explicit stuff)
Devilbear: The Grimoires of Bearalzebub (PG-13?)
Diesel Sweeties
DUBBLEBABY
Eat That Toast!
E-merl.com
The End
Evil Diva
Evil Inc.
Existential Comics
The Fancy Adventures of Jack Cannon
For Lack of a Better Comic
Forming (Explicit)

Girls with Slingshots (some explicit stuff...?)
Mirror
The Last Halloween
Last Train to Old Town
L.A.W.L.S.
The League of Evil Genius

Legend of Bill
Living With Insanity (some nudity)
Love Me Nice
Married to the Sea
Meaty Yogurt
Medium Large
The Meek
Metacarpolis
Monsterhood
Monsterkind
The Moon Prince
Moth (Some nudity)
Mr. Lovenstein
Muddlers Beat

Natalie Dee
Nedroid
The Non-Adventures of Wonderella
Optipess
Out There
Owen's Uncles
Phuzzy Comics
Political Cartoonists Index
Poorly Drawn Lines
Powernap
The Property of Hate
Red Meat
Rice Boy
Robbie and Bobby
Rosscott, Inc.
Safely Endangered
Saturday Morning Breakfast Cereal
Savage Chickens
Scary Go Round
Scenes from a Multiverse
The Secret Knots
Serenity Rose
Stand Still. Stay Silent
Stinking Hellebore
Strong Female Protagonist
Subnormality
Tales of Pylea
Three Word Phrase (some nudity)
Tiny Kitten Teeth
Toothpaste for Dinner
Trying Human (Some nudity)
Two Guys and Guy

Wilde Life
Witchy
xkcd
Yellow Peril (PG-13)

Infrequently/No Longer Updating Web Comics
The Abominable Charles Christopher
The Adventures of Dr. McNinja
The Adventures of Ellie Connelly
American Hell
Bag of Toast
Bear in Mind
Bobwhite
The Book of Biff
Brat-halla
Brightest
Broodhollow
Bullfinch
Camp Weedonwantcha
Chain Bear (Some explicit stuff)
Chainsawsuit
Conspiracy Friends!
Daisy is Dead
Distillum
Dream Life
Dumm Comics
Ectopiary (Some nudity)
Edemia
Edmund Finney's Quest to Find the Meaning of Life
A Fine Example
Finn and Charlie are HITCHED
Floodmud
Freaks!

Green Wake
Gun Show
Hark! A Vagrant
Head Doctor Productions
Hello with Cheese
Helpful Figures
Hollow Mountain
IDK Comics
Inscribing Ardi
Intragalactic
The Intrepid Girlbot
JBabb Comics
Kyle & Atticus
Lesbian Pirates from Outer Space
Letters to a Wild Boar
Lovecraft is Missing

Manta-man
Meat and Plastic
Minimalism Sucks
Mis-
Moe
Moon Town
The Nerds of Paradise
Nimona
No Reason Comics
Odd-Fish
One Swoop Fell
Patches
Pictures for Sad Children
Raymondo Person
A Redtail's Dream
Riotfish
Roy's Boys (PG 13?)
Run Freak Run
Saint's Way
Shortpacked!
Sin Titulo
Snowflakes
Split Lip
Spooky Doofus
SubCulture
Super Buzzkill
The Super Fogeys
The Super Gay Adventures of Ross Boston
Thermohalia
Troubletown
Mirror
Ugly Girl
YU + ME
2815 Monument

Pure Flash Awesomeness
Aardvardkbutter.com
Angry Alien
Die Anstalt : Toy Psychiatry
The Frown
Hoogerbrugge

Other
Bogleech
Clients from Hell
Brian Despain
Creatures in My Head
Damn You Auto Correct!
Jhonen Vasquez's site
Overheard in New York
Passive Aggressive Notes
Submarinechannel.com
Superdickery
UHpinions
Whirled
Words [DP]
Sunday, October 22, 2017
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Calmer day...
Friday, October 20, 2017
I forgot to note that I got back to the gym yesterday. Managed to run a mile, slowly and rather uncomfortably (chest hurt-- I'm not completely better yet), and walk half, then do Turbo Kick. Tried out some new weighted gloves that I got, and they worked well. I need to adjust to my new shoes, though. They're significantly more comfortable in the toe area but the way I run and my general standing/walking positions aren't adapted to these shoes, and I felt it.

Was hoping I might get to talk more today to the person I reached out to last night, but it's getting late and I need to go to bed. He said he had been working on some music he wanted to show me, so I'm looking forward to that.

Speaking of reaching out, James (Fro's friend) messaged me tonight saying that he thought we were talking at the party last weekend and got cut off, so we talked for a bit and now I have partial plans to see Rocky Horror Picture Show with him next weekend. Just need to talk to Fro to see if she's going that night, so we can coordinate...

Having been talking more regularly with Kyle recently and it's been nice.


It hasn't always felt like I can talk to people I would otherwise consider close friends lately, so I'm grateful to have him.

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Reaching out [4P]
Thursday, October 19, 2017
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BFF
Wednesday, October 18, 2017
I think Kyle might be the only person outside my family who I finally trust to not abandon me because of my depression.

(Thank you)

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IYAHTWIWTB
Wednesday, October 18, 2017
The lyrics of this song swim around my thoughts often.

"See Spaces (Dreamtrak Diamond Sound Remix" by TEETH.


I guess it's that time of year where I get to struggle to resist giving into self-destructive thoughts and urges. It sometimes helps if I have someone around I can talk to in person about stuff, e.g. a therapist or close friend, but neither of those options are particularly available to me right now. I know I'm spending too much time alone, but it's hard enough to get dressed some days, let alone coordinate with people to try to hang out.

Even though I know it will end, and that nothing lasts forever, good or bad, in the moment, it feels endless and inescapable. It feels like this is all there is and this is all there will ever be, and anything else is just a fluke, an error in the code, a typo in the story of my life.

Guess it's hitting me harder this year than some of the past years. Could be lack of exercise/in person socialization. I took my vitamins (including extra iron) today, drank some water, ate some food, maybe slept an okay amount, and got sun. It could also just be the accumulated weight of various unresolved issues in my life, though. I'm not exactly having an existential crisis, but I feel like I'm at the point where I would be if I were letting myself think too much about it.

I miss Pictures for Sad Children.

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Running shoes, house metaphors [4P]
Monday, October 16, 2017
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Familiar/unfamiliar [2P]
Sunday, October 15, 2017
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I kind of messed up
Saturday, October 14, 2017
So... I turned 26 and I'm not covered by my parents' health insurance anymore... Haven't gotten new insurance yet.

But now I'm sick and we don't have any of my cough syrup left. It's prescription-only because it's codeine-based, since I'm allergic to dextromethorphan.

Just sucking on cough drops for now, wondering when I'll get better. It's been a few days now, and in some ways it seems like it's just slowly getting worse. Really hoping it's not another 5 - 6 week bronchitis episode. I mean, I've gone weeks before without taking medicine or doing anything in particular to relieve symptoms, and this cough I have now isn't horrible, but I'd really like to have the option to take medicine if it gets worse...

Being sick has got me kind of down. I want to be able to go to the gym and work out, not be tired and coughing and sitting around alone at home. Thankfully my mood hasn't tanked yet, but I'm still kind of worried about it. Exercise helps me from dipping below a certain point...

This song made me laugh earlier.

"This Guy's A Stalker" by Foamy the Squirrel.

I don't really like the angry/ranting tone of most of Neurotically Yours anymore, but some of the music is still nice.

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